A Lesson on Possession

Soooooo, call me crazy, but I just thought of a new story idea that I wanted to start on before I forgot it. Don't be mad, but I'm posting the first chapter of this story before I post the next on of My Childhood Friend, Love Interest, and Teacher o.o Hahaha please don't hate me! T_T I'll try to get to that one sometime soon, don't worry! I haven't forgotten about it c; This won't be too long of a story, at least that's what I'm thinking knowing the idea I have...But who knows? I don't. This is the first story that I'm going to be writing completely in Sesshomaru's POV. At least that's what I'm planning on. But no promises, I've never been inside the mind of a guy so it might be a bit different xD Haha anyways, please enjoy you guys!(: Make sure to favorite and review and tell me how much you love me for putting my other in-progress story on hold :D*

I sat with my legs out in front of me, resting my head against an old oak tree that was obviously much greater in years than myself, and that's saying something, as I peeked through one half-closed eye at the young woman who was currently running in circles around the fire in the center of our camp. Her name was Rin, if you weren't able to come to that conclusion yourself. If it had been any other human, I may have just considered the insecent child-like giggles, granted she was now almost 18 years old in human years, that I was hearing from her through all of her running from Jaken's attempts to stop her to rest for the night, too irritating and have just ended her life for the mere reason that she was a being a nuisance.

But this young girl wasn't a nuisance. She was Rin. The girl who I'd for whatever reason taken a secret vow to myself to keep her safe, no matter what the costs may be.

'Perhaps it's because I pity her?' I questioned myself. But I knew that was not the case. I'd come across many humans with stories almost as depressing as her's, not often worse. It was very difficult to surpass Rin in the amount of pain she'd had to suffer through before I'd come along. She didn't even speak before she'd met me. Yet, after all she'd been through, she was now able to smile and laugh as though all was right in the world. Only 10 years ago, she'd completely lost hope in the human race. And it still hadn't been recovered. Thus the reason she chose to stay with me and sleep under the stars every night rather than living in a comfortable human village. Not that I minded. I'd grown accustom to the young girl's presence. Well, young wasn't the term for her. She was still in her late teen years, but in human years, she was considered suitable for marriage by this age. Not that she would be running off anytime soon to be married off to some good for nothing human male, they'd never be good enough for her. I would never have it, nor would she. She wanted to stay with me, if she could only have one wish in the world, I knew that would be it; a simple, good-hearted wish, just as was Rin. Not that she held such arrogant thoughts of being too good for anyone inside of her innocent mind, however, quite the opposite, she was actually extremely humble when it came to her, dare I say, beauty? It was no doubt that she was the most attractive human I'd ever seen, possibly even more beautiful than any demoness I'd come across in the hundreds of years I'd lived.

Over the years, her dark brown hair had grown down to just past the middle of her back. She had big, curious brown eyes that had always held a child-like innocence in them despite the hundreds of blood sheds they'd seen over the years, almost all of which had been caused by yours truly. Not that she minded. In her mind, I would never kill an innocent; no one who didn't deserve to die. I brought nothing but justice in her eyes; she had no idea. She had a heart-shaped face, that I only feel the need to mention because it brought out the beautiful glow that her cheeks always held, even when she wasn't smiling, along with a full set of lips that went well with the rest of her features and reminded you that granted, her face hadn't matured much since childhood considering her fair and supple skin and dough eyes, she was still an inviting young woman. Her body was...something else. She stood at a mere 5 foot nothing with an extremely small frame. She was done growing, much to her dismay. But her womanly curves made up for her child-like height. She was appealing from any angle you looked at her. Her legs were tone from all of the walking and running she did, the running she did mostly from Jaken. As for the rest of her...I'm refuse to give any more details. I'm no pervert. She's been like an adopted child to me for years and I would never allow myself to see her in that light, despite how appealing she may be to most. Besides, anyone who does care to know about any of her measurements aside from her height is a pervert! Stop thinking about innocent Rin like that, you sick fucks! ...*cough* Anyways, as I was saying. She's something else. 'To bad she's human.' I often thought to myself. Not because I wanted her as a mate, hope as you might, but rather because I know that with all of her vigor and determination, she'd make a strong demon. And perhaps, if she were a demon, I mayyy have grown some feelings toward her. But, she is merely a human. So rather than pawn over her as I'm sure any other man would do, I watch over her. Keeping her out of harms way, anywhere from being mauled by wolfes, killed, or even rape, the latter of which had only started to become more of a threat to her as of late. About the time her womanly curves began to show up. Connection, perhaps?

