I never meant to get so upset at with what he said. We'd been sharing a room for a month now and Karkat was constantly getting angry at me. I decided it was time for me to move out. As I walked toward the room, I could hear his shouting and knew he would be yelling about me. I knocked on the door.
"What do you want Sollux?" he shouted
"I just came to collect my things. I'm moving back to my room."
The look on his face was heartbreaking. I don't think I'd ever seen him that sad before. I quickly gathered up my things and left in silence. As soon as I closed the door behind me, I started running off to my room. I entered and slammed the door behind me. I flopped down on my bed and started thinking.
Why did he look so sad? Can he change? Does he still like me?
The last question struck me hard. Did he ever truly like me? Of course he did. The kissing had proved it. The words proved. But did any of that mean anything to him? I started crying then. Screw Karkat, He can just go screw himself.
It was hard not to go running back to him that night.
The next morning was worse. I got up to go eat and I caught a glance of myself in the mirror. I had puffy eyes and a stuffed nose. Not that I cared, I was actually slightly happy about it. Let him see the pain he caused me. I slowly walked to the dining hall and Kanaya caught up to me
"I heard you crying last night, is something wrong?" she said.
"No, I moved back to my room and was crying out of happiness" I said sarcastically.
"Good to know your sense of humour wasn't damaged as well." She said
I stopped talking to her after that. We walked silently to the dining hall and when I got to the long table, I sat as far away from him as possible. I kept looking up and saw everyone staring at me. I had never felt more self-conscious. I ate as quickly as I could and ran back to my room as soon as I was done. I started up my computer and started looking through videos. Most trolls didn't notice the cameras I'd set up. There was one in particular I was watching. It was the one where I made the decision to move in with Karkat.
We were both so happy that day that while looking at it, it's hard to believe what happened last night. I must have fallen asleep because a few hours later I woke up to the sound of footsteps running down the hall. They slowed down as they neared my room. Oh gog, I hoped it wasn't Karkat. But you know, who else would it be?
He opened the door cautiously as if he thought I was dangerous. At first, we just stared at each other before he moved closer and began to talk.
"I just wanted to talk..." he said
"You're the last person I want to talk to right now." I replied
"So don't talk, just listen. I was wrong to get mad at you about something as stupid as sharing a bed. Of course I would love to do that, it's just that I'm afraid."
That got my attention
"Afraid of what?"
"That you might not like it and leave."
"Why would I leave KK? I love you."
I regretted saying it the moment the words left my mouth. It's not that it's untrue; I just didn't want him thinking I was still desperate for him.
"I love you too, Sollux," he said, pulling me closer, "I'm so sor..."
"Don't say another word" I said, pulling him in so that our lips met.
