They abandoned me in a cell to rot. I thought my best friends loved me, we were Nakama right? well why did they trade me to save themselves? the pain hurts and I want them to suffer like I did. After a mission gone haywire Lucy finds herself lost and stuck in a downwards spiral of hatred, until they give her purpose and a chance at retribution against Natsu and Lisanna. R&R please

Hey Guys its me, the one and only Fierynitemare your favoritest writer ever (probably not, but you can let a girl dream.) Back with another story, I promise this one won't go on hiatus I have made a promise to myself and intend to keep it, this story will be updated on fridays while a fire dragons mate has reserved saturdays and mates lost the poll

a fire dragons mate tied first with mates… and the celestial trio came in second so I'm getting rid of that… but I couldn't bare part with my horribly written Oc's and decided to do a re-write of the Story with them and some more, Sorry guys but after an intense session of iny miny miney mo (not sure how to spell that ( I really need to learn how to english)) i decided to dub mates as finished and will continue to update a fire dragons mate on saturdays or sundays.

I promise there is no cheating this time, oh and sorry if Natsu comes off as a little ooc same with lisanna but I have to set it up for later chapters I promise nothing is as it seems so bare with me in the beginning.

Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail

Chapter One

The terrified screams that erupted from Lucy's throat, echoed off the bare walls of the room she was being torchered in. Her pain and agony bouncing around and traveling down the hallways for all the others to hear. Lucy jerked against the table as she was blasted with the magic cannon once more, and another scream managed to escape from her lips.

"Gosh blondie, you're gonna scream yourself hoarse is you keep that up." Lucy looked over at her crazy nineteen year old captor, Kain as he stepped away from the shadowy corner in the room, darkness tailing behind him as he approached the metal table she was strapped to. "Come on babe." he begged his red eyes flashing with some unidentified emotion "Just give in, and the pain will stop." he said as he stroked her blonde locks out of her face. "Merge with what you have been given and you'll finally see them again." he whispered "Come on Luce, it's been seven months, a mage can't last forever cut off from her magic, it'll drive you insane."

Mikhail and Kain had been torturing Lucy for months, hoping to bring out an ancient magic hidden inside of her blood line, it was neither dark nor light and many conceived it as a great power stronger than zeref himself. They tried threatening her, cutting her, beating her, but none of it worked, so they moved on to tests and experiments, trying to figure out how she worked and what would bring it out. In the past, they injected her with adrenaline, and broaught her to the brink of death, using Kain's blood to revive her after the attempt failed, but then they moved on to other things, when those all failed to bring out the magic. they decided to give up on it, now they conduct experiments on her trying to make a new stronger magic, so they shock her with a blast of condensed magic, letting it fuse inside of her and create something strong and indestructible, changing her into something more, something dangerous.

Lucy jerked her head out of his grasp "Never." she tried to convey as much conviction and ice in her hoarse voice as she could

"Fine." Kain said shrugging "have it your way." swiftly he turned on his heel, and strode out of the room signaling to his father to start the machine back up.


Lucy was sent back to her room, when Mikhail decided he was finished experimenting on her, disappointed with the lack of progress being made. Rough hands shoved her into her claustrophobic cell, and the door was slammed behind her with a deafening thud and a resounding click. The beaten celestial mage, dragged herself over to her tiny bed and slumped down on it feeling exhausted. She reached under her pillow and grabbed her keys, feeling empty as she gazed at the shinny gold and silver keys, she missed them more than anything, and longed for the day when she would be able to see their faces again. I'm sorry that I got you into this mess guys. When lucy was captured by Mikhail, the first thing he did was steal her keys and place an enchantment on them, preventing them from ever leaving their gate, Her spirits were forever prisoners in their own home. A lone tear slipped out of her eye as she recalled how she ended up here.