Anyways, that, in short, is my thoughts on Rin. Or perhaps the enlongated version. The short version would be "a young, kind and cheerful girl who's faith in humans had faded away long ago, thus she relied on me, the exact opposite of a human".

As my thoughts of internally praising Rin, unbeknownst to her, began to fade, the sound of her loud, cheerful laughter became more clear in my head, causing my sensative demon ears to twitch.

"Rin, enough." I said, closing my eyes lightly and leaning my head more comfortably against the bark of the tree.

Rin came to an immediate halt, as she always did when instructed by me. Obedience was one of her strongs points. Correction: Obedience toward me. She felt no need to show heed to anyone aside from me. Which a selfish part of me tended to enjoy. They did not save her life or keep her from dangerous situations more times than she could count. I did. Because I wanted to.

"Yes, My Lord." She said, bowing her head down in my direction, causing Jaken to accidently bump into her back, looking annoyed but was happy to be able to take to opportunity to catch his breath.

"Thank you very much, Lord Sesshomaru. Rin's insecent behavior was quickly beginning to irritate me. As I'm sure it was you, Mi' Lord." Jaken harped, much to my annoyance. He talked more than her, despite how much he claimed her talking bothered him, he never knew when to shut up. Even if Rin was a chatter-box, I much prefer hearing words from her soothing, cheerful voice rather than his nasily, raspy one. He had no right to make claims as to what bothered me and what didn't.

"Speak for yourself, Jaken." I replied harshly, leaving it at that.

Jaken's mouth was slightly agape, a "Nnn?" sound coming as he closed it and his eyes went wide. I peeked up from my position to see Rin react by sticking her tongue out at Jaken, placing her hands on her full hips, a perfect reminder that she was a woman despite her still childish actions. Jaken responded in silence, merely persing his lips in annoyance at the girl.

"Let's sleep, Rin. I don't want you to irritate Lord Sesshomaru's sensative ears any longer..." Jaken replied, most likely assuming that I'd spoken my final words for the night, meaning that he had the right to freely bully Rin without my interference. I wouldn't let him get what he wants. Not when he was so clearly judging my actions. I hated when others began to think I was predictable.

"Jaken?" I piped up, waiting for his reply, which came out as nothing more than a nervous "Mmp!". "...Apologize." I stated simply.

Jaken's mouth hung open for several moments after that, obviously in complete shock that I would expect him to apologize to a human.

Oddly enough, my curiousity at what Rin's reaction to this got the better of me, and I looked up once more to see Rin grinning, holding her head up high, hands placed on her hips in triumph as before. Childish, but humorous from my perspective.

"You heard Lord Sesshomaru! Apologize." Rin said, a playful smile gracing her lips.

Jaken sighed. "...I'm sorry, Rin. Forgive me."

Rin grinned. "No worries, Master Jaken! Of course I forgive you! Now let's rest, I don't want you irritating Lord Sesshomaru any further than you already have." Rin replied, giggling to herself.

I couldn't help but hide my own chuckle at her remark. It came out sounding like a cough, though I was sure Jaken knew otherwise. 'All well.", I thought. What's he going to do about it? 'Not a damned thing.' My slightly power-hungry side said smugly to itself.

Rin and Jaken attempted to find comfortable sleeping arrangements, and just as I was about to close my eyes for the last time of the night, I heard a small, nasily mutter from a few feet away. "Talk about favortism..."

"Something to say, Jaken?..." I questioned, staying in my current position as I waited for the imp's response.

"N-n-No Mi' Lord!" He practically weezed. I could tell, even with my eyes closed, that his eyes were practically bugging out of his skull in fear of me. 'Relax. I haven't killed you so far, have I?' I thought to myself as I set my mind at ease for the night.

