A/N: Really bored, decided to write a quick fanfic, dunno who the letter's for. Pretend it's for you that should be fun.

I'm sitting here and looking at you and all I see is pain in your eyes. You see me as distant and that's how I've tried to make myself. Was that the wrong choice? I don't know and probably never will. I do, however, know that I at least owe you an explanation; I want to give you one; if for no other reason then to get it off my chest. Please understand I never wanted this to be your burden to bear, but mine, and mine alone. I suppose even after all these years we never will truly hate each other will we? I keep asking questions and slight rambling to keep from writing down the truth, forgive me please.

I'm still not good with expressing emotion, but I'm no stranger to feeling them, so I can't help it if this doesn't hold the right emotion that a letter such as this should. Again forgive me, and try to keep an open mind as you read on; although with you that shouldn't be a problem. I've always been envious of your openness, but here I am rambling again, please continue reading I will stop wasting my limited paper now.

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I was four when the war stared and to a four year old seeing all those dead people and smelling the blood….well it wasn't fun, so as soon as everything settled down I swore I'd do everything I could to maintain the peace between Konoha, my family, and other villages. I worked hard and immediately became a protégé and my father's pride; everything was good in our village and the others, I was happy, especially when my little brother, Sasuke, was born.

By the time I was about age thirteen the elders started suspecting the Uchiha's of planning a rebellion against them and the Hokage. The elders were always suspicious of the Uchiha, ever since the Madara incident, all those years ago, however; this time they were right about what the Uchiha were doing. They all knew I'd maintain the peace no matter what and asked me to spy. I didn't right away, and instead became distant with my family. I think father suspected me all along.

The elders, however, told me to get the Mangekyo, how they knew about it, even to this day, I'm not sure, but they told me I must; which was what led me to killing my cousin, Shisui. I had to make it look like suicide, but I did a sloppy job of it, because my other family members started suspecting me of being a traitor as well.

They all relied upon me to bring information from the Hokage to them, but it was really the other way around, since I couldn't reject a direct order completely; so when there was solid evidence that the Uchiha's were planning an uprising, the elders told me to kill them. All of them. The Hokage tried to find another way, but honestly, even as I look back now, there was none.

So it was either kill my family or watch another world war unfold, because I was too sentimental. I didn't feel like I had any other options. Killing them didn't seem as bad as forcing other children to see a war like I had. So I did it, however; I couldn't bring myself to kill Sasuke. I wonder now if that would have been more merciful…I asked Lord Hokage not to tell Sasuke about why I'd actually done it and for him to protect Sasuke…I was afraid of what would happen next so I left and than I joined Akatsuki, with nothing else to do with my self.

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I would like to ask that you don't hate me, but that is an unfair request. A person like me should be hated, choosing village over family…but had it been the other way around would I have been happy?

Not likely. I have told you there is to tell on the subject of my past in the most condensed form I could.

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I am quickly running out of ink and paper so I must tell you farewell, I know not when you will have occasion to read this, but I hope you do someday.

Uchiha Itachi