Title: COURAGE IN SIGHT
Author: moonie
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Matt/Daphne
Summary: SPOILERS for S3/V4/C2 "Trust and Blood". Matt thinks about what happened... Can't say any further in case people haven't seen it.
A/N: Felt like doing this today, so I did. It's real short...
I keep seeing you. I see you smiling when you looked at me. I see your fears, the ones you shared only with me. I see your face on the day you said you loved me. I keep seeing you, in my mind, but the worst of those is the one I see the most. When I sleep – try to sleep – and when I wake, in quiet little moments and in moments too loud to bear… I see your face when each bullet hit, even as I tried to pull you away.
You weren't supposed to be there, and now all I can think of is that I could have prevented it. We were only just starting, finally. We had this life, as much as we were still working out how to live it. For so long it seemed this future I had seen for us would never surpass the obstacles in our path. But we did, we had… Trouble was supposed to be a thing of the past for us. Then it happened.
I know you were only trying to help. You couldn't have known what was happening, what had already come to pass. And then… pop, pop, pop… It was too late, too far away. Those moments right after are… gone. Just as well that I don't remember the moment you left my sight. A 'before' and an 'after' is already so hard.
If I'd only moved faster. If I'd only told you to run. If I… If I…
We would have run together. Started over an already fledgling life somewhere new, always looking over our shoulders, always forced to hide who we were. But we would be together. Miserable or not over this mess of a situation, we would have each other… Nothing could ever be as bad then.
I keep seeing you, and I hope I never stop. Smiles, tears, laughs and shouts, I'll take them all so long as a part of you is still there to remind me why I have to keep fighting, can't give up. I'll even take the worst sight – the best reason.
THE END
