Watching her with him was not what I had in mind when I came here. I mean, when I first got here I was pretty excited. Yea, Tom was a surprise, but I think I maybe... missed the guy? Just a little. Not much. And when she told me they got back together I felt something drop in my gut. It was real unexpected you know? Not that it really bothered me but I was for whatever reason real unsettled.
I don't think I came here to get with Star. I just couldn't live a normal life anymore. I might look 17 right now but I am actually over 30.
Yea. weird.
Dose that make me some kind of pervert since I'm in love with Sta- you know what? Lets just stop that train of thought right there.
Anyway, right now I am staring at the ceiling of my room in Mewni. If I stop thinking I forget I'm even in another world. It wont be long before Star rush's into my room tonight to drag me to the party down below. Its my party, because today I am going to be officially Knighted. I should be excited, and I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little excited, but I can't really say that I am looking forward to it either. I went through a lot and many people believe I deserve it, and I do... but it feels finalized. Once I do this there really is no going back.
I am just going to stay here watching her forever... with him. Im not even jealous. Tom is a good guy. He is probably my best bro besides Star at this point. He really loves her.
I just wish I didn't share that same quality.
Knock Knock Knock
Huh. That's weird. Star never knocks.
"Marco? ...Can I came in?"
Oh. Its Tom. Why?
"Yea..."
I sit up on the bed and watch the door. He opens it slowly and peeks through a bit before pushing the thing out all the way. He has a huge smile. I could tell it was fake.
"Hey there Marco? You ready?"
"Tom? Whats the matter? Its a early."
"Nothings the matter. I was just seeing how you are doing..."
He is hiding something. We have been forced... well forced is a strong word... anyway, I have been spending an unexpected amount of time with Tom for the past year. We got closer because of Star, and for whatever reason he has been dragging me off when she isn't around... to talk about her.
Because yea... thats what I want to do with Tom. Talk about Star... pfft.
"Sigh... What do you want Tom?"
He gets a guilty look then sits beside me on the bed and drops his shoulders.
"Marco... its Star..."
"Of course it is."
"Marco... she is just so busy now. With this whole party thing."
"Yea... well... I would think so."
He sits quietly for a second then gives me a puppy dog look.
"You think Im being needy again. I can see it."
"You are being needy."
I dont regret saying that. I do wish I had a fire extinguisher though.
"Thats what she told me! I do not know what I did wrong? What did I do wrong Marco?"
"Dude! Calm down. Deep breaths."
He breaths in and out then lays back on the bed before whining like a dog.
"Maybe its just my nature to be selfish man."
Wow. An actual admission.
"So what?"
"Im wondering if I should just accept these things about me."
"Yea, you should. Look man, I have known you for years now and I have come to accept that you are occasionally pretty selfish. Its just who you are. Try not to take it to heart."
Sigh... I am so tired, I just want to go to sleep.
"Hey Marco?"
When I look up I see him holding out his hand and he smiles.
"So you want to take me huh?"
"Just till I find Star."
"Whatever."
