„Sometimes Life is better

Black & White "

I starred at myself in the mirror and as soon as i saw me, I was disgusted …....

No wonder, nobody loves me

I was ugly, disgusting, not worth breathing ...

how can somebody as ugly as me deserve to live???

….I wasn´t beautiful....

…..my hair was too curly....

….my face was flat as a pancake....

….my stomach wasn´t nearly as flat as the ones of the beautiful, other girls i have to face everyday....

…my legs were long, i have to say, but everywhere was fat, everywhere, fat, fat and fat.....

I didn´t understand it,

why was i alive, when i was so ugly and nobody loved me, i just didn´t deserve to live....

I need to loose weight, so i get friends, a true love, not somebody who uses me all along, maybe, just maybe then, my parents will love me and maybe, just maybe then, i will find happyness.

I placed myself over the toilet and made myself throw up muultipicle times...

i felt better, but still not beautiful and thin enough..

I took another glance at myself in the mirror and what i saw horrified me...

I was still ugly...

….still fat....

...still not near beautiful...

..still my disgusting self....

….still not worth to be loved....

I hovered the toilet again, and made myself throw up again and again ´till my head felt light and the bathroom around me started to fade away....

the last thing i heard, was a loud bang and myself letting go of a world i never belonged to …

to finally be happy...

On the day it was stormy outside and you could see the thunder striking..

it was her favourite wether ..it always has been...

it was a quite day in the Cyrus and Jonas househould...

everyone dealt with a death of a loved person..

The funeral was beautiful...can you say that of a funeral??? i don´t know but that was, was my memory held of it...

Miley was dressed in a beautiful white dress, next to her laid her favourite, her first guitar, the one her grandfather gave her when she was 10.

She was burried next to an old willow in her hometown, Nashville, all her friends were there....

As she was burried, her closest friends Kevin, Joe, Nick, Demi and Selena sang the Whiskey Lullaby for their ….

After the funeral the all took one last glance towards the beautiful gravestone,

only one sentence was written on it:

Destiny Hope Cyrus


„ Our Sunshine on a cloudy Day"

They all have gone their seperate ways over the ast years,

but every year, a day before Christmas, the came to Nashville, Miley´s grave, to celebrate their Friendship, Love and Life.

They learned that life always has it´s shadows,

but if you have the right friends, a loving family, the darkest day can be survived.