Lucy had just walked through the guild hall doors when she saw Lisanna kiss Natsu, and a gaping hole tore through her heart at the sight. The two had become official just three weeks ago, and Lucy was happy for her best friends, but she just couldn't stop the pain she felt whenever she saw them together. Plastering on a smile lucy strode over to the love birds and slapped them both on the back of the head "No PDA in the guild hall, there are children among us." She said with a smile that masked the guilt she felt inside

Lisanna looked up smiled "Good morning to you too Lucy."

"Heya Luce." Natsu said "We have a mission the three of us can go on, and it pays a lot of money, so you'll have enough for rent."

Lucy scrunched up her nose but still kept an easy going playfull look on her face "A mission with the two of you? I don't think so."

"Come on Lushi pleeeaase." Lisanna begged "It'll be fun."

"No way." Lucy shook her head adamantly

"Why not?" Natsu asked

"Why?" lucy repeated what Natsu said "Because whenever I go on missions with the two of you, you always act all lovey dovey and I'm always the third wheel, do you know what it's like being trapped on a mountain with the two of you jack rabbits."

Lisanna's cheeks reddened at what Lucy was insinuating "Well what if we invite Gray and Erza Two." Natsu proposed

'No." Lucy replied

Lisanna shook her head "I didn't want to have to do this… but I'm cashing in a besties promise. This mission pays a lot of jewel and it says we need a celestial mage, besides I haven't gotten to spend time with my best friend and my boyfriend in ages, it's like you avoid the two of us whenever we're together Lucy… I miss you."

Lucy was instantly slammed with guilt and she felt like the shittiest friend ever, becuase she was avoiding them. Well she was avoiding her feelings for Natsu and her Jelousy of her Best friend. She wasn't even going to come to the guild today because she knew they would be there, and hated the feelings that she got whenever she saw the two of them together. The only reason she came was because she needed a mission to do so she could pay her rent. Lucy sighed "Fine… but only because My rent's due soon."


Male screams echoing down the hallway snapped Lucy back into the present, and for the first time in what felt like forever Lucy wondered if the screams belonged to Natsu, or Gray. After six months of radio silence and isolation Lucy assumed that her friends were dead and Lost hope of ever seeing them again. And after searching through the whole compound, looking for them, besides If they were alive, they wouldn't have let her go through seven months of pain and torture without trying to save her… but then again they didn't really do much to stop Kain from taking her away.

Lucy wasn't always isolated, she used to be crammed in a cell with Gray, Natsu, Erza and Lisanna, but one day Kain, approached their cell, with his lackeys following behind, and had his guards separated Lucy from the others. Lucy kicked and screamed at the guards, even pleaded with them not to take her away from her friends. But Kain just stood there emotionless and silent as they dragged her away. If she wasn't so busy resisting the guards she would've noticed her friends lack of movement and their exchange of guilty looks. For the First few weeks Lucy screamed and demanded to see her friends, she even threatened bodily harm, all she got was a sedative pumped into her padded white cell, and beating for bad behavior, until finally she just stopped asking.

When the experiments started six months ago, Mikhail told Lucy that her so called The 'friends' sold her out, that they struck a deal and sacrificed her to save their own sorry asses, Lucy didn't believe him then, she thought he was just trying to break her spirit so she gave off a haughty laugh, and told him that only a fool would believe such a thing because Fairy Tail would never betray her, they were family. Mikhail's only response was to laugh in her face and push the button on the magic cannon.


After eight months with still no progress, Mikhail finally decided that it was in everyone's best interest to allow Lucy to escape hopping the pain and betrayal she would feel at seeing her friends alive and well, would be the catalyst to unlocking her power. He set everything up and waited for Lucy to escape making sure to send kain after her to observe her and see if there was any change in her behavior or magical energy and waited to hear back.


