All right, this is a one shot Hiei/Kurama angst. There is no lemon or anything of the sort but it's a good read for the angst in you.

The song lyrics are to Sarah M's song "I Love You" so I don't own and take no credit for it. I'm actually planning another one shot to one of her other song's so look for that one if you like this one.

So read and enjoy and please review!!!

I Forgot to Tell You

*I have a smile

 stretched from ear to ear

to see walking down the road*

            He looked up just in time to see the shorter one drop from a tree farther down the road. His black hair was sticking up, white tips on the bangs. The fire demon had his normal frown plastered on his face, the look that sent many fleeing for fear of their life. His hand danced lightly at the tip of his katana. As he reached him, his scowl didn't seem to lighten any.

            "Hn." Hiei grunted. "Why are we meeting here fox?"

            Kurama grinned, his smile causing his green eyes to sparkle like emeralds set in beautiful jewelry. Hiei, always so aloof, so different from everyone he knew. Although he was demon that hated anything human he was the best friend that Kurama could ever ask for. His blood red eyes only showed emotions when in his presence.

*We meet at the lights

I stare for awhile

the world around disappears*

            "I figured the lamp post on the corner was easier to find then that tree." Kurama shrugged, but he couldn't pull his eyes away from the smaller demon. He got lost in his eyes, pulled deep into endless pools of red. For just a moment everything around him swirled and seemed to disappear.

            Hiei's narrow red eyes drew his emerald ones like a moth to a flame. The fire demon's lips parted slightly, preparing for speech. But the movement was not lost on Kurama. His heart pick up an extra beat, pounding against his rib cage, desperately trying to get out and reveal itself to his small friend. His own lips parted slightly, just enough to let out a rasping, lustful breath. 

*Just you and me

On this island of hope

A breath between us could be miles*

            Hiei turned his back on the fox demon and glared up at the stars. They met once a week to catch up on things happening in the other's life and world. Kurama would fill him in on his ningen (and normally boring) life while Hiei would delve in his life as Mukuro's right hand man. The talk meant nothing to either of them, the words empty of the emotions that raged just below the surface.

            Kurama wished his heart would allow him to shed the shackles of his human body and flee to Makai with Hiei. He wanted to live in Mukuro's castle with him, be there with him, love him. He gripped tightly to the hope that Hiei could bring himself to love, whether he was this fridged Forbidden Child he claimed to be or not.    

*Let me surround you

My sea to your shore

Let me be the calm you seek*

            Kurama sighed as they continued with their meaningless chat. He was screaming inside, screaming to let it all out. He felt like he was lost in a sea of his own emotions, drowning in the love he wished to announce. Hiei was his shore, the only thing that could save him from going under and never resurfacing.

But for the moment he reached deep inside his heart and tightened his grip on all the emotions that were trapped inside. It hadn't been until he acquired a human body that he learned how to love, and now it seemed he cried out for that once foreign emotion. He knew that if he was too forward about it he would scare Hiei away, send him fleeing to Makai never to return again. And he'd rather live for years with Hiei never knowing then tell him and lose him forever.

*Oh and every time I'm close to you

There's too much I can't say

And you just walk away*

            Their conversation was drawing to an end. The sun was beginning to rise in the distance, brightening the horizon. Gentle pinks and oranges streaked out like the expertise strokes of a painter's brush. Kurama held in a sigh. He felt lucky, sharing something like this with Hiei. Some lovers died together never seeing a sun rise wrapped in each other's arms, and he shared it with the little fire demon once a month. His heart swelled with both love and hurt.

            He had to tell him. So what if Hiei hated him. Kurama knew his soul would never be at rest until he let his love know he was just that. But he couldn't. Kurama couldn't do it if it meant he might loose his friend forever. He bit his lip as the emotions tore through him, ripping him apart slowly.

