The Panther's Eyes
By Shino Yume
& Masako
"See"
Spoken by Juuhachi-gou
This world,
This place,
So blue,
So red,
So beautiful,
So ugly,
So respected,
So abused.
Can you not see?
Are you blind?
I can see,
And I cannot decide,
What went wrong
When I woke up that day?
And now I know
That this world,
This place,
So blue, so red,
So beautiful, so ugly,
Is destroyed at my own hands.
The green grass is now
A carpet of crimson blood.
The clear water,
Is now a deadly drink.
The trees are grave markers,
Dead in their own selves.
And it's my entire fault.
Can't you see that?
Juunana and I were close from the start. I suppose it makes good sense, being that one day we woke up to have Dr. Gero tell us we were of his alterations.
"You are now a Jinzouningen. Juuhachi-gou will serve as your identification. You and your twin brother are the results of my genius. Now you must obey my orders. Your main mission is to destroy Son Goku."
Ever since then, Juunana and I were an inseparable team, but he was always the dominant one.
Neither of us was fond of Gero to begin with, but it was Juunana who killed him. When Son Goku died of heart disease, leaving us without a mission, it was Juunana who gave us a goal in life.
"Even Jinzouningen deserve to have a purpose in life." He said. Juunana resented humans with everything he was. He always told me that it was humans who grew up to be like Dr. Gero. Humans who would make us Jinzouningen suffer. Humans who had what we didn't, and took it for granted. He planted a little touch of hate in me, and from there it grew. Our goal was to delete the human race so we could live in the silence that we called peace.
Looking back on the days I spent with my brother sometimes seems like looking back over eternities, but sometimes it seems like only yesterday. I do not resent my enhanced memory, but even without it I don't think I would forget a single detail of my brother: his face, his ideas, his voice, his ways. He was my other half, and I find it the most difficult thing to go on without him, now that he is gone.
You humans would say you know what it's like to lose someone that close to you, but the truth is, you don't. You don't know how it is to wake up in the morning knowing that the entire world, save one person, hates, but fears you. Nor do you know how it is to know that there is only one other living being that is like you. Humans have about a billion… I only had one, Juunana, and now I am the only one left. All I feel is empty inside.
And there were other reasons we would like to kill you damned fools too. You don't know what it's like to be a Jinzouningen. You don't know how it is to have no reaction to things people say or do except "Kill them." You don't know how sickening it is to stand inside a building engulfed in flames and hardly feel the heat, only because some mother fucking scientist took over your life and made you and Artificial Human… with no sensation of hot or cold except a slight notation in your brain. You don't know how it is to look at the world through my eyes, Hyo'o No Mei, and know that you are the one responsible for killing so many and destroying it's beauty. All you know is that you're a fucking human born leading a fucking happy life in this fucking world that I fucking destroyed!!!!
The little bit of hope that might have lived inside of me was crushed out long ago. I have no past. I have no future. I have no name. I have no family. I have no life. I have no death. I have no soul. I have no emotions. I have no dreams. I have nothing, and I am no one. How is that to live by?