Lucy played right into Mikhail's plan when she ran back to the guild, weak frail and malnourished, slightly insane from all the things done to her. She traveled all the way back to the guild hall not even pausing once in her pursuit to save her friends. When she reached the guild hall, she stopped cold in her tracks at the sight before her. It felt as if a knife stabbed her in the of them were there Gray, Erza, Natsu, Happy, and Lisanna were all sitting at a table, they looked happy and carefree. Lucy didn't understand, what are they doing here? she had spent months trapped at the Purgatory Institute, being tortured and beaten, worrying about them, When they all were here the whole time! She escaped just so she could save them...but apparently they didn't need saving. Natsu and the others were already here..Why didn't they come back to save me? Mikhail's voice filled her head "They sacrificed you to save their sorry asses." "they forgot about you Lucy… it's time to move on." "They aren't a very nice family Lucy." "Lucy! they're never coming back… so you might as well just stop resisting." "We would treat you like a real family Lucy we'd value you instead of calling you the weakest link." The blonde Celestial Mage was instantly filled with rage she felt hot and cold all over as a foreign presence took over. I've been stuck down there for eight months. For eight months I had to deal with the torture and experiments, and the nights filled with screams of agony, slowly losing my mind, and they were HERE! I spent eight months worried about them, but they clearly left me to die and then chose to forget. Fairy Tail you will pay… it seems you all have forgotten about me. But I will never forget you! One day my name will strike fear in your heart, it will make your knees tremble, and your heart race, and we will see who is weak then. Lucy turned back around and headed for the purgatory institute.


Natsu paused mid bite, and sniffed the air around him. He put his chicken back on his plate, suddenly not hungry anymore. The pinkette was flooded with guilt as he sniffed the air, once more, just to be sure. Impossible… she's dead .

"What's wrong Natsu?" Happy asked, noticing his friends weird expression

"Uhh... nothing...just thought I smelled Lucy is all." The whole guild paused at having heard Natsu's words

"But that's Impossible." Levy said from across the guild hall "You told us that Lucy died on that mission eight months ago."

Everyone on team Natsu sweat dropped as they were filled with guilt at Levy's words. "Yes Lucy did die… she died trying to save us." Lisanna said guilt filling her instantly at the lie, Lucy didn't die because she wanted to save them, she died because they failed trying to save themselves

Natsu got up, having completely lost his appetite, and went to visit Lucy's grave. Everyone watched as Natsu left the guild, feeling sorry for the fire dragon slayer, Lucy's 'death' hit him the hardest.

Natsu kneeled down at Lucy's grave and cried "Forgive me Lucy." he whispered. Natsu would never forget the day he betrayed his Nakama and Lied to his guild.

Flash Back

Natsu threw himself against the bars of the cell in rage "If you expect us to betray our Nakama you're sadly mistaken!" He yelled at Kain

"You have seventy-two hours to make your decision." the blonde threw over his shoulder as he retreated down the hallway

Natsu growled "Get back here and fight me like a man!" he threw himself at the bars once more and was about to do it a third time, but Erza grabbed him by the shoulders and threw him on the floor.

"Natsu stop!" she ordered "All you're doing is wasting your strength and energy."

"Well do you have a better way of getting us outta here!" he threw at her

"Yes we have to give Lucy up." Lisanna said as she stood up from the floor "Mikhail and Kain clearly want her...so let's just give the bitch up and get outta here."

Natsu, Gray, and Erza stared at the blonde sleeping in the corner. "How could you say something like that Lis! Lucy's family, we don't betray family!"

"How can you not say something like this Natsu!" Lisanna jabbed a finger in Lucy's direction "She's the one who got us trapped here, she's the weakest link of the team, she's the one who always needs to be saved, she's the one who constantly gets us into situations like this, and she's holding this team back! I hate her! I say good riddance to Lucy!"

Natsu looked to Erza hopping she would be the voice of reason. Erza was busy glaring at Lucy's sleeping form. "She's right." Erza finally said after a long silence

Natsu was shocked "Erza!" he gasped

Erza snapped at the pink haired boy "What do you want from me Natsu! Lucy's not even helping us try to find a way out of this mess. She got us into this and instead of helping us, she's sleeping, making us do all the hard work while she does nothing! It's always like this Natsu! She sits around on all the jobs and does nothing yet she always gets the reward for her stupid rent! I'm tired of it Natsu! She's a sorry excuse for a mage and it's time she pays us back!"

