Randomly inspired by the NF (narutofan) forums once again. You can thank Reddress00 and the stupid thread s/he made for this. XD
No More
Sasuke, I'm not going to chase you anymore. I used to hang on your every word, hoping that I would hear a hint of your return. For my sake, because I guess I just didn't know how to deal with losing people. How could you have a team with only two people? That was a duo, not a squad.
But mostly, it was for Sakura-chan. She loved you. Did you know that, you bastard? It broke her heart to see you leave. I committed myself to rescuing you because of her. I miss her smiles, even if I didn't cause them. I miss how she smiled, fawned…was happy because of you.
Orochimaru. I blamed everything on the evil twisted man. He took away the Sandaime…my grandfather, my protector, my inspiration. He was the first one to take a lonely little boy in. Invite him inside, soaked to the bone from the rain and cold glares. So it made sense at the time, clearly leaving wasn't your fault, it was his. He wanted to make me miserable, so he took you away and my fragile semblance of family vanished. Completely fell apart.
My early doubts were erased by seeing you activate the curse mark you'd been infected with-spawning wings, skin turning grey, eyes yellow-seeing you turn into a demon. Orochimaru accomplished what I feared-seeing someone human turn into a monster. It was my worst fear-because that meant if Uchiha Sasuke could fall from grace, so could I-and gave me nightmare's for weeks. Even now my skin crawls when I think about it.
Clearly, being transformed into something so horrid couldn't be your fault. Everyone wants power, but it has to stop somewhere. This was your limit, it had to be. No one I knew wanted to be a monster. And I lived with one, so I should know.
I returned, nearly dead, screaming for it to stop. Only at night though. Jiraiya…that pervert. He was the only one that knew. He would know, because he took me in, just like the Sandaime, and showed me the world. He made me his apprentice and I became a part of his family. I would forever be grateful for that. He also encouraged my quest to bring you home. I would hate him for all eternity for that.
But now Jiraiya's dead. And it's Akatsuki's fault. I finally understand the feeling of losing family. Real loss. It was worse, because I knew it was ultimately my fault. The Akatsuki were hunting after Jinchuuriki like me. Jiraiya was scouting for information, trying to protect me, even to his dying breath.
And then you just had to join them. It was like a slap in the face.
I think that's when I really started to see the truth.
You weren't ever coming back to Konoha.
You're too far gone. You have your eye's set on your home's destruction.
Sasuke, it's too late for forgiveness. No more second, third, fourth chances. You were a monster now. A monster formed from revenge and childishness.
And now I have a new promise. Sakura probably won't like it, but she'll eventually understand. Even if I lose her, I know I have to do this. I need to right a wrong. I know no one else will protest.
I will kill you Sasuke.
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Longer than my other one-shot, eh? Mostly a rambling/drabble thing, but it works. Please give any thoughts you had, good or bad. Hope everyone had a Happy New Year!
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