What do I do now that you're gone? No backup plan, no second chance. And in the silence I can hear the words I couldn't say. There's a rain that'll never stop falling down. What I should've said just couldn't pass my lips. So I held back, and now we've come to this. And it's too late now, and the words I couldn't say, I should have found a way, to tell you how I felt. Now the only one I'm telling is myself. What do I do? What do I say? No one else to blame. I can hear in the silence that remains, and the words I couldn't say. That's how I've lived for 16 years before I finally found someone. We went and got married, they lived happily ever after…only in the movies and real life is never like the movies. Let's began when I was five years old.
I was the happiest kid in the world, or so I had thought. I only had a mother who would always go and get drunk. My father on the other hand… Well I never really knew him. Mother says that he left shortly after I was born.
On the 13th day of summer, my mother died protecting the village that we lived in. It all happened on the night that the legendary nine tailed fox attacked. I'm an orphan, and everyone just passes by without a single glance. For the longest time I had thought that it was somehow my fault for everyone's death. I knew that I was different from everyone else because of my outer appearance.
Five years later a 15-year-old took me in. His name is Iruka Umino. Insurers he was only five years older than me, but he treated me more like a daughter that her friend. He was the closest thing to a family that I had. We told each other everything, but when he told me what had happened to his family five years before, I felt so distant from him. I refuse to let it show, but whenever I waited to hear the demon's name I would feel like everyone hated me for what happened. It was like I was in trouble for something and didn't even know what. There were so many times I tried to die, but was just never brave enough to go through with it.
A few months later, Iruka returned from town on Friday with sensational news. He took me by the hand and rushed me to the new ninja Academy. Once there, Iruka will me that he was going to be a sensei and that he wanted me to be one of his students. I was shocked at his proposal but all I could say was, "I'm sorry Iruka-san. I would love to, that I can't. I would love to, but look at me. I have doglike years and a dog tale. I'm already hated by everyone in town, so I think that I'll just stay at home and do the housework."
"Okay. I understand. I won't make you do it if you don't want to."
"Thank you Iruka-san."I said as I hug the person that was now my father.
That night I just knew that I couldn't stay is Iruka anymore. I knew that I would just get in the way, and that he wouldn't have time to me like he used to. So if my mind made up I left the village and my Iruka.
