Christian
She was gone. I knew I shouldn't have pushed this far. She was everything to me. I loved her! I actually one hundred percent loved her and I made her feel like she couldn't be with me because of all this shit that I am in to. Elena said to show her if she asked! She said that it was best to know how far I would take it if I needed that type of control.
I walked in my bedroom and just lay on the bed. I couldn't get comfortable, so I decided to wander about the house. I reached the play room and walked in. looking at all of these things and seeing how this was keeping me from the woman I wanted then I picked up a bat that I kept in the corner. I never used it but it was a good threat to the women who thought to disobey me. I lifted it over my head and smashed the chest of drawers. I shattered the wooden cross on the wall and anything that remotely could have scared Ana away.
By the time I was done it was midnight. I couldn't breathe in that damn room with all those things that reminded me of why she left. I walked into the sub bedroom, Ana's bedroom and lay on the bed where she was just hours ago. I smell the scent of her hair and her body was still here.
When I woke it was at twelve in the morning by Taylor knocking at the door.
"Sir, you have to wake up now." Taylor said sternly from the other side of the door. I guess I had slept in late because I cried myself to sleep. I couldn't remember the last time I cried but I felt it last night when I thought about my Ana.
"What?" I yelled. Didn't he realize I didn't want to interact or even talk to anyone?!
"It's about Ms. Steele, sir" he said
I was out of the bed before I realized how I looked. I was in my old Dom jeans and a wrinkled white shirt. I looked like crap and I could only imagine what my face looked like right now.
"What about her?" I said urgently
"Mr. Grey I believe it best you get dressed before I tell you this." He backed up a bit
"No! Tell me now!" I said
"Did you know that Ms. Steele was in the armed services?" he asked
What? "No" I didn't understand. what does this have to do with anything?! Why is he even bringing this up?
"Sir, she was called in last night to the Marines." He said seriously
"No, Anastasia isn't a physical person that is impossible. It would have some up in her records and back ground check." I tried to fight
"Sir, it would seem those kinds of records are blocked for some branches of the military. Only for jobs they do not want to be known." He said
"Well where is she?" I yelled
"Sir, she was deployed two hours ago." He said
What?! No, this couldn't be right. She never brought any of this up. There must be some kind of mistake. She couldn't be in the military. She didn't act like them, the constant staring for threats or the threatening stances they would gravitate to.
"How?" I whispered. I staggered to the bed on sat on the edge. This couldn't be happening. I wasted a night with her because of my ignorance and lack of feeling.
"Sir, I called in all the contacts I could and from what they tell me Ms. Steele is in a very exclusive branch of the Marines. They have a certain skill set that I was not able to ascertain. They only get pulled in during serious times and for specific amounts of time. They make no contact during their detail but can receive mail. She also left messages in her apartment for her friends and family because she had to leave quickly." He explained
"Oh God" I slumped into myself
"Sir, you need to get dressed and receive your message." He went on
"Okay I will come right now." I got up and sprinted to my room and got ready
As I stood underneath the water I just saw what we did in here. How I touched her and literally fucked her up the wall just next to this shower. I saw how she wanted to touch me but I backed away. I stepped out the shower and picked up my tooth brush that she would use also.
I got dressed quickly and met Taylor by the door. We went straight to Ana's apartment and found letters.
Dear Christian
I am sorry for what I said last night again.
I know you don't like it when we fight and how angry you get when I do the opposite of what you tell me. I do love you and I hope you don't forget that. You are giving me all my firsts and I hope we can fix this when I get back. I left my information on the back of the page. I want you to write me and tell me all about what you are doing. I cant write back but PLEASE know that I wish I could write back but don't take silence as a sign of distance.
I don't expect you to be loyal to this or to me. I know you have needs and I would never want to pressure you into a commitment or into writing but honestly you and I both know we communicate better through the written word then face to face.
Every defiance I did, I committed for you and me. No rules and no punishment would stand in my way just to see you have a smile or stretch your patience. Please wait for me
Please
Ana
After reading this I committed myself to her. Only Ana could fix me and could make me whole. As far as I am concerned I am still in a relationship with her.