I heard Rin giggle, as I felt her snuggle up beside me, resting her head on my lap. I was surprised by this at first, my eyes opening wide for a mere moment before they relaxed into the feel of her so close. I didn't mind it, and I definitely wasn't going to make her get up. After all, being the light sleeper I was, it may put my mind at ease to have her so close, knowing that I would feel Rin move if anything were to happen to her during the night and easily be able to stop it. Her next words, however, surprised me much more than her previous actions had, and these words would not be forgotten nearly as quickly.

"I love you, Lord Sesshomaru." Rin stated, snuggling into my lap slightly as she closed her eyes for the night.
My eyes must have gotten five times wider than they had before, and even when they relaxed themselves, the shock was still there. 'She means as a father. She means as a father! She means as a fucking father, damn it!' I continued to tell myself. Yet the echo of the words would not leave my head. What was wrong with me? I never would have had trouble deciphering the meaning of those words when she'd been younger. So why now? The only thing that had changed was her appearance. And her personality had grown more mature, to a very small extent. So why was she having such a strong effect on me? I sighed to myself, and by the sound of it, it obviously wasn't in contentment; more of thought. Nonetheless, I tried to put my mind at ease as I closed my eyes and relaxed into the feel of Rin on my lap and the tree against my back and drifted off to sleep.

The next morning, I woke up to seeing Rin still resting on my lap. She was now awake, however, staring up at me. 'Perhaps she'd been watching me sleep?' I was about to count that off as a possibility, until I saw a crimson blush reach her cheeks and she immediately looked down.

'Is she embarrassed?' I thought. Why was I over-thinking this so much.

"Rin. Look at me." I ordered her.

She looked up at me instantly, choosing obeying me over hiding her own embarrassment. I loved that about Rin.

"Were you watching me sleep, Rin?" I asked simply.

She looked down for a moment, once again, embarrassed. 'I got caught.' I'm sure was her thought. But once again, putting aside her embarrassment, she looked up at me and gave me a brave nod, though her cheeks were an extremely dark shade of pink as she did this.

"Why?" I inquired, genuinly curious.

"...You look at peace when you sleep. I don't normally get to see My Lord like that. It's different...I don't often get to look at you for more than seconds at a time. What's why I was staring at you, Lord Sesshomaru. My apologies. I didn't mean to trouble you..." She said, looking slightly ashamed with herself, though her words were brave.

I almost wanted to smile to myself, seeing that her reason was so genuine and cute. "You did not trouble me, Rin. It's okay. But answer me this: What did you mean last night when you told me that you love me?" I asked her, with no intentions of allowing her to avoid the question.

If Rin had been embarrassed before, she was now completely mortified, as I saw her tightly close her eyes as the redness in her cheeks grew darker and she looked almost as though she wanted to shake her head to tell me that she didn't want to answer me. And I would have allowed it. Putting aside the side of me that was eager to know and would have been annoyed had she not told me, I decided that I would not force her. Just as when we first met, "you don't have to tell me if you don't want to", I remember telling her.

But instead, Rin summed up the courage to say something that she knew she may very well regret later. "Just as I said. There was no complicated meaning to my words, Lord Sesshomaru. I know what love is. 'I love you'."

My head tilted to the side for a moment, before my curiousity once again got the best of me for the millionth time in less than twenty-four hours. "...Well if you are aware of the meaning of the word 'love', though I have no idea who taught you such ridiculous things, then you should know that there are different meanings to the word. In what way did you mean it?"

She stared at her lap for a few moments, honestly seeming as if it piqued her interest more than looking back at me did. But, she somehow managed to sum up her courage for I'm sure what she was hoping would be the last time of the day, to look back up at me with a very small, unsure smile, saying "I suppose that I love you in every way that a person can possibly love another. As a parental-figure. As a Guardian. A Savior. And as a man...You are everything to me, Lord Sesshomaru. You fill every role that a person can possibly play in another person's heart. This is why I only need you, My Lord."

I sat there, looking away from her for a moment in order to clear my head and be able to keep all thoughts of her obvious beauty away from the response I was expected to give her. She seemed to take this as her response, however, and continued speaking as if I'd already given her a definite no.

