Hey I've decided to re-write this story a bit. It's the same story and all just has a little more added to bits and pieces, and it sounds much better thanks to my wonderful beta reader LilyZWnam77. The first three chapters are fixed up now so I hope you read them over but it doesn't matter since its basically the same thing. Chapter 2 and 3 should be reposted soon and chapter 4 and 5 are almost done yay!

Thanks again to all of you who reviewed Unexpected Happenings the first time and I hope you continue reading since there is much more to come.

SiriusAllPunked

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Disclaimer: None of the characters you recognize are mine simple as that.

Summary: James is dealing with a lot in his life at the moment. Who will help him get through it or will he let them? Just a bit on the sad angsty side but you who doesn't love that, romance to come. Violence in this chapter and maybe more in the next few.

Now on with the story!

Chapter 1- Whoa- Who would have thought-

Madison Potter sat on her best friend Lily Evans bed uninterestingly flipping through an old issue of Witch Weekly. Lily sat at her desk goingover all her potions notes. Both girls would be catching the HogwartsExpress tomorrow to return for their 6th year at Hogwarts School of
Witchcraft and Wizardry. Madison Potter had long raven black hair thatreached her mid-back. She stood at about 5'5 with piercing clear hazeleyes. Lily had long slightly wavy dark red hair that also reached her mid-back, and stood at about 5'3 with sparkling emerald eyes. They were obviously attractive, but they never used their looks for an advantage over guys. Madison had many guys after her, along with Lily, who was constantly obsessed over James Potter. She had the hugest crush over Madison's twin brother, James, but never acted upon it. However, Lily was completely oblivious to the fact that he was in love with her as well, and had been since about 4th year.

"Well I guess I have to go home and pack my stuff for tomorrow." Madison said while hugging her friend goodbye.

"See you tomorrow Maddie." Lily replied to her as Maddie walked in the fireto floo up to her house.

James Potter was lying on his sore back staring at the ceiling from a spot on his bed.

"James!" His father bellowed. Great, just what I need. Maybe he won't notice if I don't come down. Yeah right! Of course he will notice. Even if he is drunk. That means it will be
harder tonight...
James thought as he descended the stairs into the back room, where his father was standing, looking ready to kill. James could tell that he had been drinking again tonight, as usual.

"What the hell took you so long, can't you get your lazy arse out of bed?" he said, then hit him hard across the mouth.

James cringed from the impact, but he wouldn't show that he really hurt him.

no... Can't do that.. James said.

His father hit him again, this time across the other cheek.

James just stood his ground.

Thomas stared his son up and down, looking at him in disgust.

"You're useless, you know that?" he barked at James as he continued his onslaught of punching. He then pushed him into a large antique vase filled with flowers in the corner, which created quite a large crash. James felt several shards dig into his back, but he would not show
his father that it really did hurt. James would never show weakness towards him, even with blood slowly running down his back.

Madison walked into her living room

Crash!

She jumped at the noise and quietly walked into the doorway of their back room. She stopped dead in her tracks. Ahead of her was her father in the middle of the room, staring down at James, who was picking himself off the floor, a broken vase in pieces next to him. She could see blood on the floor.

"Get up!" Thomas yelled at James.

James, unable to contain his emotions any longer yelled back at him "What do you think I'm doing?!" Shit! He was kicked in the stomach and he fell back to the ground, landing hard on the glass. He lay there, clutching his already very bruised and cut stomach.

"Never speak to me like that again!" Thomas yelled as he pulled James by his long sleeve black shirt, pulling the front up in the process, revealing many bruises that Madison could make out from across the room.

"I seriously thought you would have learnt how to bite your tongue by now." Thomas snapped. James was thrown against the wall with such an incredible force that even surprised him. Madison, unable to do anything, stared at the scene in shock.

James stood up cautiously, bracing himself for another blow.

"I want to tell you something James. You know that you and your bitch of a sister were not supposed to be born? You're both a mistake, you're a mistake, James!" he now yelled in drunken rage at his son.

"Don't call her that!" James yelled back

"What, a bitch, James? Well that's what she is! Do you see her around? No? Why not? Because she could care less about you!" He yelled as he backhanded James across his right cheek, cutting his lip.

"How many times do I have to tell you before you get it through your head?

Nobody cares about you, and nobody ever will." Thomas said icily.

"I know." James said as he looked to the ground, admitting defeat.

"Where are your friends now? I don't see them anywhere to help you!" Thomas said spitefully.

"Probably because you forbid them to come!" James yelled as he was backhanded again, this time falling to the ground from the force, clutching his face.

"Stop!" Madison yelled, as she came out from her hiding spot.

"Leave him alone!"

Thomas stopped kicking James, who was lying on the ground, to look towards the doorway to
see his daughter standing there, horror written on her face.

He now turned to her. "This is none of your business Madison. But I'm so glad to see you finally have decided to come home for a change." He now walked towards her.

"You wont speak of what you just saw, or else you will get worse than him, and don't even try to help your brother out. He already knows what he's worth and the consequences that he will receive." With that he slapped her hard and walked out of the room, probably to go find his wife, at some bar.

