Merry Christmas! This will be set 3 weeks after last night's (4x01) episode, writing as Miranda
The big day arrived! Yes, Tilly and Charlie's wedding day. I was happy for them even thought this day was meant to be mine and Gary's wedding day. Tilly and Charlie are getting married in the same church and the same reception venue me and Gary booked for our day! I mean Rude!
So, I was laying in there in my bed in the hotel room, just thinking and thinking but then I had to run to the bathroom where I started to be sick.
"Morning big one" I heard Stevie say as she walked into my hotel room "where are you?" once again I was sick which made her come in to the bathroom.
"Oh Miranda" she said as she walked in before she came to my side and started to rub my back "are you okay?"
"I think so, it's just stress of the wedding and stuff" I replied
"Come on, let's get some breakfast that will make you feel better" Stevie said
After breakfast we went up to Tilly's room to pick our bridesmaid dresses up.
"Miranda, Stevie it's my wedding day" Tilly shouted excitedly "Just think in a few hours me and my Charlie bear will be man and wife" I just fake smiled
"now Girls the Car will be here to take you to the church at noon" mum said, I looked at her confusingly "that's 12 Miranda"
"Queen kong" Tilly smiled "pleases petty please don't get chucked out of my wedding, so today be on your best behaviour for my Wedding" I nodded. Stevie got the dresses from Mum before we left to get ready. As we were walking out I looked back at Mum and Belinda fussing around Tilly making sure that her day was perfect.
I pulled the hotel door shut behind me and looked at Stevie, she asked me for the second time today "are you okay?"
"I will be, right we need to get ready or mum will kill us" I joked
At the church, everyone was happy and full of wedding joy apart from me. All I could think of was Gary. It got worse when we walked down the aisle, all of mine and Tilly's old friends were looking at me. All the while I was walking behind Tilly in her big white dress just wishing it was me.
As Charlie and Tilly said their Vows It all got a bit too much, so I slipped out of the church by a little side door. I walked into the church gardens and sat on this bench as I started to cry.
"oh dear, what's wrong love?" I looked at up to see this little old women and her dog.
"today it's my wedding day or it should be, me and my fiancé...we broke up a few weeks ago"
The little old lady sat down next to me and pulled out a handkerchief "for you, looks look you need it more than me"
"thank you" I said in appreciation "I really thought he loved me but I knew he had issues but I never thought that would get in the way for us, I've loved him since the day I met him. He's my soul mate"
"now my dear" she started "love is a really hard game but when you win, oh you win! You may think that it's not a game you can win or not right now. love is funny, it plays games with your mind and with your heart. I don't know why people do it sometimes" she laughed!
I looked at this old women and try to think what to say in reply to her but the church bells went off "I'm so sorry I have to leave" I put out my hand which had the handkerchief in to her
"no, you keep it save it for the next day you may need it" she smiled at me. I smiled at her before going to find the others.
"Oh there you are" Stevie said when I got to the front of the church "where did you get to please caller"
"I needed some time to think, clear my head a bit" I told her
Stevie nodded "right, let's go back to the hotel for the pictures"
Now it was the evening, everyone was having a good time, even me. Everyone was now up on the dance floor or drinking at the bar which was were me and Stevie were.
"that's what I like to see" Stevie said
"what?" I quizzed
"you smiling and being happy"
"What's not to smile and be happy about my best friend" Stevie gasped "one of my best friends got married today I'm happy for her"
"really" she asked
"yeah I am" I smiled at her.
"Everyone it's time for Charlie and Tilly's first dance so please make your way the floor" the JD announced, me and Stevie went to stand by the dance floor to watch.
Put your head against my life, What do you hear? A million words just trying to make the love song of the year Close your eyes, but don't forget, What you have heard A man who's trying to say three words, Words that make you scared
I couldn't take it no more. I needed to leave, run way, so I walked into the car park of the hotel, where I started to cry
"Big one I'm here" I turn round to face Stevie "what's wrong?"
"I miss Gary I stress about him I can't eat I can't sleep it's not helping with me waking up at half five to be sick every day."
"you'er being sick every day!?" Stevie said
"Yeah in the morning, I feel better later on, I'm so stressed I've missed my period"
Stevie smiled and did a little dance "have you took a test Yet!?" she asked
"a Test!" I asked
"A pregnancy test" she added
"what I don't to take a..." then it came to me, all the things that had been happening. Can't be stress, it must be a baby! "In the morning will you come with me to pick up a test?"
So the next Morning we waved off the newly weds and headed back to the flat via Boots for a Pregnancy test. When we got back to the flat, it was time for the test.
"done" I told Stevie as I walked out of the bathroom "what's next"
"we need to wait two minutes" she replied
"this is going to be the longest two minutes for my life" I said "Stevie if I am pregnant don't leave me"
"Miranda I'm not going anywhere" she reassured me "are you going to tell Gary? He's the dad"
"of course" I said, I shaking
"do you want a cup of tea" Stevie asked
"yeah"
Stevie made the tea for me "Miranda it's time"
" No I can't, I'm not ready to be a mum to a baby" I confess
"Miranda it not a baby, it your baby" she put her little hand over my belly, I put my hand over hers then she moved hers away so their was just mine.
"I think I'm ready can you pass the test please" I asked
"I'm not going to touch a stick with your piss on thank you very much caller and thank you to you!" Stevie exclaimed
I picked the test up to find out.
"and" Stevie asked
"I'm going to be a mum" I said in shocked way.
