So this is my first attempt at a SouGou fic, and I think it turned out pretty good, maybe a little more feels-induced but whatever. I haven't decided if I want to continue this or not, it depends how many people enjoy it but I am already writing more so we'll see
Anyway, without further adu,

I hope you enjoy!


He was there for her

His smile made the butterflies in her stomach flutter

And he shattered her heart as he walked away.

Gou ran up to her brother on his graduation day, the rest of the Iwatobi team hot on her trail, ready to congratulate Rin.

"Onii-chan!" She called and tried to discreetly search for a familiar head of black hair but when she couldn't find anyone she proceeded to tackle her brother in a loving hug.

Everyone crowded around and patted him on the back.

"Rin, congratulations, let's go out of dinner," a feminine voice asked from behind the 6 friends.

Gou spun around to see her mother, "Okaa-san!" Both she and Rin said in slight surprise. Their mother was rarely home, leaving Gou home alone most days and nights.

"Come on, bring your friends and let's eat!"

Everyone sat around the table while Mrs. Matsuoka tried to make small talk with Haru. Gou and Rin nearly died of laughter as the uncomfortable teen tried to dodge her questions and he shot them pleading looks.

Makoto eventually came to his rescue, and the dinner went on smoothly.

"Oh! That reminds me, Rin?" The boy in question looked up from his spicy noodle dish, "Where's Sousuke? He graduated from Samezuka as well, right?"

Slurping up the rest of his noodles, he shrugged, "He didn't come to the ceremony, and he moved out of the dorms as soon as classes ended."

No one noticed Gou's attentiveness, not the look of hurt flashing across her face when she realized that he had left without even considering saying good bye.

Gou suddenly wanted to leave as soon as possible. She begged that the team wouldn't want to stick around too long, she wanted to go home with her mother, and her brother and sleep the night away. Though she didn't know why she felt this way, it was similar to the way she felt when Rin left for Australia. It was something about Sousuke, the man who had stayed with her since elementary school even when her brother was too busy. The man who protected her from bullies, and from the nightmares when she was left all alone. He had become an honorary part of the Matsuoka family.

Luckily for Gou her mother needed to get up early the next morning so she had an excuse to leave right after dinner.

While saying her farewells to everyone she turned to leave with her mother, but before she could a hand grabbed her wrist.

"Mom, go on without her, I'll bring her home in a bit." Rin said, pulling his younger sister down a path in the opposite direction. His mother happily agreed and nearly skipped towards their house.

The team slowly split their separate ways until it was just Gou and Rin sitting on a swing set in a park about 15 minutes away from her home.

"So want to tell me what's wrong?" Rin asked casually.

Gou looked at him and couldn't bear to keep a smile on her face. It was hard to think that one boy could affect her so much, and she didn't like it but couldn't help but feel that way. "It's nothing." She looked away and began to swing herself.

"Like hell. I know you, Gou, and something is up. You're not your usual self." He speculated while staring off into space. "Did something happen?"

She sighed, he may be a shit older brother sometimes but he was always there to stick his nose in other people's business when he thought he could help. But in this situation Gou didn't want to tell him in fear that he would make fun of her.

There was also the fact that she didn't know how to process her own feelings or how they related to Sousuke much less try to explain them to Rin.

"Look I know it has something to do with Sousuke. Just spit it out," He said almost harshly.

It was a small thing but Gou was in no mood to deal with Rin's attitude. She abruptly stood from her swing and clenched her fists.

"How am I supposed to tell everything to you when I don't even know what's going on myself?!" She yelled facing forward and away from him. "Plus you never tell me anything! Why should I have to tell you what I'm thinking when you never do the same for me?!" Tears from years of pent up frustration collected in her eyes. "I can't think straight," She admitted quietly, "Why does everyone leave me?"

"Gou," Rin said quietly. "I know I've been a terrible older brother but I'm trying to get better. I want to help you."

Gou retreated to sitting on the ground with her knees pulled up to her chest. "I don't know how to answer your question. Maybe I'm just upset that Sousuke left without saying anything. He was kind of like my older brother while you were gone."

"Tch," Rin said getting annoyed at her last statement, "So that's why you're upset? Sousuke left? What's the big deal?"

Gou stayed quiet for a moment, "He was always just there, there when no one else was. I think I might've-" She stopped mid-sentence not wanting to admit anything.

