"THIS IS YOUR FAULT!" I scream, whipping something random from the table beside me at him. "THIS IS YOUR GOD DAMN FAULT AND YOU FUCKING KNOW IT!" I refuse to cry, not in front of him. I refuse to show my weaknesses. "Why? How could you do that? HOW COULD YOU?"

"I didn't make your decisions for you, and you know that." He always sees through me. "This was your own plan, and it simply got out of hand. Don't blame me for your sorrows." I bit the inside of my cheek, breathing heavily in anger.

"How can you speak so calmly? You loved him too!" He turned to face me slowly, his expression unchanging. "If you think I'm going to let this end this way, you're dead wrong. You think you can fool me with your stupid mind tricks, but I can see what you're trying to do. Nothing is wrong with who I am and I know it!" I threw something else, breaking a large window near his head. "I'm going to make this right. We belong together." I shook my head to clear my thoughts, and turned on my heel, slamming the door behind me. And then I walked. I walked towards my fate.

I wasn't lying.

We belong together.


My name is Near, aka Nate River, and I am simply here to tell you the truth that no one else knows. I've known it for years, covered it up for someone else's sake, and 'emotionless' or not, it takes a toll on a person. Keeping secrets, that is. I guess it's a fair responsibility, considering it's all my fault.

What truths am I telling you? I am telling you the truth behind Mello's inferiority complex, his cold, hard exterior that effectively blocks him from the outside world. Other than Mello, I am the only one who knows; mainly because I am the reason that wall is there. Other than Mello, I am the only one who knows that wall is there; mainly because he told me everything; trusted his secrets, his fears and his victories with me.

And why wouldn't he?

I was his best friend, after all.