Kagome ran to the well as fast as she could, tears streaming down her face. 'I can't believe he's with her again! Why does this always happen to me? I know I did this to myself, since I chose to stay with him, even though I knew Kikyou is the one he loves. But, I just wish, he could see me for once instead of Kikyou!' She sobbed, releasing the tears to flow freely. Trees flew by, blured by the tears. She finally saw the well and sighed in relief. She jumped into the well, allowing the calming blue light to engulf her. Her feet touched the ground, and she fell to her knees, hugging herself, trying to keep herself together.
"Oh, Inuyasha." She sighed, laughing feebly. "Why do I let myself get like this? I really am just a weak human." Warm arms wrapped around her, pulling her towards a warm body. "No you're not." A voice whispered. She turned around and looked into a familiar face. "Inuyasha…" She whispered, and she wiped away the traitorous tears, and smiled up at the worried Hanyou.
"I'm sorry, I was just going back to give medicine for every one. We needed more because everyone was so injured after our final battle with Naraku. I tripped, and I think I sprained my ankle." Kagome said cheerfully. Inuyasha looked at her suspiciously. 'She's upset. Why is she trying to hide that from me? And why would she lie to me? ' Inuyasha thought, and grimaced, remembering that she had seen him with Kikyou. Again.
"Could you help me out of the well?" Kagome asked, wanting more than anything to just be in her bed. "Yea, sure." Inuyasha said, and he pulled her back into his arms, and jumped, lifting them both from the well and nearly lodged both their heads into the ceiling. He gently placed Kagome back on the ground.
"Thank you. I'll be back in a couple days." Kagome said. She smiled at Inuyasha, but a tear started to crawl down her face. She turned around quickly and walked to the house, forgetting about her sprained ankle, and wiped the tear from her eye. "Kagome.," Inuyasha whispered. So many things were running through his head, and so many completely different emotions and feelings ran rampant through his body.
Kagome walked through the dark house, trying to feel her way through the darkness without tripping on anything. A bruised shin and five stubbed toes later, Kagome was finally in the safety of her own room. 'Oh, what am I going to do? If I purify it here, I'll never be able to go back to The Feudal era. But If I purify it there, I can never come back to the present…' Kagome sat down on her bed and sighed, holding up the now complete shikon no tama.
Kagome picked up the journal and pen that was on her nightstand. She opened it, revealing a picture Kagome managed to take of Inuyasha while he was sleeping. She smiled, wiping the tears from her eyes and she gently stroked the picture. She flipped through the pages, all filled with her adventures from the Feudal era.
She picked up the pen and started to write:
There really is no reason for me to return to the feudal era is there? I've thought about this so much, dreading the day that the Jewel would be complete. I've found myself thinking more and more about the time Inuyasha and I kissed, in Kaguya's castle. I'd like to think that I was the one he was kissing, but I can't help but think I wasn't the one that had been on Inuyasha's mind during that point of time. I want to know what I am to Inuyasha. And I want him to know how I feel about him too. Am I just a Friend? Something easily disposed of? A Jewel Detector, not needed once the Jewel is complete? Or, could I be.. Something more than that? Or something Less? I can never tell with Inuyasha, sometimes it seems like he likes me more than a friend, sometimes he likes me less than vermin. Sometimes like a friend, and sometimes as a burden. I want him to know that I don't want him to die. I want him to know how much I love him, even If he doesn't want to be with me. Oh Inuyasha. I seem to always walk in on you and Kikyou, don't I? Trust me, I wouldn't mind being oblivious. What am I saying? I'm talking to you when you're never going to read this. I'm pretty pathetic. Oh well. I guess I'm just going to have to accept the reality that Inuyasha is going to leave to die with Kikyou, and I will have to say here. There won't be anything left for me there anymore. Yes, I will stay here, and live a normal life. But… What if Inuyasha didn't leave with Kikyou? I know I shouldn't put such silly fantasies in my head, but It gives me some hope to hang on to. I think Mom and Gramps and Souta would understand If I stayed in the Feudal Era. I would miss them a lot, but, I think that my love for Inuyasha is so much more important, and I know I probably can't live without him. Especially If he really did have feelings for me. There's not much left here that I still fit into anymore, anyways. I'm distant with my friends and my school studies are even worse. I hope I can figure out what to do soon…
Kagome closed the journal and sighed, placing it back onto the nightstand. She turned off the light, andpulled the covers around her body and rested her head on her pillow.
