A/N: this is a story i had written for a while, but i finally put it up. short idea i had, hope you like it!
It's funny when I think about it. For how long I've held a smile, looked at him with loving eyes.
The truth never came to the surface. I'm sick. I'm disgusting. How can I ever hide that? Sora and I, we were apart for years. I was trapped, held in the Organization's grasp. There was one boy who always came to check on me. Axel.
He always put me on edge. He'd pace around the room speaking poetic, seductive verses. I wanted to scream. I wanted him to leave, leave me alone.
He was really beautiful. His slim figure. His face. The way he walked, form one side of the room to another.
That was why he was so scary. As I sat there, chained to a chair, he would come, every day. My eyes would follow him even though I tried not to. He'd catch me looking at him, and smirk.
It went on like that, a hated time of day, when he would come and visit. One day he came behind my chair wrapped his arms around me, and kissed my neck.
It came to me as a shock. He continued, sliding his fingers up my stomach, caressing my breasts. And he didn't stop there.
I still feel gross just thinking about it. The sick, disgusting things we did. When I think about it, I want to scream.
Like I could ever tell anyone. Sora would never look at me the same again. I'm defiled, unworthy of his love. I feel horrible when he smiles at me, kisses me. I hide my darkest secrets from him, and all I get in return is love. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve his beautiful smile.
Axel died since then. He told Sora, "sorry for what I did to her". He didn't tell he what he did. The secrets now only mine to keep.
I stand atop the clock tower, the wing blowing at my hair. The sun looks so pretty from here, dipping below the treetops. I think of Sora, and I hear his laughter. He'll never know. He'll never know.
I breathe in and out. The air is warm and humid. It reminds me of Destiny Islands, the 3 of us, before it all began. For those last moments, I feel pure, beautiful.
Then I jump.
The secret dies with me.
