Hey new book here, A huge Nalu fan here and Graylu : I love Fairy Tail to death my number one anime , but unfortunately the anime is cancelled for now until who knows when. people say it's on Haitus because the anime is catching up with the manga but I don't Know.

What I do know is that I'm going to miss it, took me a whole month to get that in my head fairy tail anime is on pause! :(

Fav couples :

1. Nalu - 2. Graylu - 3. Gruvia - 4. Gerza - 5. Gajeel and Levy XD

But Nalu is my favorite so check out this story!


This books is R rated due to certain sexual themes that you will be encountering ;3 This book has Action/ Adventure/ Romance/ Slight Humour/ Mystery/ and Fantasy of course.

Enjoy.

{1/04/14 - EDITED COMPLETE FOR THIS CHAPTER}


Lucy's POV

I walked up to Natsu who was screaming his lungs out in laughter and I got so annoyed that I gave him a smack to the head with the piece of puzzle paper that I had in my hand which Levy and I were trying to figure out. He groaned and turned his back to see the suspect that had done the deed to him, he had a scowl stretched out onto his face.

"Owww what's that for?" Natsu said realizing he couldn't get mad at me in the least not even if he tried in his part, he knew I had the top hand.

"You're way too loud" I said rolling my eyes at his obvious question, sometimes I wondered if he needed extra help.

"I don't care" Natsu replied rather nonchalantly which cause a brow to raise on my face. Typical Natsu, How did I get stuck with this guy? Did he seriously think I'd let him say that to me.

I smiled deviously as a plan formed in my head like an open maze.

"Do you want me to spill it" I nodded my head towards Gray who was across the room. He was chatting with Cana who had a barrel of beer by her side as if embracing it like a lover, she didn't look tipsy though which didn't surprise. She could drink for days and she'd never get drunk, I don't know how she does it.

"You wouldn't" he challenged as he narrowed his eyes at me like it would due him any good, a smirk reared it's ugly head at my face and I turned towards Gray who cocked his head in pure curiosity that I almost laughed out loud.

Who does Natsu think he is?

"You think I won't, Do you really Natsu?" I said the smirk just growing wider by the passing seconds as he glared at me murderously.

"Fine I'll shut up" he sighed which made a few people gasps, admitting victory was a big thing to Natsu and maybe a quick sharp needle to his pride had been hurt slightly but what has to be done, has to be done.

"Better" I said walking back to the table with a feeling of triumph and dominance, sometimes I really can tame that pot head. I knew he didn't want Gray in on his little accident. It was too embarrassing, I grinned at the thought of using the blackmailing technique again; it would definitely make my life easier.

Levy was just about to figure out one of the last letters for one of the words when I hear an annoying squeal minutes later caused by non other than Lisanna who was loudly gushing over Natsu, yet again. Yep, it wasn't the first time, more like the millionth.

I mean really, how much is she going to do that?It really aggravates me but since their boyfriend and girlfriend, I can't really say anything. They belong to each other and they can touch each other, squeal over each other because in reality they are in love with each other

I mean she won the battle and the way she won was just by cheating. I know what you're thinking, "Why would I let her get away?" I was thinking the same thing but the type of cheating she was doing was dangerous, it was like a life or death situation being handled.

I wanted to fight for that pink headed idiot's love but does he really love me back? Think about it, this is Natsu we are speaking about, the one who rarely thinks with his head. Does he even know the difference between love love and family love. He always compares me as a friend and I guess as a friend I am to him..

If he did wouldn't he have rejected Lisanna? Or did he get confused with the type of love Lisanna was talking about but I doubt that since I do see them kiss in pubic once or twice.

Was he still waiting for me to fight back. The problem with me fighting back would just cause harm to him and everyone else. I know I have to live with the fact that I lost the one I love forever but worse of all I can't seem to love anyone else than him. Every time, my eyes close, his the only image that's able to pop in my mind.

Why the hell is that?

The pencil snapped in my hand from my frustration. I am jealous, I admit. I'm not trying to deny that I am because it would make things just worse.

That Bitch!