"Oh, Inuyasha." Kagome sighed.
She touched her lips with her fingertips. 'Do you remember our first kiss, Inuyasha? If only you knew how long I've wanted to do that.' Kagome sighed again, filled with a longing to have Inuyasha's arms around her body. As she fell asleep, the last thing she remembered was Inuyasha's lips on hers.
Inuyasha silently looked into Kagome's room, and quietly hopped in. He peered over at Kagome's sleeping form, watching her chest rise and fall. He walked over to her, and wiped the hair from her eyes, revealing the trail of tears that she had shed.
'I wish you would tell me what's wrong.' Inuyasha sighed and sat on the floor, resting his head against the nightstand. He felt something brush against his head, and he reached up, grabbing a peculiar book from her nightstand. "Jour-e-nal?" Inuyasha sounded out, puzzled.
He recognized the book, because he had caught Kagome writing in it while she was supposed to be sleeping. He hadn't read anything for a while, but he was confident that he would be able to read fairly well. He opened up the cover, and found himself face to face with a picture of him sleeping, along with some pictures from the strange box that Souta had turned on when he had been fighting with Kagome.
He flipped through the pages, staring in awe. There were detailed accounts of everything that they had done for the past year. From the first moment Kagome had fallen through the well, to Their battle with Naraku, It was filled with detailed accounts and Kagome's thoughts and feelings.
He skipped through the pages, when something caught his eye. Kagome had normally written in blue ink, but there were a few written in pink. He started to read one of the pink passages. :
I suddenly realized that maybe, just maybe, I could save him with a kiss. He might just pull through this if he saw Kikyou. (AKA me) So now, The reason I am writing in pink ink, we kissed. And oh, was it the most amazing thing in the world! At first I was just so scared that this wouldn't work, but when he finally came too, he kissed me back. And my heart soared and I just wish it could have lasted longer. The feel of his lips against mine… I can still feel it now. I wish I could tell him that I didn't just kiss him to save him. That was the main reason, The excuse I found for doing it, But… I've got to admit to myself that I've wanted to kiss him for a really long time…
By the end of the pink passage, Inuyasha was about five shades deeper than pink in the face. He hadn't realized how much that really had meant to Kagome. 'No wonder she was so mad when I said I didn't mean it.' He thought. He put his fingers to his lips, remembering how Kagome's lips had felt on his. He had never wanted it to end, too.
"You baka. Why would I be thinking about Kikyou at a time like that? For days that was all I could think about… Even now, I still dream about that." Inuyasha murmured, and sighed softly. He flipped through the pages again, and noticed the most recent entry was wet, covered with Kagome's tears. He read through the entry, scowling at some of the parts he disliked.
"'I'd like to think that I was the one he was kissing, but I can't help but think I wasn't the one that had been on Inuyasha's mind during that point of time' 'Something easily disposed of? A Jewel Detector, not needed once the Jewel is complete?' 'sometimes he likes me less than vermin' What is she saying? This isn't true at all." Inuyasha murmured, hurt at what he had made her feel. He gently stroked the paper, and smiled, rereading his favorite parts.
"'I want him to know that I don't want him to die. I want him to know how much I love him' 'I think that my love for Inuyasha is so much more important, and I know I probably can't live without him' Kagome…" He whispered, blushing hard again. Kagome turned in her bed, and Inuyasha stiffened. 'If I get caught with this, Kagome is sure to 'sit' me to the center of the earth.' He started to put the book back on the table, but stopped. He slipped it into his hitoe, and gazed at Kagome's sleeping face, itching to wake her up and tell her how much he wanted to be with her.
He leaned over, and gently brushed his lips against Kagome's forehead. She started to stir, and he backed up, retreating towards the window. "Inu… Yasha." Kagome murmured. Inuyasha stiffened again, prepared to be buried about 10 miles below the surface of the earth. But her eyes stayed closed, and he sighed in relief, allowing himself to take a shallow breath of air. He opened the window and jumped out, landing on the roof underneath it quietly. He reached out to close the window, when he heard Kagome talking in her sleep again. "Inuyasha… I Love You."
A/N" OMG! She sleep talked that she loved Inuyasha! What will be Inuyasha's reaction? And will Kagome realize her journal with all her thoughts and feeling of the feudal era has disappeared? See you soon!
-Silver Wolf