` "Gray." Natsu pleaded "You don't think that do you?"

Gray shrugged "Sorry Natsu."

Natsu turned away from everyone "You are all dirtier than scum." He said lowly, but he couldn't help but feel like scum himself because their words did have an effect on him, and he hated himself because of it.

When morning came, five guards came in and beat Erza, Natsu, Gray, Lisanna, and Lucy up. They didn't stop until the five were broken bloody and on the brink of death. Kain and Mikhail beat and starved the group for three days until finally Lisanna snapped "You see Natsu were going through all of this because of her!"

Natsu, tired, hungry and irritable, couldn't take it anymore he glared at Lucy who was once again curled up sleeping in a ball on the floor. "YOU KNOW WHAT! You're right… I've been a fool to argue on her behalf, she weak and deserves this fate." Natsu called out for Kain and told him he could have Lucy, but after the guards took her away he instantly regretted it "Why do I feel like shit?" he asked

" I feel it too." Erza agreed

"I have a feeling of foreboding." Gray said

"I feel great!" Lisanna said "We get to be free now!"

Only Lisanna was wrong, Kain kept them for another month he still starved and beat them, only feeding them every so often so they wouldn't die. And everyday of that miserable month Natsu glared at Lisanna "If we give Lucy up we will be free! Lucy deserves to help us! she never pulls her weight!" Natsu yelled at Lisanna in a mocking tone "Well we did that. SO WHY AREN'T WE FREE HUH! I GAVE UP A GOOD NAKAMA BECAUSE OF YOU AND YOU'RE STUPID LITTLE CRUSH! we all know the real reason why you wanted to give up Lucy was because you were threatened by her! And you know what! I betrayed my family for nothing because we're still here damn it! And we don't have Lucy anymore and I just I-." Natsu was cut off by the sound of Lucy's screams. They were screams of pure agony and Natsu felt like he was gonna throw up.

Gray felt sick too "Nobody deserves what ever they are doing to her."

Erza placed a hand over her mouth "Oh my-."

Natsu glared at everyone "Are you guys happy?! Lucy's finally pulling her weight. You got what you wanted Lisanna! Lucy's outta the way now! Look at what you did to our Nakama."

Lisanna glared at Natsu "Natsu you wanted this to happen to her too! you called Kain, you handed her over to the guards, you even said 'she deserves her fate.' so don't you act all innocent because you had role in this too, we all did!"

Natsu glared at the white haired girl before him "I hate you Lisanna! Lucy better be okay because if she isn't I'll kill you myself."

For a whole month the team was torchured with Lucy's screams every single night, it ate everyone up inside. One day Kain approached their cell. Natsu sprung up from the floor and started bombarding him with questions "What did you do to Lucy? Where is she? Is she okay? You better give her back or else I'm gonna burn you to a crisp!"

Kain ignored Natsu and walked over to their cell door "We struck a deal remember? Lucy is mine now. You betrayed her, to save yourself. She is no longer your concern… but if you must know… the blonde is dead, her blood is on your hands. So now I will set you free."

Natsu collapsed on the blood stained floor he felt as if the wind was knocked out of him, Natsu couldn't breathe and he felt like he was stabbed in the chest "No!" he choked out "She can't be dead." a heavy weight settled on his shoulders "You killed her."

Kain looked at Natsu with cold dead eyes "No my friend." he said with a sadistic smile "You killed her… it was your decision that led to the celestial mages demise."

Lucy's dead. His Lucy was dead. Never coming back. Robbed of her innocent life. She didn't deserve this! Natsu glanced over at lisanna the start of it all. But she does… she deserves to die. Natsu marched over to the take over mage and started to choke her "YOU DID THIS!" he yelled as he shook her. Lisanna's eyes widened in fear "YOU KILLED LUCY!" Lisanna tried to fight Natsu off he his hands kept on tightening and soon black spots started to dot her vision "I LOVED HER!" Lisanna's eyes welled with tears and she choked on a sob

After Lisanna passed out Natsu kept on choking her, he wanted to kill the little devil. The dragon slayer would've succeeded if it weren't for erza hitting him in the back of his head, knocking him out. Kain watched the whole thing amused "My. My looks like someone's got issues." Erza glared at the blonde "Well Looks like my work here is done." kain gestured to the guard to unlock the cell "You're all free to go."

