*This is my first story I hope you like it. **I do not own any of the characters here.

I don't know how it happened and I still do not believe it did happen but here I am so I guess I must have done it. If you had told me two weeks ago that I would no longer be a virgin I would not have believed it and if you told me who I lost my virginity to I would have laughed in your face but it happened and now I don't know how it happened or how to act. Well I mean I know how it happened but I don't. You know what I mean? It started simple enough a week before Halloween. We had our first real frost so I had wrapped my jacket tighter around myself waiting for Eli to come out of the Garage to take Jessie and me to school. Jessie was smiling I am sure it was because she had talked to Katie who had been sick with a cold but was finally coming back to school. Jessie had really missed her. I on the other hand was not so happy. I had just broken up with Jeremy who was my summer romance so I should have known that when we went back to school it would end. We had met at Booklovers where I had worked for the summer to make some extra money. He came in wanting a copy of Catcher In The Rye and a double espresso. We started talking and he came in everyday after that to talk. Next thing I knew we were dating and I was happy. Jeremy was cute.not Eli cute but bookworm cute with ruffled hair and wire- rimmed glasses. Was I in love with him? Not really but that is beside the point. I mean no one likes to get dumped. It didn't help that he dumped me for a perky blonde from the pep squad named Brittany, who by the way was the exact type of girl he told me he could not stand all summer. While I was mulling all this over as I leaned against the car Eli came up next to me and snapped his fingers in my ear. "Earth to Grace, come in Grace." I looked at him and frowned. "I am here Eli, I am here." I mumbled getting into the front seat. Jessie climbed into the back and turned on the radio merrily singing along to the song that was on. I didn't say anything so Eli spoke "Are you still moping over what's his name?" He asked. I leaned my head against the window and sighed dramatically. I tend to be very dramatic. "His name is Jeremy and I am not moping over him." "Well that is good to know because he was not worth it. He was a little jerk." "Yeah he really was." Jessie said from the back seat even though she really did not even see him much since she had spent a lot of time at her moms and a lot of time with Katie this summer. It was still nice of her to say so I thanked her. We all were silent the rest of the way to school. As we pulled up Jessie had the door open before Eli had stopped the car. "Geeze, Jess wait for me to stop!" He said as Jessie got out slamming the door behind her. I opened the door to get out when Eli grabbed my arm "Wait a sec Grace," he said. I could feel the heat of his hand through my suede coat. After all this time I still cared about him. "Jeremy was stupid not too see what was in front of him so stop letting him get you down." I looked at him the autumn sun streaming through the window making the high lights in his hair sparkle and my heart jumped in my throat. I then remembered all the missed chances between us, chances that he let go by and my heart hardened. "Some people never do see what is in front of them do they?" I said as I pulled my arm away and got out of the car. I swear I could feel his eyes burning into my back. My day went from bad to worse. Mr. Dimitri had left to teach at a school in Sunny CA so I was left without my favorite teacher and the new drama teacher seemed to care less about us and everything about play she was writing. She had us sit in the theater reading a play to ourselves! Plays are not meant to be read alone, they are meant to be shared; at least that is what Mr. Dimitri always said. So I didn't read I spent my time thinking about Eli and the lost chances between us. The last one had happened last summer right before I started dating Jeremy...

(Flash back)

It was really hot for June and the AC was broke making it unbearable in the house. Mom and Rick had gone to Sears to get a new one. Zoe was at her best friend Cali's house and Jessie was with Katie somewhere. I sat outside in a lounge chair in a tank top and cut offs reading and drinking lemonade. All of the sudden the sprinklers went on soaking my new book and me. I jumped up and yelped splashing lemonade all over me. Then I heard it, laughing!! I turned around and there stood Eli laughing at me! He had turned on the sprinklers. "Look what you did!!! You ruined my new book!" I said throwing it at him. He ducked "Come on Grace you can get a new one for free your dad owns a book store!" "That doesn't matter Eli I was reading it now." I continued on yelling at him when I noticed he had a weird look on his face and he was just staring at my chest. I looked down and noticed that my white tank top was now see through. I crossed my arms over my chest and we looked at each other a silence growing between us. I felt warm all over from the look he gave me. I spun on my heel to head into the house but instead of making a dramatic exit like I had planned I slipped on the wet grass and crashed on my back! Eli ran over to me reaching down to help me up and I grabbed his hand and yanked him down, he fell on top of me. We both lay there for a second him on top of me our noses almost touching and the he did it.he kissed me. I had never been kissed like that before, it started out soft his lips barely touching mine and then it grew and he was kissing me hard and deep. I had wanted this for so long, since the first time I saw him really and now it was happening. I reached up and ran my fingers through his hair and he whispered my name softly between kisses and that is what did it. He realized what was happening and pulled back. "This can not happen." He said and jumped up leaving me lying there. He turned and walked away, stopping to turn off the sprinklers before he went into the garage. I sat on the wet grass my fingers to my swollen lips feeling the kisses lingering on them. That was the last missed chance.