You scan the charms classroom, looking for an empty seat.

Instead you spot an ALL TO familiar face. A familiar face that grins at you in an ALL TO familiar way. And the pain begins.

It's a funny kind of pain. The kind that makes you smile.

You smile back at him because… ?

and as this thought regesters in your brain, your smile slowly fades. As you realize your smiling at your tormentor your smile evaporates and a grimace falls into place. That horrid thought banging it's fists and stomping it's feet, or is that you're heart.

You're heart beats faster and faster, a reaction to your pain.

YOUR PAIN.

It hurts so much you think you might die… you think you might want to die. But your heart beats faster and louder, as if it's trying to tell you that you're alive and not about to change that. You're perfectly healthy, so living is the only choice.

And suddenly you're aware of that ALL TO familiar face again.

And you're smiling again.

And your heart stops, as if to say 'stop complaining and for Merlin's sake live a little!'

So you do.

It's only natural that you're completely confused. I am, but I think that was probably the point of this story….