I was sent to Azkaban for a crime I did not commit. I was good as guilty because my actions resulted in two people dead. Two people I loved. Two people who were my best friends.

The person who committed these crimes? Free to live the rest of his life in freedom. He had to spend it in fear. But at least he is free. I will be spending the rest of my life here. In this dark, damp cell surrounded by those creatures. The dementors. Those foul creatures.

And for twelve years I've sat and waited. Waited to die. Waited to be set free. Waited to lose my mind. Ah, losing your mind. So many people have done it here. You can hear their screams, and babbling. I feel it must be a welcome escape. I have come close to insanity. But at the last moment it has been torn from my grip.

For the last twelve years all I've had is my guilt and my innocence. Two conflicting things. Guilty because I switched from being the Potters secret- keeper to having Peter do it. Had I not done this.they still would be alive. God..I should have known.

I am left here rembering those horrible times. When we first found out that James and Lily were targets of Voldemort. When we thought that Remus was the spy. We never suspected Peter. He always lingered in the background, a prescence barely felt but always there. I remember the night I begged James to switch to Peter. I was afraid. I had already been confirmed as a target. Peter, well he was weak. What would Voldemort need of him? He would never suspect Peter to be the secret keeper. Never did we think....that he would be the one to betray us. All along we thought that Remus was the one.

Remus...I should never have doubted him. It was the fact he was a werewolf. James trusted him all along, it was I who in the end changed his mind. Convinced him that Remus was untrustworthy. My friend.........how much he has suffered in such a short period of time. Losing his best friends. James and Lily dead. Peter, suspected dead, only I knowing the truth. And me, a convicted murderer, not guilty but not totally innocent either.