Where I Belong

Prologue

He doesn't love me. He never loved me. He just used me. He played with my heart. I felt sick.

What would I do without Edward? He was my life, my soul, my heart and now he was gone – with my heart – forever.

Edward watched me as I took everything in, I tried to understand but I couldn't.

What was wrong with me? How could I just stand here and say nothing like an idiot. He already though I was an idiot though, so I really shouldn't have bothered.

When I finally calmed down, the only thing that could come out of my mouth was, "You… don't… want me?"

Edward looked at me. The pity in his eyes was so strong that it pained me. I felt like someone had come and ripped my heart out, it was a feeling I never wanted to feel ever again.

He smiled my favourite crooked smile, but it was wrong. It didn't reach his eyes.

"Of course, I'll always love you… in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm… tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human."

I felt like crawling under a rock and never coming out. The thought of living without Edward was like living without food or water. It was impossible.

"I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."

And then he left, never looking back, deep into the forest. With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my action was useless, I followed him into the forest. The evidence of his path had disappeared instantly.

There were no footprints, the leaves were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over. Love, life, meaning… over.

I knew he was gone and wasn't coming back but part of me hoped he was going to run back into sight shouting, "Ha, Bella! And you thought I was serious! It was just a joke, I still love you!"

As If! I got down on my hands and knees, screaming at the dark, hard earth!

"Why? Why?"

All I could think about was how I hated that cold, hard earth with all my heart. This was why I didn't hear someone come up behind me.

"Well, well, well. Who do we have here? A poor, defenceless, little human. My favourite kind"

I looked up into the man's eyes and knew in an instance that he was a vampire and not nice ones either.

This vampire had blood red eyes that bore into you. He laughed. His jet black hair ruffled, he smelled delicious like roses.

I readied myself for what was to come, I wanted this. He pounced and I screamed. The terror was too much to resist, I was petrified. He laughed and covered my mouth with his hand; I widened my eyes as I saw him produce a knife from his pocket.

He slowly slid the blade across the base of my throat and he licked his lips in pleasure, the smell of blood was disgusting, I'd never liked the smell.

He lowered himself until his lips touched the wound and I heard him moan. A deep and satisfied sound, then his teeth sunk in.

The fire… the fire, someone had to put it out. The pain was so unbearable and I screamed and screamed hoping someone would hear.

And then I felt the man's weight disappear and I wondered who had saved me.

By then I was too far gone to find out and as the pain increased, I let the darkness engulf me.

AN: What do you think? Review please and tell me if I should continue with my story. Peace out, Jesss. x