Anger over Depression
Go easy on me aye, it's me first fan fic.
It's been two months since Edward left me alone in the woods and I still haven't got past the words he said to me that day.
"You don't belong in my world Bella"
"I Don't want you to come"
"I'm just sorry I let this go on for so long"
I have never felt so broken in my life, I hardly eat, I hardly sleep but when I do I wake up screaming. I know how my behaviour is affecting those around me my big brother Jared is affected the most, he tries his best to help me but it's not enough to dull the pain. My best friends Jacob and Leah come around nearly everyday to hang out with me and for a little while I feel better but when I'm alone I'm constantly reminded of all the times him and me we're alone and how much love I had for him. I live with my Grandmother along with Jared and I know it hasn't been easy on her either.
My thoughts were interrupted by a woman shouting out my name coming into the house.
"Bella, Bella, where are you?"
"Mom, what are you doing here?"
She hesitated and motioned for me to sit down next to her on the couch.
"Bella, I don't like how you are acting. So I've come to a decision that i'm bringing you back to Phoenix"
NO! NO! No I can't leave, NO I WONT!
"NO! I'M NOT LEAVING! I'M STAYING HERE"
I've never felt such rage flow through me as it has now, so much of it to the point where I am shaking. Renee stands up and starts to try calm me down.
"Bella honey, calm down."
"NO! I won't clam down, your taking me away from my home! I'm not leaving"
"Yes you are Bella, I'm sick of you feeling depressed, maybe a change of scenery might do you well"
The shaking continues and I'm becoming more and more angry.
I see Jared burst through the door. "Oh no, Bella come here"
I sprint towards him maybe he can help me, he takes me outside but not before I hear my mom say the words that instantly hits my peak of anger.
"Bella he isn't coming back!"
I felt Jared push me into the trees nearby, i heard the shredding of clothes, i look down to see paws. AH! where are my hands, what 's going on!
"Bella, Bella"
"Jared?"
"Yes Bella it's me"
"What the hell is happening!, what the hell is going on!, why do i have paws!,"
"Bella calm down and i'll explain, man I wish Sam was here!"
"I'll go get him if ya like?" I heard a voice, who is that, Embry?"
"Hello Bella, welcome to the pack!"
"Pack what pack, whats going on, how can i hear you guys?"
"Embry go get Sam, tell him we've got another who's phased"
"Okay i'll be back as soon as i can"
"Jared what's going on?"
"Well Bella remember all those legends that say we descended from wolves?"
"Yeah, Oh God, I'm not a wolf am I?"
"I'm sorry Bella but yes you are"
"Oh My God, oh My God, Oh My God, this can't be happening!"
"Bella you need to calm down or you won't be able to change back"
"Jared I'm here, who phased?"
"Bella"
"WHAT!"
"Yeah, she got in an argument with Renee when she tried to force her to go back to Phoenix" I could see myself through the eyes of Jared looking at me arguing with Renee.
"How has this happened, a female has never phased before"
"I have no idea, she hasn't shown any outbursts of anger at all"
"Perhaps because of her state of depression masked the anger but when she heard something she really didn't like she snapped and the anger took over"
"I guess that's reasonable, plus she has been growing and has gotten a lot stronger, i should of known"
"Jared there was no way of foreseeing this, Bella is the first female werewolf in our history"
"Oh that's great, I'm more of a freak"
"No your not a freak but we've got another problem"
"Oh what now?" Sam thought
"Renee is adamant that Bella leave with her, we have to convince her to let her stay"
"Bella, I think it's time you started to change a little, it's the only way your Mother will let you stay here"
"Fine, Fine just tell me how to become human again!
"Okay first you need to calm down, think happy, calm thoughts" My mind went to the times Edward and I were in our meadow. I hadn't even noticed i was human and naked on the ground.
"Crap, I'm naked" I desperately tried to cover myself because both Sam and Jared are running over.
"Okay, stay right here i'll get you a change of clothes" Jared ran off while Sam moved closer to me.
"Don't worry Bella, we'll look after you" Jared came back with some of my clothes. Wow, how did he get back so fast
"Here you go Bells" he handed me my clothes and they both turned there backs
I put them on "Hey how did you get back so fast?"
"Oh well, we're a lot faster, stronger and all of our senses are hightened"
Oh wow that's pretty cool i guess, i heard my stomach rumbling then the guys laughing.
"Oh yeah and because of our fast metabolism, we eat a lot." Jared said
"C'mon we'll go back to Emily's and get some food" Sam said
"Wait, what about Renee?"
"Don't worry bout her, i explained to her that we were going to have a chat and we'll be back later."
"Okay that's alright, wait I don't think I'm comfortable with being in the same room as Emily"
Sam turned around and asked why?
"Don't think I haven't forgotten what happened to my best friend Leah, I know what you did to her"
"Bella you don't know all the facts, just please come with me and I'll explain everything. It has to do with being a werewolf, so you have to keep your temper in check." He frowned and looked down. I don't know why but then Jared walked up to him and said "Come on lets go, we'll explain the rest to her when we get there"
So they thought it would be better for me to drive there with the others instead of phasing. So now where off to Emily's where i'll apparently hear the good enough reason why Sam dumped Leah for her cousin Emily.
