Hey guys guys so I know that I only have a couple stories published and they kind of suck and this one does too but I love to write. These aren't my first fics, just my first few actually published. Anyway this is just a one-shot for now but if anybody actually likes it, which I doubt they will, I will possibly make it a two-shot. Anyway on with the story.

Barry hears the star labs alarm go off and speeds into his suit, before zooming to the site of the crime. Just a robbery. He disarms the thief and knocks him out. He zooms the guy to the precinct and captain Singh immediately arrests the waking man. "Thanks Flash." He tells the man clad in red. "Part of the job." He says then turns his head slightly as if listening to something. He sighs sadly and Singh notices an empty look in the flash's face. "Gotta go." He says, speeding off. What was with that look? Singh wonders. He shakes his head. He must've been imagining things.

Barry wonders if anyone has even noticed how he's slowly been loosing hope and all feeling the last couple months. He thought that surely Iris would notice the difference. He thought she would nurse him back to health like the two best friends always had before. But she didn't find out. She didn't notice. Not after her newest boyfriend. She's too caught up in him. He had been about to ask her out when he literally beat him to it. He had walked up while they were talking and she had said yes. Then she had asked what Barry wanted to say. He waved it off as nothing and pretended it hadn't hurt him. After loosing hope in Iris bringing him back he had counted on the rest of team flash to notice and talk to him. But Cisco was still mad at him for Dante, and paid little attention to the speedster. Caitlin was interested in Julian and joe just didn't notice. Nobody seemed to care and that made the last of his hope and his life diminish. Now he carries on just barely for the sake of the city. He can't just leave a city with no protection. So he hides it with a fake smile every now and then. He hoped that with this drastic change that at least one person in his life would notice. He hoped someone would care. But they didn't. Nobody did. He runs into work at a normal pace, late again. "Allen! My office now!" Singh yells, angry that Barry is Forty minutes late. He sighs sadly and a look of confusion and realization crosses his face but quickly disappears. "Yeah sure captain." He says and trails his boss into the office. "Allen that is the fourth day this week you've been late. And you know what day of the week it is?" Singh questions sternly. Barry sighs again. "The fourth sir?" He answers. "That's right. I'll let you off with a warning this time. No more being late." He demands, knowing that Barry will still be late again and he will do nothing about it because Allen is the best CSI the department has ever had. When Barry leaves his office Singh frowns, deep in thought. That sigh sure sounded like the flash the other day. But he was imaging things then and he's imaging things now. Right?

Barry works for hours then heads home really late. He tiredly walks up the stairs to his room, ignoring joe's greeting. He tosses his stuff on the ground and locks his door. He doesn't know why but he picks up a knife and sits on his bed and he stares at it for a while and then brings it to his arm. He doesn't know why he's doing it. Maybe to feel something? That's it. He wants to feel something after so long of being numb. He digs the blade into his wrist countless times, smiling at the pain. For once he isn't numb anymore. The next morning he does it again, as the other cuts were already healed. He then puts on a long sleeved shirt and speeds to work. Singh scolds him for being late again, noting the look in his eyes. Maybe he wasn't imagining things. Could his CSI really be the flash? He shakes the thought from his head and demands a case file be turned into him by the end of the day. Barry goes up to his lab and quickly finishes the case file. He goes back to Singh's office and reaches out to hand the captain his work. Singh reaches for it and his eyes dart to the paper. As he looks over the paper he notices Allen fidgeting with his sleeve. He glances at the boy's arm out of the corner of his eye. There he sees thick pink scars. Obviously self inflicted. His eyes widen and he drops the paper on his desk, looking up at the CSI's face. "What is that?" He asks. Barry frowns. "The case file you asked for sir?" He answers. "Not that, this!" He says, grabbing the boy's arm and pulling his sleeve up to reveal the pink scars. Barry winces and pulls his arm away. "Nothing." He mutters. He's scared of what will happen but happy at the same time. Did somebody finally care? Singh's eyes soften. "Sit Allen." He says gently, after sitting himself. Barry reluctantly sits and fidgets with his sleeves. "Talk to me Barry." He says. Barry notes that he hadn't called him Allen this time. "I- it's nothing sir, really. Just a cat scratch." He says, flicking his eyes around the room. "You don't have a cat." Singh points out. "I uh..." he trails off, not having any other excuse. "What's going on? Why did you do this?" He asks the normally happy optimistic CSI. "I don't know." He lies. Singh raises an eyebrow. Barry sighs that same sad sigh and looks up at the captain. "Look, captain I'm the f-" he starts. "Flash, I know." Singh Interrupts. Barry's eyes widen. "The sigh. It gave it away." He says. "At least somebody noticed." Barry grumbles, not meaning for Singh to hear that. He raises an eyebrow. "Is that why you did this? Because you thought nobody noticed? That nobody cared?" He asks. Barry nods shamefully and stares at the floor. He sighs. "Allen, I care about you, lots of people do. Just don't do it again okay? And... Thank you." He says. Barry shoots a questioning glance at the captain. "You saved my husband." He says with a soft smile. Barry's phone rings just then. He answers it. "Yeah yeah okay, I'll deal with it." He mutters then hangs up. "Gotta go, robbery in progress." He says and speeds off. Singh smiles. He'll never get used to that.

Anyway i I know it sucked, please send feedback?