Okay guys, so I am trying to do this 30 day OTP prompt thing I found.

This first prompt is: Getting lost Somewhere

Dean glared at Cas, then yanked the map from the former angel's hands. They were lost and currently sitting on the side of the road, normally Dean would pull out his cellphone and get direction but he had forgotten to charge the thing the night before. Dean had put Cas on map duty so he could focus on driving, he had sensed that something was wrong almost an hour ago, but then Cas seemed to regain his bearings and he thought they were on the right track. "Damn it Cas!"

Cas looked down at his hands with shame, "I am sorry Dean i thought I knew where we were at."

Dean rolled his eyes and looked at the map, just then he heard a crack of thunder and when he looked out the window, what had been just sprinkling, was now a downpour. Dean sighed and glared at Cas again before shaking his head, "You should have said something Cas so I could have pulled over and figured it out then. Now we are lost."

Cas hung his head and closed his eyes, "Sorry Dean"

Dean looked over at Cas and he looked so broken, the way he had for the past few weeks since moving into the bunker. Dean took a breath and looked at Cas, "Cas, you haven't really been talking to me about stuff lately, are you okay."

Cas closed his eyes, "I am fine Dean."

Dean could tell by the brokenness in Cas' voice he was lying and it hurt him to see his angel so broken. Angel or not anymore, Cas would always be his angel. Dean turned the radio off and scooted closer to Cas, despite him wanting to pretend to everyone he was straight, he had been bisexual since he could remember but really accepted it when he was 16. Dean was sure he didn't deserve a guy like Cas, between the things he had done to keep food on the table, and the things he had done In hell. But when they were fighting there way out of Purgatory, Cas had told him he loved him, and he was trying to protect him, after Purgatory things were fucked up and Dean thought he had imagined Cas telling him he loved him. Amidst the brokenness Dean had seen Cas getting closer to him, going to him more than Sam. "Cas, do you remember what happened when we were in Purgatory."

Cas looks up at Dean, with a hopefulness in his eyes that he hasn't seen in weeks. Suddenly though his face went more stony and he gruffly said, "I remember everything Dean."

Dean carefully took Cas' hand, making the man look up at him again and Dean smiled before leaning forward and softly pressing his lips to Cas'. Cas sighed and leaned into Dean more and tried to follow Dean as he pulled away, Dean smiled warmly and cupped Cas' cheek before saying, "I told you that night I love you to Cas. Do you think that just because all this crap happened that changed how I felt?"

Cas looked down at their joined hands and chewed on his lip, "I… I wasn't sure If you still… I messed a lot of things up Dean."

Dean resisted the urge to chuckle and shook his head, "Cas I have fucked up a lot too, and… done things I will tell you about later but we are equally fucked up Cas. Despite the hell we have both been through, I think finding you, finding each other in all this. Makes it tolerable."

Cas smiled through the tears and leaned forward to kiss Dean. Dean chuckled and kissed Cas back pulling him back against him, gripping the edges of his stupid trench-coat. Dean nudged Cas off him, "Want to tell me the truth?"

Cas was confused for a moment before sighing, "I am… struggling with being a human, my emotions get the better of me more often then I like and Sometimes I wish that, Metatron had just killed me."

The Idea of losing Cas again made his stomach lurch and Dean cupped his cheek and made Cas look at him, "Don't leave me Cas. I wasn't just saying shit, you make things easier and I swear if I have to make a deal with fucking Crowley to bring you back I will not hesitate Cas."

Cas closed his eyes and Dean could see he was on the verge of breaking down, "Why do you love me Dean?"

Dean smiled a little, "That's easy, because you're a hot dude." When Cas gives him a bitchface, that he has clearly been learning from Sam he chuckles a little and continues, "I told you Cas, you make it all tolerable. Even if I had to go on thinking we were just friends, as long as I had you with me, I felt like I could do anything, and take over the world."

Cas shook his head a little, he understood the humor. What Dean said earlier was stuck in his head, Cas cleared his throat and looked at Dean, "Dean, you said that you did things, what do you mean."

Dean sighed, "That my angel, is a story for another time, why don't we figure out where the hell we are so we can get home and access to alcohol If you want to have that conversation."

Within ten minutes Dean figured out where they were, and they were able to get back to the bunker.

((okay ladies and gents, I hope you guys will enjoy this! I am going to do my best to keep up on this. Please leave me a review to let me know what you think!))