Madison clutched her now red cheek and ran over to James who was sitting up on the floor, back against the wall, staring at the broken glass shards in front of him. If I could just grab one of those, it could be all over. he thought bitterly to himself.

"James..." Madison tried lightly.

Its right there! Just reach, go a little farther this time... He's right... no one will care, and it won't even hurt anymore. It could be all over with... never have to see him again ever.

"James!" she tried again. James noticed she was there and quickly made sure everything was covered from sight.

"Leave me alone, Madison." James whispered.

"James you're bleeding. Let me help you." He touched the blood from his lip.

"I don't need help! I'm fine. It doesn't even hurt." He said, though she could tell his voice was wavering.

"I'm sorry I didn't come earlier. I didn't know what was happening! You should have told me. I
know that we never have been really close, but lets change that right now. Please let me help you." Her eyes were pleading with him. James didn't respond.

"We can get Madame Pomfrey to help you, and only the three of us have to know." Maddie tried.

"No! You don't understand... I'm not afraid to show her the bruises and shit from dad...but she will ask too many questions about other things!" he yelled, then looked away from her, knowing that he had said to much.

"What other things? What else does he do to you?" she asked. There was an awkward pause.

"Its not just what he does to me. It's what I do to myself..." he said just above a whisper.

"You wouldn't understand." he quickly added.

"What are you talking about?"

James looked away, then slowly straightened his left arm out in front of her.

Madison was at first confused and looked up at him. He had his head turned away. So she slowly lifted up his black sleeve to his elbow. Down his whole arm were cuts. The big and small cuts engraved his toned arm, and there were slashes along his wrist.

"James..." Madison didn't know what else to say.

He pulled back his arm and covered it up.

"I shouldn't have showed you." He said looking at her, then stood up.

"Why not?" "What would you care if I died anyways. Leave me the hell alone."He said before quickly getting up.

"Forget what happened. I'm going to bed, just please promise you won't say anything to anyone."

"James, wait."

"Leave me alone."

"Let me help you, please." she said, following his limping form up the stairs and into his room, where he cautiously sat down onto his bed. She sat down next to him. He turned to her, and pulled back her hair to see the bruise that was starting to form across her left temple.

"I'm sorry." He said, looking at it."You don't have to be sorry for anything. This is not your fault."

"Yes it is, haven't you been listening to him? It's all my fault my whole life is just a big mistake. I shouldn't be here." He continued to ramble on looking, around his room for something. Madison watched him intently. Finally he opened his drawer and pulled out a razor, and sat on the floor of his bedroom. Slowly, he lifted up his sleeve again revealing his cuts. Madison caught on to what was happening.

"James!"

His hand started to shake more as the razor got closer to his arm. She immediately rushed towards him.

"Put it down James, please put it down!"

He stood up so that there was a bed between them. "Get away from me Madison."

She started to cry, as he slowly pressed the razor into him. She jumped onto the bed and over to him, as he began to quickly slash across wounds on his wrist. She grabbed his hand to stop him while blood that was dripping everywhere. They both sat on the floor, and she tried to take the razor out of his hand, which was incased in a death grip around it. She fought with him for it. He started to breathe heavily again, "Madison please, I don't want to be here, please go!"

"No!" she said finally opening his fingers to retrieve the razor, which had blood all over it. She threw it to the other side of the room, and grabbed his bleeding arm. Then, she picked up one of his shirts that was lying on the bed, and started to apply pressure to both bleeding wounds. He just sat there staring at his arm.

"Maddie." he said using the nickname he had given to her when she was young.

"I need help." He whispered. "I have a problem, I can't stop it" he choked out.

"I want to help you James, you just have to let me." She said softly.

"I'm going to fix up your hand and your wrist. You try to sleep, okay?"

"I cant." He mumbled

"Why not?"

"Umm...I...well, you see, I think I have kind of acquired a case of insomnia, and I can't sleep."

"James, lie down and I'll fix you up a bit." James lay down on the bed with Madison beside him tending to his wounds. They didn't talk, they just sat there. Finally he closed his eyes. Madison than finished what she was doing and had all the blood taken care of, before she lay down next to him, and slowly fell asleep. James opened his eyes. There was no way he was falling asleep tonight, so he listened to the even breathing of his sister next to him. His back hurt too much for him to move. So he lay there not really thinking, until his alarm went off at half past nine. Madison slowly woke up and sat up, taking in her surroundings. James slowly sat up as well, although his back hurt like hell and he still hadn't had a chance to clean that up.He knew the vase from last night had really dug into him.

They both got ready not really talking; Madison had taken it that James was a little too sore to utter words, since he kept touching his jaw line.Finally, both were ready to go. Madison was wearing jeans and a white t- shirt, while James wore black slacks, a black long sleeved shirt with holes cut in to hold his thumb so it wouldn't slide up, revealing his life underneath the clothes. Madison noticed that although he hid everything very well, he couldn't hide the bruises that were formed or now forming on his cheeks

"Do your friends know anything about this?" she voiced the question that had been on her mind all morning and last night. He didn't answer.

