I don't own anything but the plot.

Therefore, I don't own High School Musical or anything related to Disney, or the lyrics that are found in this. Thank you. Enjoy.

I think I'll make this a series of one-shots, about how all of the characters in HSM write in their diaries. Maybe I'll do that. I don't promise anything. But so far, this is the Gabriella one. If I do it for real, than the next entry will be either Troy or Sharpay.

Enjoy, and leave a review. Everything is explained in this. I hope you'll like it!.

See ya

God Bless.



I love you Lord.

I just don't get it. It's too much for my little self to understand. And even if I'm sixteen now, even if, most people say that I've grown a lot, I don't think I'll ever really grasp why.

Why?

Why does it have to be this way?

I'm not complaining or anything, but it just keeps on breaking me, more and more, but also it's bringing me closer.

Are you confused yet diary?

I guess, you should be really used to it, see that I've had you since I was about 10 years old. It's crazy how I still write into you what ever is going through my head.

As you must know, I guess, was that all I talked about since the beginning of this entry is God's love. You should be used also of how I just talk about my faith all the time. It's not my fault really.

I'm really grateful to the Lord, because he sent his children, my best friend plus my boyfriend, Taylor and Troy, to get me to believe in him.

And when I look back, it's true; I've been such a disobedient child. I mean, I have been pushing God away from my life since, who knows how long. And I guess, I came to that time where I just couldn't push him away anymore.

A pretty lame testimony huh?

Maybe not to some people…

I just can't believe how, God used the sickness of my mom, to bring me closer to Him.

It's true when it says that, God often uses the bad moments in our life, as a door that leads you to the path.

My mom, as you know already, but I'm just writing it again, just in case, was diagnostic with cancer. Not all types of cancer are curable, well, they are but some of them have bigger chances of you dying than anything else you know?

My mom, was attempted with intestinal cancer. Pretty harsh huh? Yeah, it was on all of us, especially on me.

But you got to deal with it. Accept what comes to you in life, and just try to overcome it, for you not to stay in the way…get what I mean?

Anyways, during those dark times, I remembered what Tay and Troy had told me about God. At first I was really angry at Him. I couldn't understand why He was making my mom sick. I thought that if it was this way that this God of theirs acted, then I didn't want to deal with Him at all. But they came over, and explained to me, how evil things never came from God. Well, now I just understand that He did so to bring me closer to Him, and for me to see how great He is.

My mom, is not here now. She's in Heaven. How am I so sure? She accepted Christ as her Personal Savior, just the day before she left us forever. Well, technically, she didn't leave forever, she lives in my heart, so she's always as close as she used to be even when she was here.

I just want to hold her in my arms thought, because I miss her terribly, I know that God is taking are of her . I just wish she were here.

So back to the first thin I was talking about at the beginning, God's love is just too mush for me to just adjust to. My mind can't grasp it, and I don't understand how He is so loving to all of us, even when we do things against Him.

He's just so amazing!

He's calling everyone of the Earth to just look up, to the sky and for them to just believe in Him, put their trust in Him.

He's knocking at the door of the hearts like He did for me, He's calling people.

And it's our mission as Christians and as servants and soldiers of the Almighty God, to spread His great news, about salvation, and how He died for all the wrong things you've done.

All you got to do is say yes, I want you in my life and accept Him in your life. He'll bring the most powerful changes into you, so that you may become a purified and blameless man.

By the blood of the Lamb, we are healed and purified, justified and sanctified for His glory. His Love is everlasting and my cup is overflowing, so much that I have enough to show His, in my life, to other people.

He's reaching out to love and to touch your heart.

Will you let Him in, for you to dwell with Him in heaven? Forever?

Ask God to give you faith, forgiveness, kindness, ask Him to lead you, guide you by His grace. Let Him enter your life….

God is pleased with those who trust in His love. I studied that in youth group the other day.

OOPS! I got to go! I'll talk to you later diary, my dad's calling for dinner! Good night!

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Hey!, just a last thing before light's out:

Lyrics that I loved, from the minute I listened to them, like fifteen minutes ago, when Troy came over. He gave the CD to me. It's a Donnie McClurkin one, I don't know if you know him, but he's an awesome Christian singer. And you know me, I love to Worship. Anyways, here are the lyrics that I already memorized. You know I'm good at that ;)

''A world where pain and sorrow will be ended,

And every heart, that's broken, will be mended,

And we'll remember, we are all God's children…''

Skipping some parts here...

''Just like every child, needs to find a place,

Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be saved''

And as usual, the little written prayer, coming right from the heart.

I love you Lord, how amazing it is to be in you, I love how you love me, and I'm sorry for all of the things that I've done against you, all of those things that I did wrong, all this sin that often leads me away from You.

But still, you stand by me, and you love me, and you just keep on forgiving me, even I often do wrong.

I need you, I really do. Implant yourself in me, for I can't live without you. You know that. I love you too.

By your powerful arms, you push away all things that are deceitful to your eyes. I want to live for and only by you. Touch my heart, o how I'm insanely in love with you!

Thank you for giving me your child around me, thank you for Troy, thank you for Taylor, thank you for Sharpay and Ryan, my dear youth group and neighbor friends, thank you for dad, that is accepting you now, in his life. Keep on making your work in his life. And I pray that my brother, will stand firm in you, even when he sinned and rebuke you for a long time. I guess he was quite lost, and I pray that you keep on showing him the way to you.

Lead me Lord, so that my eyes may be kept on you.

Lead my life, mark my ways and be my shepherd as I'll follow you through the paths of righteousness. I know you won't let me down, and I know that I can trust in you, because you won't let me down, you won't lead me astray and even if I do get away from you, you'll come to my rescue if I'll fall in the pits, you won't let darkness take over me, and you'll love me to the end of time, until I come and found you in the paradise, in the promised land you promised for your children. Thank you for all things!

May you be worshiped above all.

Amen.



Okay peeps! Here it was! I hope you enjoyed this journey, and I hope that it wasn't to ruff. I was just talking to my mom, when it came to me, and I was just urged to write this. Her thoughts and prayers are lots like me, but my mom, isn't gone, but my brother, one of them is lost, and still not at peace with God. If it's the same way for you, I'll keep you in my prayers, or you family members or friends.

My prayer for this story and my other Christian stories, is that, they will help in your awakening…or I you have been already, in the growing of your faith.

If you came up to this story or any of my other ones, I guess it was because of a reason. Maybe God wanted you to read it, so that you may be awaken, and that you may set your eyes on Him.

Anyway! Let me know what you though!

Take care.

Pretty kouka