            That was that, he was going to tell him. He turned slowly towards Hiei, noticing the blood red eyes had been turned on him. Faltering for a second, Kurama drew a deep breath and called on all the courage he held within him.

            "Hiei."

            "Kurama."

            Both demons paused after speaking the others' name at the same moment. They stared at each other, unsure of who should go first. Kurama wanted to so he could finally tell the fire demon what lay hidden in his heart. But if Hiei spoke his mind first, maybe he could put some of Kurama's worried at ease. Maybe he would say those three little words first. He nodded at Hiei, motioning for him to go ahead.

            "Kurama…" Hiei paused for a minute and Kurama felt his heart pick up pace. "I have to leave now."

            Kurama's heart crashed into the pit of his stomach like a lead ball. They weren't the words, they weren't even close. Quickly plastering a smile on his face he tried to hide the disappointment that clung to him. He nodded slowly.

            "You read my mind." He joked half heartedly. "I have to make it back to my room before my mother wakes for work."

            Hiei nodded his own response and started for the tree he had jumped out of earlier that night. Before leaping back into the foliage, he gave Kurama one last glance over his shoulder.

            "See you in a month fox." He called before jumping into the lower branches and then disappearing from sight.

*And I forget

to tell you

I love you

And the night's

Too long

And cold here

With out you

I grieve in my condition

For I cannot find the strength to say I need you so*

            Kurama stared at the tree for a while after Hiei left. His heart lay in shards inside his chest as he fought desperately to keep back his tears. There was another chance he had to tell him, to spill everything that kept him chained to this icy world of depression. And it would be a whole other month before he got the chance to tell him again.

            He shivered as the cold wrapped itself tightly around his body. The cold only affected him when he was alone. His walks home after these meetings were always freezing, seeming to place his heart back in a block of ice where it would remain until the fire demon returned again to unthaw it.

            As he watched the yellowed leaves of the trees dance he grew frustrated with himself. Why couldn't he just tell Hiei how he felt? All he had to do was grab him by the shoulders and force those red eyes to lock with his own. It was just three words. How come they were so hard to say?

            With a sigh Kurama turned and began his long, cold walk home. He stopped briefly, the glow from the overhead street light trapping him in the middle of its yellowed circle. He raised his emerald eyes to Hiei's tree and spoke quietly in the direction of the fire demon's retreat.

            "Hiei, I forgot to tell you," He whispered, "I love you."

            With those final words, Kurama turned and headed home to wait another month.

*Oh and every time I'm close to you

There's so much I can't say

And you just walk away*

            Hiei sat in the tree watching as the fox walked away. Anger and sorrow flowed through his veins, heating his blood. How long had Kurama felt that way? How long had the fox been harboring those feelings of need, of want? Of love? The thought sent a shiver down the fire demon's spine.

            Was it possible for someone in the world to actually hold feelings for the Forbidden Child? Was there really that one person out there that didn't care how pain he spread or how much blood had stained his hands. And was it possible that he could find in the one person that had always been there for him before?

            Hiei sighed as he opened a portal to Makai. He had to get back before Mukuro started bitching. He was about to jump through the vortex when something pulled on his frozen heart. Turning slowly he stared with soft eyes at Kurama's retreating back.

            "Fox, I forgot to tell you," He spoke softly, a tear welling up in his eye and trailing down his cheek. "I love you."

            And with that final thought, Hiei jumped back into the demon world of hate and blood, determined to wait one more month for warmth and love.

*And I forget

to tell you

I love you

And the night's

Too long

And cold here

With out you*

            There was a soft clink as a tiny circular gem hit the ground. It rolled towards the grass, its beautiful ebony color glinting in the slowly rising sun. The gem came to a stop, nestled by a soft bed of glass. Leaning over the gem was a large red rose, opening its blossom surprisingly late. The head of the rose tilted farther down until its soft petals brushed over the smooth surface of the gem. And somewhere in the rising morning were the whispered words…

            "I forgot to tell you, I love you."