"Lu-Chan you okay?" Levy asked looking at the direction where my anger came from

"Oh it's just Lisanna, What's wrong?" she questioned, I shook my head as if to say nothing and she nodded still unsure and went back to the puzzle.

Hell, yes. Something was wrong! I can't even tell levy even though I trust her. It's not in the matter of trusting her or not, I just don't want to see her hurt and If I did tell her, I'd probably have to kill myself or be killed, if you catch my drift. I smiled at her, hiding my true emotions.

"Natsu you're so cute" she gushed even louder, my eyes averted away from the puzzle as Levy talked, Lisanna was leaning on Natsu who blushed slightly. I clenched my teeth together as they grind against each other, by staying here I was just getting pissed. Was she doing this on purpose?

She already had Natsu, what more could she possibly want? Did she want me to go mad with rage and possibly commit suicide because that was not going to happen and she had better not count on it.

I wish I could use someone to distract my heart that was in massive pain, maybe Gray but that wouldn't be fair to him or Juvia. I knew Gray had a thing for Juvia no matter how much he tried to hide it and Juvia don't get me started on her, everyone knew she loved Gray. She was so bold with her feelings that I sometimes envied her even though she called me a 'Love rival' which was so not true.

I started laughing coldly, maybe it's because my life sucks.

Well, I shouldn't say that but that's how I felt at the moment.. I have Fairy tail, the people I love here, they're like my family and being Natsu's friend is great too but what sucked about it was that I'm not the one he loves.

I'm not the one his kisses, embraces, says goodnight to every night.

I started chuckling and it wasn't a happy or amused chuckle more like emotionless and cold.

Some people turned their heads at me, including Natsu who looked at me with eyes of concern and I looked back at them with a false smile laced at my face.

"You okay Lucy?" Natsu called out, he always worries about me which just make him even more idiotic. I sighed and almost didn't respond but the gaze of concern and worry just made me feel so bad that I think I had to answer or he'd keep bothering me.

"Yeah… Just laughing to laugh" I smiled brightly but I knew it didn't come out like that, it probably looked like a poker face smile, I've been doing that a lot ever since he gave into Lisanna's will.


~Later On~

"I think I'll call it a day" I said to Levy when we were to the end of the puzzle, we were this close to finishing but I wasn't in the mood to do it at all and I didn't want to hurt Levy's feelings because I loved her so much.

"Lu-Chan this is the last one, let's finish it here and now" Levy whined looking at me with clear puppy eyes, she knew I was weak to them.

"I'm really tired Levy, can we do it some other time please" I frowned placing a hand at my forehead in a way to tell her that I had a slight headache and I needed to lay down.

"Okay Arigatou (thank you)" she yelled to me as I got up from the seat taking my white jacker and placing it on and waved to her as I was halfway out the door

"Goodnight Levy" I said cheerfully towards her as I kept walking.

"Goodnight Lu-Chan" she responded back happily.

I bit my lip because I couldn't hold the smile any longer, it seemed to hurt my cheeks. I slipped out the guild, with no one else noticing but Levy.

It was dark as ever outside, the stars twinkled above the huge building. The stars of course had companions near them as they glittered to each other, I guess their way of communication. I walked out the gate and I saw Natsu and Lisanna making out, like really making out across the field. His hands were cupped around her waist and their bodies conjoined as their lips moved smoothly with each other.

I felt sudden pain in my chest. I should be happy for them instead of feeling sorry for myself, as long as Natsu was happy, I should be as well. I started walking off I think I've seen enough...

"Hey Lucy wait.." I turned to see Erza in her usual armour strutting my way.

"Yeah" my fake smile was up once again on my lips but this time a bit saddened but I don't think she noticed.

"Were going on a Job tomorrow, and on the way there we'll also go into a town so bring money if you want to eat " she ordered instead of told, that's Erza.

"Okay" I say

"Alright get some rest!" she shouted after me and I could feel Natsu eyes were on me. I guess he finished making out with his girlfriend and wanted to go after me so we can hang out.

I walked rapidly

Once I got near the dock I walked on the trail between the Lake and land ,balancing myself so that I wouldn't fall. Since I came here, I've gotten use to it so I'm pretty much an expert.

"Ay Lucy watch out so you don't fall" the local guys on the canoe hollered at me while passing by.

