Who am i? Chapter 1- Birthdays and moving?!
"It's the me that I let you know,
Cause' I'll never show I have my reasons.
I hate to say that I told you so, but I told you so.
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you.
Some things can't be treated so,
Don't make me,
Don't make me be myself around you.
Straight from your eyes it's burying me.
Beautifully so disfigured.
This other side that you can't see,
Just praying you won't remember.
Feel the pain that I never show,
I hope you know, it's never healing.
I hate to say that I told you so, but I told you so." blared out of my ipod as a walked down the street it, was probley scaring pedestrians.
________________ (Time change)
I walked up the front steps only to be grabed into a ginormous boddy and being sufficated.
"Emmett. Cant. Breathe." I chocked out.
"Oh, sorry Bellie." my sixteen year old brother said smiling down at me.
"Its ok Em, Im fine I just might have to hypervinalate for like 5 minutes," I joked.
"So, hows it feel to be seventeen?" Emmett said proudly like there was anything happy about it. Oh, yeah my birthday. I tought sourley.
"Oh its ok," I lied through my teeth.
"ISABELLA SWAN!" I heard my dad scream from inside.
Great what did i do this time? He uses my full name when hes mad.
I wish it was like the old days when mom was still here.
Flashback
I walked up the front steps to my house only to be knocked down on my butt by my little brother. "Ow, Emmett get off !" I tried but failed at pushing my little brother off me.
"Sorry Bellie," Emmett said pouting. "Its ok, but could you like, well, get off me now?" I managed to squeak out.
"Oh sorry Bellie!" Emmett squealed hopping off me.
"Bella is that you dear come on inside," I heard my mom say from inside. "Where having a party for you its only once you turn 7!"
7! Thats right I almost forgot its my birthday!
"Come on Bellie!" Emmett screamed pulling on my arm trying to pull me inside but failing miserabley.
"Ok, Em I'm coming." , and i went inside thinking my life was going to go right for the rest of my life, but as all you know nothing turns out how you think it is.
(Day after my birthday)
I came home the next day coming up the front steps, but there was no Emmett there to greet me only the gigantic door.
I twisted the large metal door handle dreading what id see next.
My dad was sitting in the couch crying beer cans everywhere, and Emmett was hiding behind the couch crying. What was going on?
I walked up to Emmett and sat in front of him. "Emmie whats wrong?"
Silence.
"Emmie whats wrong, your scaring me."
He sniffled a few times and looked up at me. "Bellie, Mommas dead!" He sobbed.
"W-what are you talking about Em?"
Emmett didnt answer.
"Em, what are you talking about mommies right here" I said not understanding at all what he was talking about.
I ran around the house looking for my mom and screaming her name, until i fell into a crumpled heap on the floor in the kicthen, realizing what Emmett had said was true. Our mom was gone and she wasnt comin back
End Flashback
I laziley walked into the living room where my dad was waiting.
"Yeah," I said looking at him expectantley.
"YOU GOT IN A FIGHT AGAIN!" Agian.... it was only like a few hundred times i had been.
"They started it," I said pouting.
"THEY ALWAYS START IT!" he screamed at me.
"Well they did i mumbled," That pink bitch deserved it.
"Well not anymore." he said waiting sor it to register in my head.
"Wait what do you mean "not anymore"?" I said gaping at him like a fish.
"I meant not any more, were moving."
"What?!"
"You heard me,"
"To where?!"
"Forks, Washington." He said calmley as if i were a time bomb about to go off.
And well being the time bomb I was, I did what all good time bombs do,I exploded. "What are you talking about we cant move! What about this house its moms house OUR house you cant do this!"
"Actually Isabella I can."
"But this is moms house!" I screamed at him tears starting to form in my eyes.
"Isabella sweetie Renee's dead."
"Dont call me that ,you have no right how could you be so heartless!" I screamed tears screaming down my face now.
My dads tone got softer,"Bella sweetie-"
"Shut up! Just shut up! Leave me alone!" I screamed running upstairs to my room so fast I couldnt see.
I jumped on my bed and cryed for the ten years I never did. I cryed over how those pink hoes teased me for all those years, I cryed for all those times I couldnt shelter Emmett from the horribley real world, and I cryed for all those times I didnt have a mom for boy problems and the dramas of middle school. I cryed over ther father figure I never had.
Well screw all those things! I'm Bella fricken' Swan for goodness sakes! I can do this!
Well at least I dont have to worry about all those pink bitches and jocks who think there all that!
Thats the only good thing.
And then i went into a deep slumber dreamimg of a small town named Forks, where all my troubles went away. But as I learned the hardway, dreams never make a reality.
Thanks for reading if you did!