"James?"

"No! They're not going to know, its not their business and its not yours either! So stay the hell out of it!"

"James they're your friends! They deserve to know, they can help you! Isn't that what you want? You said you needed help. Well, they are the ones who you will find it from."

"Madison, I was wrong. I don't need help, especially from you. I am dealing with everything just fine." James said while walking into the flow and away from his sister She followed.

"James! Don't walk away from me! You are not dealing with this just fine!"

"Yes I am. You wouldn't understand. It works for me."

"Well cutting yourself is not a positive way to deal with problems. You need to talk to someone, if not than me, then Remus and Sirius." She whispered so that students passing by wouldn't hear them. James was about to retort when Madison's best friend, and James's crush, Lily, walked up behind Madison enveloping her in a huge hug.

"Lily!" Madison exclaimed happily.

"Hi, James." Lily said giving him a small smile, and looking into his hard stormy steel blue eyes, which he quickly diverted from her emerald ones. He hated his eyes. They gave away too much of what he was thinking.

"Hey Lily." He replied, butterflies filling his stomach. He had to get away from them.

"Jamsie!" He heard from behind him.

"Hello James. How come you never could come over when we asked?" Remus greeted and asked as he came from behind Sirius.

"We missed you so much!" Sirius shrieked patting him on the back. James openly winced.

"What's wrong?" Remus asked, concerned.

"Oh...umm... nothing. Just a little sore, you know." He covered up with a fake smile.

"From what?" Sirius asked curious. "Quidditch." Was James short reply. They all looked unsure if to believe this information or not, except for Madison who wasn't looking at anyone.

"What happened to your face?" Remus asked, which caused James to finally snap.

"Nothing! All right?! What is with all the damn questions, its like I'm in an interrogation room or something. I'm going to find a compartment, join me later.

I need a minute." James said and than walked off towards the train with his trunk.

"What's crawled up his ass and died?" Sirius said, trying to lighten the mood.

"Sirius? Lets just go and find James ok?" Really inside both guys were very concerned about their friend and weren't sure what was really wrong.

"You ladies can come join us. I'm sure that there is tons of room for you." Sirius implied.

"Yeah.. sure Sirius, I just want to speak to Madison for a moment." Lily answered for them. The guys walked towards the train and Lily turned towards her friend.

"Madison what's wrong? You looked really upset when I was walking towards you and James."

Madison looked towards Lily. That was when Lily got a glimpse of the purplish bruise forming across her left temple.

"What happened?" Lily asked lightly touching the bruise.

"Umm...well, I can't tell you, but I'm working on it, okay? And trust me, you will be the first to know." Madison said, not wanting to give any information away about what was happening at her home. Lily nodded, knowing that if she bugged her friend she would get nothing out of her.

"Madison, I need to talk to you about something." Lily said shyly.

"All right, go on." There was still 10 minutes before the train was set to leave.

"Well, you see, I know you already know that I like James and all, but do you know if he might like me?" Lily questioned nervously. Madison looked at her friend. In truth, she had no idea if James actually had feelings anymore. Before, it was quite obvious that he liked her. But now, she had only last night witnessed him wanting to take his life.

"You know, I really have no idea anymore." She answered Lily truthfully.

"Oh, okay." Lily answered a little down. Madison noticed this.

"What wouldn't he like about you though." Lily smiled hugging her friend

"Lets go find their compartment then." Lily encouraged them, then they were off.

James walked away from the group. He couldn't take it anymore! He had to get away from them. Anyway, they were all getting way to curious. It hadn't been this bad the past years since he had always managed to fix himself up a bit before he saw all his friends, but last night was different. He just wanted to be left alone. The truth was he also had to get away from Lily. He still really liked her and was dying to ask her out, but he couldn't. He didn't want to take the risk of her not wanting to go out with him, and then if he did ask her he would have to eventually tell her about everything. "I'm not ready for anything yet, I don't think I ever will be. Plus, what would she like in me anyways? Nothing!" he answered himself bitterly. He found the empty Marauders compartment and sat down, making sure to keep the more bruised side of his face towards the window.

"Moony, I'm really worried about Prongs." Sirius said so seriously it scared him.

"Me too, Padfoot. We really need to find out what's wrong with him, and I think Madison knows something. Where do you think he got those bruises on his face?"

"I don't know." He answered, then they both entered the compartment where James sat.

Both guys sat down Sirius across from James, Remus next to Sirius. It was quiet for a moment. Then the girls came in. Madison sat next to James and Lily sat next to Remus. It was silent again.

"You know, you can talk, I don't mind. I'm just not in the mood." James said as he looked out the window. The rest of the group looked at each other for help. No one said anything again.

"Well this is fun and all, but I'm going to go the bathroom." James told them getting up. He looked at Lily, than quickly shifted his gaze to the door where he walked out into the hall. Everyone looked around to each other waiting for someone to fill the awkward silence, but they were saved when the snack cart came around. Sirius bought tons of stuff, and shared with the group.

"Anyone up for a game of exploding snap?" Madison asked.

Well that's it for chapter 1! Please review and keep reading.

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