Memories to treasure are as dangerous as anything before. Thoughts plaguing your mind threatening to rip apart your soul, making the salty liquid of anguish tear down your face from desires to far away to have yet close enough destroy you from the inside. Recollections of days once past drive us forward to the goal that you gave me one night, one night of disaster, pure agony for me,you set our fate in the stones of hell.Do you regret what you did? Do you miss what you once had? You broke me down, both physically and mentally, destroyed me in the worst way possible, there is no hope for me now.
Yet I followed your words of advice, buried my past wants and desires for my antagonists dreams and wishes – such a disappointment, so foolish and unwanted, weak and unloved, yet I still strived to follow you!
Did you know I met this boy? He showed me the other side of life, the life you ripped from me in a moment of pure selfishness. I was beginning to enjoy this such life. But then you showed up to try to take away the sunshine, the only one to brighten up the world since your departure, and you tried to take him from me! Do you hate me that much? What did I do to deserve this…?
My memories of you keep my wounds as fresh as each new injury inflicted apon my self. Dangerous I was; strong physically, mentally, I was weak. Why is it so hard to keep my memories of you in hatred, disgust? Clouding my vision with envy of everything you are, how much you have grown and yet I still am behind you, in everything!
I sought out a man who promised me power, the power that I shall use against my beloved; do you want to know what I promised him? My body… After all, you can't be that selfish, to be the only one who can abuse me. I did it all for you after all, I did it to hurt you, to hurt you as much as you have hurt me. You said you loved me once…
Are you proud of me now aniki? The man I have become?