"I understand that Lord Sesshomaru is very desireable to all woman, and I'm very sorry if my confession disturbed you, My Lord. I shouldn't have been so blatant with my feelings. Please forgive me. I also know that to be in love with someone is to claim that you believe yourself to be on the same level as them. I know that I am no where near as great as Sesshomaru-Sama. You are a powerful demon Lord, I am a mere human girl that always gets in your way, this is something I understood long ago.I did not expect you to ever feel the same for me, so there is no need to feel as though you've hurt me. You can forget I said anything, if you prefer that. I don't want things to change between us..." She said. As she went on, her voice slowly got smaller and more insecure, and I could see liquid beginning to form around her tear ducts as she rapidly tried to blink it out, looking down at her lap in order to avoid my gaze, supposing I may not see it.

For the first time in my life, my body moved faster than my mind. I did without thinking. Before I knew it, I'd captured her lips in mine. She was obviously surprised. Expecting to be rejected. Not that I didn't plan to reject her. As soon as this kiss ended, I would allow her to know the extremely small, if not, non-existant place that she held in my heart and mind. She needed to know that she was nothing to me. Nor would she ever be. As she said. She was an unworthy human; I was a powerful demon. But these were not the thoughts that filled my head as our lips continued to meet over and over again. How could they when the feel and her warm and soft lips were consuming my only thoughts. For once, my mind could only focus on one thing: One amazing, un-regratable act.

As I pulled away from her, and she attempted to look into my eyes for any sign of emotion that we both knew only she was ever able to read, everyone else being convinced that my eyes were lifeless and never held any sign of anything but hatetred. As she did this, I turned away from her and stood up, forcing her off of my lap for the first time since last night.

I did not turn to look at her even once, I was afraid that my expression may tell her what was running through my mind. Which would be bad considering I had not even figured that part out yet.

"...You...You didn't want to...?" She asked, not allowing herself to finish the question, as I'm sure even she was aware of all of the pain and hurt that her voice held. She did not want to betray her words from earlier when she had told me that there would be no reason for me to feel as though I'd hurt her.

"It's as you said: You are a human. You know how I feel about humans, yourself included." I stated, keeping my voice hard as not to give her false hope.

"...Then...Then why...? I was told by Keade that kissing is a way of showing that you and that person share the same feelings..." She asked, her voice cracking out of sadness. I'm sure she was internally cursing herself for her show of weakness.

Meanwhile, I was internally cursing Keade. Had that bogus old woman not told Rin all of these absurd things, the inside of Rin's heart would have been in confusion and turmoil rather than being hurt after having figured out how she felt but not having her feelings returned. "It is also a way to show possession. Keade must have left out a few things when telling you about all of this. Like all of the possible meanings of the responses of the person in which you confess your feelings to."

"...'Possession'?" Rin questioned innocently. Surely her innocent mind had not yet heard of such things.

"That's right. I'm sure you understand what it means to possess something: to own it. You know when we go into the market-place to buy new kimonos for you and other things. We buy those things with money, therefore, they are our possessions. But there are other ways to possess something. Like, in the way I've saved your life on more than one occasion. You feel indebted to me because without me, you would have been dead long ago. Therefore, you are, in eccence, mine." I felt almost guilty for having brought up the issue of Rin being indebt to me. In my mind, she owed me nothing. I would have saved her had she stayed by myside or not, as many times as needed in her short and fragile life. But I knew that in Rin's mind, she really did owe me her life. And that if I told her that she belonged to me, it was true.

"...I understand. But, if I am merely a possession of Sesshomaru, does that mean he feels nothing more for me than he would for something he bought from the market place?" Rin inquired, hurt now blatant in her weak voice.

"...That is correct." I lied.

I expected Rin, as any selfish human would, to throw a tantrum, claiming that if I felt nothing for her more than a load of bread or a new kimono, then she is in no way my property no matter how many times I had saved her life, and to storm off in anger, only to come back to me hours later complaining that she knew nothing of the outside world without me. And I would have accepted her wish to come back without hesitation. Because she clearly meant more to me than any other selfish human girl, even if she couldn't see it, and even if the care that I harbored for her was nothing close to the feelings she held for me, and even if she could not see past the obvious lie I had just told her.