"I should kill you" Erza said as she carried Natsu out of the cell

"GO ahead." Taunted Kain "Killing me won't bring your precious Lucy back, and it won't fix the fact that you betrayed her either... Man that lucy, she was a feisty one, and she was so worried about you guys too, wondering if you were okay, she threatened us a lot too said if we hurt you guys she'd kill us, she often said it was the thought of you guys that kept her fighting...if only she knew." Kain shook his head "We even tried to tell Lucy you guys betrayed her to save yourselves but she wouldn't believe it." Kain chuckled "You know what she said when we told her you betrayed her she said that only a fool would believe such a thing because fairy tail would never betray her, they were family." kain was bent over laughing now "How stupid was she!"

Erza gritted her teeth and clenched her fist "Shut up! You do not get to speak of Lucy like you knew her!"

Kain stopped laughing and smirked "Neither do you." he bent close to Erza's ear and whispered "You killed her."

Erza punched him in the stomach and yelled "SHUT UP!" she waited for the slightly crazy nineteen year old to get up

Kain just sat there and rolled around on the floor laughing, soon after that he started to sing "Erza killed Lucy! Erza killed Lucy! Erza Killed Lucy! She betrayed her own family!

Erza's face turned red from anger "SHUT UP!" she yelled "I WOULD NEVER KILL MY OWN FAMILY! I ONLY WANT TO PROTECT THEM!"

Kain laughed harder "That's rich! Erza protected her family by killing them! WOW!"

Erza requipped and was about to run her sword through kain's chest when Gray placed a hand on her shoulder "Stop. he wants you to do it. Don't let him get a rise out of you Er. Let's go home."

Erza turned on Gray "HOME!" she shouted incredulous "How can you call that place home now that lucy's gone!" Erza collapsed against Gray's chest forgetting about natsu letting him slump to the floor "We killed her Gray! WE killed Lucy because we were too selfish! I failed Gray, I failed in protecting my family." Erza cried into Gray's chest.

When they made it to the guild without Lucy, everyone asked about her, and that just made the team angry and guilty. They made up a lie about Lucy's death, so the guild wouldn't know about their betrayal, and in a way the lie helped erase some of their guilt too, it was just easier to believe the lie than that team was never the same after that horrible experience and eventually team natsu broke up. It just wasn't the same anymore, they didn't' trust each other and were always fighting on missions, they were growing apart, without Lucy they weren't complete. When the team broke up, it seemed as though that fixed their broken relationship and slowly they patched things up. Eventually Lucy was forgotten, moved to the back burner of their brains until today. Today the guilt came back ten times worse.


Lucy returned to the Institute much more cooperative than before, slowly she earned their trust and gained privileges as she aided them in their evil quest. Lucy took her knowledge of what she knew about dragon slayers and helped Mikhail create an all new generation of dragon slayers, with four boys helping along the way. Their group of celestial dragon slayers became known as the soldiers of purgatory. Lucy was known as the Platinum dragon, the soul slayer. Cameron, was known as the gold dragon, the blood slayer. Kain was a silver dragon, a bone slayer. Ty was a silver dragon as well, and was known as the death slayer. Scythe was gold dragon too, but he was the chaos slayer. They were all trained to use many different elements, and often made up techniques based on those of their fallen foes. How exactly they came to be still remains a mystery only known by Mikhail, their creator. They spent what seemed like years stuck at the institute, that never seemed to age, hidden from others relentless in their training growing into the strong mages, only few could match, planning a way to enact revenge on those who wronged them.


Again sorry for characters being ooc and punctuation errors, I wrote this a long time ago so it may be a little suckish btw Chill guys there's more to the flash back than that so don't get upset with me, yet. Until next time.

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