I ran into my room and slammed the door shut before anyone could stop me from running away from the pain I felt in my heart which happened almost every other day. Tears started streamed down my pale face which most of the ones I lived with couldn't shed real tears. I could cry unlike most of my kind as I threw myself onto the couch I had against the wall to my right sense I needed no to very little sleep. I used it mostly for times I wanted to be alone which I had occasionally especially when I had moments like this. I went to cry on the couch many times for the same reason each time I cried: Vanessa, my little sister had died years before and I hadn't been able to avenge her death yet. I felt as if I had to someday soon or suffer forever.

Vanessa was the only other one I'd ever changed to be like me when I found her almost dead alone. She was like my little sister and we had bonded to each other very quickly. I loved her like no other and we lived together happily. Then the Volturigot to her when she was hunting alone and killed her without any mercy. There was nothing I could do about it when I found out they had killed her. I should have gone hunting with her that day then maybe then she would still be alive. If I had gone with her then maybe just maybe she'd still be alive today and I wouldn't have been alone for so long. That is why I built this establishment in the first place after her death. A secret place were I can find a way to destroy the Volturi and avenge my sister and others I lived with now agree with me having similar feeling of anger toward them for different reasons. Most agree that their reign over the vampires of our world should now end because it has gone to their heads that they are the kings.

It's not like I'd never met The Volturi before nad was taken this hatred from other people's views. I was a slave for most of my life before I had met Vanessa nad changed her. It happened when I was only six years old. They brought my family to see the castle on a tour and my whole family were there and were killed there except for me. My father threw his body against me, his baby girl, to protect me. That triggered something in Aro and he let me live for a least ten more years. I felt like a puppet on strings though because one of the guard can control a person like me. So if I fought her it was a useless effort. My body was not my own. They feed me but rarely. I felt utterly helpless. Then he changed me. Aro bite me while I was sleeping. When my transformation was supposed to be done I had all ready left the Volturi forever. Even their most skilled trackers couldn't find me there no mater how hard they tried. I lived underground and no one knew where I was. That is until I swore to destroy the Volturi and found other vampires that had feelings of anger and hatred to them as well. Now I have expanded my building and thousands of vampires, hundreds of humans and a few werewolves live here as well.

There was a knock on my door. "Rachel please unlock the door so I can come in. I want to talk to you." I dried my cheeks so he would noticed I had had real tears. One small vampire tenancy that didn't change like it did with most vampires I didn't have dry tear ducts.

It was my friend Joshua back from his last hunting trip that had lasted two days. I opened the door to allow him in. He smiled a heart warming smile.

"Hey, Joshua, hunting is good I can see." His butterscotch eyes told me that was true.

"That cheery tone is so false. " He slid into my room and shut the door behind me so we could talk. "What's up Rachel? Why are you so upset?"

"Down is more like it sense I am upset," I sat on the couch again.

"What do you mean Rachel? You know you can tell me anything." He sat next to me and studied my face. I turned away from him to hide the tears shining in my eyes.

"I was thinking about Vanessa again, oh how I wish I had gone hunting with her." I said wishing once again that I could not cry real tears but I was different.

"I know you wish you could cry those human tears again huh?" He said softly. He didn't know I could cry tears. No one knew.

"There are even some wounds tears and time can't truly heal." I said softly.

"Look we all get hurt but we got to learn to just let these kind of things go." He said without thinking.

"I can't just let it go like it's that unimportant." I whispered. "Vanessa was my little sister. She was everything to me. I had no one else. Just her."

"We lose the ones we love and we can't change the past. Besides you're wasting you time wishing she was alive still Rachel. It's your problem from getting to close to her. We shouldn't get close to people because then it opens up our heart to pain."

In one swift movement I pushed Joshua so hard he flew across the room from my strength in pure anger, "GET OUT OF MY ROOM!!" I shouted loudly. "HOW DARE TO SAY THAT ABOUT MY LITTLE SISTER!! VANESSA WAS EVERYTHING TO ME BUT YOU DON'T KNOW THAT FEELING AND NEVER WILL!! ALL BECAUSE YOUR A NOMAD AND NEVER LET ANYONE GET CLOSE!! YOU NEVER CHANGED SOMEBODY LIKE I DID!!"

"Okay, just calm down Rachel." He said. "I'm leaving your room right now okay. Don't do anything too drastic that you'll regret like last time you got angry at me. That time you had to repair your wall."

"I all ready regret knowing you." I seethed. "Just get out now before I attack you and this time I wouldn't be sorry about it!"

As soon as he was out the door. I slammed the door so hard that it broke and fell to the floor.

"Who broke their door this time?" Carl, a werewolf, shouted gleefully down the hall when the crash had signaled that I had done something drastic which I shouldn't have but I had lost my temper with Joshua again.

"Oh I hate when Joshua makes me so angry I do something drastic like break down my door or make a hole in my wall." I said as several came to see what had happened and caused the loud noise.

I started to hide in other parts of the building until my door could be repaired because I was so upset about Vanessa's death though it had been so many years ago. I wished I could change the past but no one can.