Rin stared at her but when she didn't look him in the eyes she glanced to the starry sky above them. "Gou, sometimes it's hard to admit things to yourself, but the faster you do the easier it is on you. I should know, I spent years bottling up thoughts and emotions and feelings. It was difficult. And the longer I held it all in the angrier I'd be. Coming clean to yourself isn't an easy feat but once you do you feel better." He glanced at his younger sister who was watching him with something he couldn't quite place. "I'm going to be here for you no matter what now."


Gou laid in her bed contemplating the wise words her brother had spoken to her not an hour before hand. Maybe it would be a good thing to address her thoughts towards Sousuke because no matter how much she tried to ignore everything she still felt confused and frustrated.

She needed to address the flutter in her stomach whenever he was around.

The skip in her step when they walked together.

The rapid beating of her heart against her ribcage whenever he spoke to her.

Those kind eyes. His rare smile. His caring nature.

She screeched into her pillow. She didn't want to think of this.

The truth was too much for her to handle. And she didn't want to accept that maybe, a small part of her, had fallen in love with Sousuke Yamazaki.

Because that meant accepting that he had left her while simultaneously breaking her apart and he didn't even know.

Mrs. Matsuoka didn't see this coming. She herself was feeling a bit teary as she bid her son farewell at the airport, however her emotions didn't even compare to the young girl in her arms positively crying her eyes out.

"Onii-chan! Onii-chan!" She yelled over and over and the woman nearly ran from the airport as to stop from causing a ruckus around her.

"Shh, my little princess, it'll be okay, Rin will be back sooner than you know it," She tried to comfort but all she got was a hiccup and sob.

Gou buried herself further into her mother's embrace, trying to take comfort in it but maybe he wasn't going to come back. Maybe he would be just like daddy and never return. Her mother always said that everything was going to be okay then too.

It was nearing dinner time and Gou had taken a nap curled on the couch but upon waking up had begun sobbing again.

"I want my Onii-chan," She pleaded walking up to her mother with her little hands rubbing at her watery eyes.

It was then that a fire relit in Mrs. Matsuoka's eyes and she picked up the phone, calling a certain young man because if she couldn't get Rin then she would have to find the next best thing.

A knock resounded at the door and the mother moved the small girl off her lap and watched as she curled up again while snuggling Rin's blanket from off his bed. It was heart breaking for her to watch and she hoped the visitor would be of some help.

"Good evening Sousuke," She said lovingly as she ushered him into the house, "Sorry to call you out here but I'm really worried."

He shrugged his shoulders and walked confidently into the house and turned into the living room, immediately spotting one Gou Matsuoka shaking with the force of her crying, wrapped in a dark blue and red blanket.

"Gou-chan?" He asked softly. "What's wrong?"

She untangled herself from the blanket and sat up to look at Sousuke. Her hair was in disarray and her face was red from crying so much. "Onii-chan is-" She stopped to hold in a sob as more tears rolled down her cheeks, "I want my Onii-chan!" She yelled and Sousuke was sitting down, pulling her into his arms in a flash.

They sat there like that for a long while and Gou had finally drifted into a light sleep before Mrs. Matsuoka walked in with a tray of snacks.

"I couldn't think of anyone who could possibly calm her down," She said placing the tray on the small table. "I really appreciate your help." She moved to try and ease Gou from his arms but he tensed.

"I don't mind sitting here with her," He said somewhat embarrassed. "Plus I'm afraid she'll wake up."

The mother looked at him with kind eyes, "She has to wake up sometime, and you can't always be there."

"I don't think I could leave her."

Mrs. Matsuoka smiled and ruffled his hair before leaving the room.

Everything was silent and Sousuke nearly closed his eyes before a small voice made its way to his ears.

"Promise?"

He smiled and hugged her just a little tighter, "I promise I won't leave you."

Gou Matsuoka lay perfectly still, she didn't want the memories but that one made her unexplainably bitter.

"Liar."


So there it is, the end, tell me if you thought it was too, angst-y. I try to stay away but I can't, but anywho, like I mentioned before I do have more of this written out and I'm just lookin' to see how much attention this gets.

If it should stay a one shot or be a little longer.

To give you an idea about where this story would be headed though I'll just say that there is a 5 year time skip and some light RinHaru because how could I not? And Sousuke would appear (obviously) and at the end they would get together because they belong together. However you'll have to read to find out how, which means telling me that you think it's worth some more chapters! So go forth!

Anyway, later peeps! I look forward to hearing from you!

~PrincessNoodle