"What other letters are there?" I asked Taylor
"One for her roommate and one for her father and a message on the machine telling Katherine not to worry about her." Taylor said
"Sent her father's in the mail and leave the other." I said while walking into her room. While in there I picked up her quilt and it smelled of her. Folded it and tucked it under my arm.
I walk out into the living room and say "Let's go." As I marched to the SUV.
I didn't know what to do now.
Ana
Oh no the call. I walked to my closet and got my things ready. I picked up my box I thought I would never use again or have to for that matter. I put on my uniform and went straight to the meeting place. The other guys met me there.
"Are you alright?" Brian said. He was someone who always kept in contact with me while we were inactive.
"Yeah, left messages behind" I hoped Christian would see his and wait for me "You?"
"I have no one." He said as he got in the truck
I climbed in the truck and we were off
Christian
(Time lapse- ten months)
I didn't want to socialize with my family when it came to them trying to comfort me from this. I withdrew my partnership with Elena and went from work to Escala for months my temper worsened and the more I would fight with my partner and I didn't go to functions. I only wrote letters.
Dear Ana,
I hope you are staying safe. You know how I hate to think of you being in any danger. It breaks a rule that I know you will not follow. I have to go to a mandatory family meeting in the coming weeks. I think they don't like the way I have been acting since you have been gone.
I am trying to get through my issues but I feel like it's been a long time with no success. I wish I could just talk to you at least. Taylor says it was for the best, your safety depends on non-communication so I will not push it. I attached my schedule just to show you how hectic it's been at the company and I have a lot of shmoozing to get what I want from old business owners.
Ana please be carful
I love you
Christian
Over protective CEO
I sent a letter for every time I really needed her. I once sent her three pages because I was so confused. I just couldn't live without her.
Anastasia
I got all his letters and read through all of his feelings as me and my men went through our details. I was recovering in the infirmary and that's when we got the news. We are can go home.
I know what Christian was going to be doing for the next month and by the time I got there I could see my dad before meeting up with Christian. I couldn't wait to see Kate, Ethan, Jose, Elliot and heck my old bed.
I walked to the mirror in the corner and saw how deep purple I was. From head to toe I was covered in bruises. My arm was in a sling but only because it was dislocated while I was imprisoned. But I will not dwell on that because I lived. We collected our stuff and got ready to get out of here. Me and my men eventually had to get ready. I looked like shit compared to them because I was their leader. I am a Captain and was responsible for them. I would risk myself before they get hurt.
Eventually we boarded our plain with a connection in Egypt and then New York. I called my dad to meet me in Seattle.
"Dad?" I whispered emotionally
"Ana! Oh God! Are you okay? Its great to hear from you" He rushed out
"Its good to hear you too Dad, could you meet me in Seattle at eleven at night?" I asked
"Yes, do you want me to call anyone else? Do you need me to call Kate or Christian?" He said
"No I just want to spend my night with you first okay?" I asked with a little too much emtion.
"Okay baby girl, I'll see you then" He said as he hung up
Eventually we made it to Seattle and I only have my one bag with me. I get off the plane and my this time im the only one left from my unit because everyone else had to go to other states. I walked off the plane and headed for security. As I walked out to baggage claim I spotted my Dad in the crowd. I saw his eyes see the bruises on my cheek and my sling but his smile affected me to my core. I start to run for him and hug him tighter than I ever had in my life.
I felt his body shake from crying. I felt tears run down my face. We start to sway back and forth because we physically couldn't let go of one another. "I missed you so much dad" I whisper into his neck. "Me too Ana, more then you'll ever know" he whispered back.
We let go of one another eventually. I don't know how long we stood there but I opened my eyes and saw other people looking on with smiles on their faces.
"What happened?" he said as he took my chin in his hands
"Oh you know, just a long story that is best forgotten. I'll heal" I said
He put his arm around me and took my bag and led me to his car. I get in the car and put my head on his shoulder and just got comfortable.
I woke to a sudden stop.
"We are home" he said
I stumble to my feet as Dad opens the front door. I trudge to the front room and hit the front couch and close my eyes. Sweet bliss sleep. Tomorrow I would see Christian and finish that talk. Ugh