That was how I thought she would react, at least. Therefore, I'm sure you can understand why her words that followed my statement surprised me. For Rin was not just any selfish human girl. She'd been raised by me from a young age, and had been taught not to ask for more than what was given.

"...Very well then Sesshomaru. I care for you. But if you care for me no more than something you bought in the market place, I will accept that, and continue to travel with you. As long as you approve of me staying by your side. For I could not bare to leave your side for any reason other than it being a direct order from you, My Lord." Rin responded, sounding hurt, but undoubtably loyal.

I turned to her to see something that I had never expected, having to hold back a small gasp when I saw the look of devotion and love in her eyes, along with the weak smile placed on her flawless lips.

"...You may stay." I told her. She giggled, trying to sound light hearted as not to give away the obvious hurt written all over her face, failing when a single tear fell from her eyes and dripped down her cheek onto her kimono-covered chest.

"...Thank you, Lord Sesshomaru. This is all I could hope for in the world. As long as I may remain by your side, I do not need love in return. I must learn to love without being loved." She told me, wiping her cheek, trying to look toward the ground as to avoid my gaze.

I moved closer to her, wiping the remaining wetness the tear had left of her cheek, and looking down at her through emotionless eyes, though the guilt that I felt for causing her to cry was hidden much too deep for anyone to catch it.

"As I told you: You are my possession. I will not allow you to leave my side. Whether I have bought my possessions, earned them, or fought for them, I am their owner, and they have no right to think for themselves whether or not they want to stay with me. They belong to me, every single one of them, and every possession of my possessions: they belong to me as well. And it is my job and mine only to make the decision of whether or not to keep them with me. And as for this possession..." I told her, placing my hands lightly on her shoulders, and finally looking into her eyes, being sure that there was no readable emotion in them aside from honesty in them, "I am no where near being done with it. You are my toy that I have earned by capturing your devotion and love, whether that be through saving your life or through other means. And it is my right to use you until I grow tired and decide to throw you away. Don't you forget that." I finished, seeing a mix of almost every good and bad emotion possible mixed in her strong brown eyes: confusion, angst, hurt, devotion, hope, crushed hopes, and love.

"Yes, Lord Sesshomaru. I will take whatever place you wish for me to take. If that be as a possession that you plan to toy with, I will not object. You have just recently informed me of the meaning of what I am to you: A possession. But I have understood for a long time before now that I am yours. In every way physically and emotionally possible." She finished by closing her eyes, for one long, torturous second. And when she opened them, she seemed to have managed to wipe away every heart-wrenching emotion that they had just been holding, and replaced them only with more love, admiration, and devotion. A smile took the place of the grimace or scowl I had been expecting her lips to hold after being told something so heartbreaking and uncaring.

She was a strong one. I'd known this for a long time, being able to laugh through all the bad things that had happened in her life. But never had I expected her to love so deeply, be crushed, and still be able to fake a smile, if only for the satisfaction of the person who had just hurt her. Yes, she was strong.

When I thought about this, I could not help but to once again lift her face up to mine gently, and then aggressively crush my lips onto her's for a second time this morning. She was my toy after all. I was allowed to show her hurt, affection, and any other emotion that I chose to expose her to. I was not oblidged to love her, she even said so herself. And if she was willing to pretend to be happy with me rejecting her and claiming that she belonged to me anyways, that was her own choice. I only had to enjoy using her in whatever way I please.

*So, this is the closest I've come to keeping Sesshomaru in character in any of my stories. It was pretty tough for me, seeing as I see love as being a lot more gentle than Sesshomaru would ever be able to show with his cold attitude toward anything and everything, including the things that he cares about o.o Haha but it was fun :D I already know what the next chapter's gonna be about, but I don't know if I'll write the next chapter of this one first or the next chapter of my other in-progress story first :o Either way, I'm enjoying both of them(: I hope you guys are enjoying reading them as well. And I love to hear what you guys think! So please review and favorite it you don't mind c: Thanks for reading! Add this to your alert so you'll know when I post the next chapter! :3 Well, I'm gonna go now *.* Haha*