I'm gay. I always thought I was straight but on my 18th birthday, 2 months ago, I realised I was gay. Nobody knows yet. It's not that I'm ashamed of it, it's just never felt like the right time to tell anyone. I've been tempted to tell mike, my brother, a few times but I always felt too nervous to do so.
My alarm rang. I hopped out of bed and stood up. Summer holidays are now over and it's the beginning of a new year. Great. Another year of bullying, stress and loneliness. I had a few close friends... well four to be exact and one of them was my own brother. I walked over to my closet and put on my black ripped skinny jeans, a nirvana t-shirt and my black vans. This is all I ever wear. I get bullied a lot for it but I like it so I try not to let it bother me too much.
I ran downstairs to see mike laying on the sofa "Vic!" mike looked up at me "Don't leave without me this time!" I nodded and ran back upstairs. I walked into the bathroom and started to straighten my hair. As I did, I glanced at my scars. I would have to wear a few wristbands to cover them up, as usual. That was another thing that nobody, except me, knew about. Every time I saw them I felt ashamed. I've tried to stop cutting but I can't help it. I finished my hair off, put a few wristbands on, collected my car keys and school bag and ran downstairs. Mike was already stood by the door waiting. "Finally!" he sighed and opened the front door. We got in my car and started driving to school. I turned the radio on to cover the awkward silence between us. We were both too tired to say anything. We listened to Fall Out Boy until we arrived at school. I didn't want to be here. I wish I never woke up this morning. I don't want to have to deal with the torment today and the crippling loneliness that I was sure would come about today.
Mike and I walked to our first class to be greeted by tony and Jaime. We all sat down and waited for the first bell to ring. The bell finally rung after a few minutes and the room filled up with students. Sighing, I looked around waiting for Alex to get here. Knowing him he probably forgot school was on today, either that or he's still in bed. After 10 Minutes our teacher finally arrived followed by a boy. He seemed very nervous and walked with his head firmly down.
"Hello class!" Sir said after putting down our work. "This is Kellin. Please be nice to him, He's new in town. Kellin, would you like to introduce yourself?" Kellins head shot up in shock and looked over to Sir. Sir chuckled at him and held out his hand, signalling him to step forward and tell us about himself. A couple of seconds later, Kellin walked forwards a bit and took a deep breath. "U-uh hi, I'm uhm.. I'm kellin. I'm 17 but I'll be 18 in 3 months and uhm... uhh" He whispered quietly. He had such a sweet feminine voice that even angels would be jealous of. He looked over at Sir desperately who was marking some classwork. He turned back to face us all, lifting his head up slightly showing us his face. He was beautiful