"I won't fall" I said back winking at them as they left.

I got to my house. I was ready to find Natsu and Happy but I forgot that Natsu spends most of his time with Lisanna now.

I turned on the light and was shocked to find Happy on my bed sleeping and murmuring the word "Fish". I shook my head, the usual.

I walked to my bed and took a seat, picked up Happy and lifted him seeting him on my lap. Damn this cat his so annoying but so cute at the same time, I couldn't help but release a light laugh.

He woke up rubbing his eyes with his little blue paws and stared up at me with his big circle eyes. "You're freaking me out, your smile is weird" he said flying off my lap in mock fear.

"Shut up you Damn pussy Cat" I hissed and his eyes turned sad.

First time Happy reacted this way, he would usually have another comeback and we would chase each other around until one of us had one or both were tired which resulted in a tie.

"What's wrong? Happy" I questioned reaching out my arms towards him.

"It's … N-n" he began but tears already had started forming in his eyes that what came out his mouth was nothing but a lie.

"Come on I won't tell anyone" I urged him on, he ran in my boobs but I didn't really mind and he finally cried.

"Don't tell Natsu okay?" he informed and I nodded "I promise".

"Lisanna told me to stay away from Natsu when she's on a date with him" he said. "Even though she's my mom who I lost, I wanted to spend some time with both of them" he cried out and I felt a hint of sympathy for him

"I know what you mean" I simply said trying to keep my own tears on hold. He looks up at me his big eyes full of tears as they leaked from his face.

"Lucy... I know you love Natsu" he said and sure enought I bit my lip, was it that obvious to tell? Was I that dumb to not have thought other people didn't notice.

"Why didn't you tell him so?" he bawled out even more that my bottom lip began to quiver.

"I can't" I said my tone quiet and hushed.

"Why? Why?!" crying louder he shouted.

"I can't, I can't I can't …I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU! Please drop it .. " my own tears blurred my vision and I cursed myself for being so weak.

"I can't" I kept on saying and shaking my head.

"I wish I could" I whispered as we both cried like two lost babies who wanted their nurturing mothers to comfort them.

To think me and happy would cry like this, especially together I never expected this. After we were done, I decided to take a shower and Happy was right at my tail, he didn't want to leave me alone at all but I wasn't complaining, it was nice having company once in a while.


A violent knock came from the window I stood up to open it up with Happy trailing behind. When I did Natsu bursts in like a flying hawk.

"Don't you use the door?" I scolded him. He seriously does not know what a door is, he comes in every place except the damn door.

"Calm down Luce, I came here to get Happy" he nodded towards the blue cat that was anxiously staring at him.

"Natsu I want to stay with Lucy tonight" Happy's voice was so quiet you had to strain your ears to hear it properly.

"What?... but we always sleep together" his brows furred together but I couldn't read his expression.

"I want to" Happy whispered hiding even deeper behind me my back, his wings flapping wind near my ears.

"Well can I stay too then?" he announced carelessly, I couldn't let him stay here. What would Lisanna say when she found out, forget that. What would she DO when she found out?

"Sorry Natsu, just me and Happy" I said trying to put that fake smile on.

"Awww why?" he pouted. What a cute pout, I just wanted to go over there and lick it or even kiss his lips. Just once would be enough.

I shook my head. NO Lucy! Focus and do what you have to do.

"Because … Because you can't" I said trying to act furious.

"Ok fine "he scoffed and jumped out the window in a matter of seconds.

"Use the door next time" I screamed louder out the window to let him know, he stared at me nonchalantly and didn't say anything after a while.

"Whatever" he murmured turning his head walking off without a goodbye or goodnight, it was easy to tell he was pissed off at us.

I turned to Happy to see a tear in his eye already sliding down from his blue cheeks.

"It's for the best" I assured him quietly.

"I know" he said quietly as I flopped down on the bed

"Come to sleep" I said silently, Happy came snuggling close to me and we fell asleep. Well, Goodnight to us and just like that Natsu entered his way in my dreams like it was normal and yeah I guess it was...

Ohhhh... Natsu I smiled a bit for real this time.


{This Chapter had been Edited}

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