AN: I don't own the divergent trilogy just my original characters.
I awake to the songs of the birds in the fields as I do everyday in here in Amity, but today is different because today I am getting The Aptitude Test and the calmness seems to be destroyed. I dress slowly, trying to savour my surroundings and to imagine staying here for the rest of my life like I am supposed to but something just doesn't fit with it. Mother always says that I am right for Amity and so does Father but that is not when they catch me breaking the rules or arguing my opinion with people at school. That's the thing really, everyone expects us just to follow other people's leads and to skip around the fields happily all day without a care in the world but I know that that is not life. Not life for me anyway.
"Good morning sweetheart," my Mother greets me as I come down to breakfast, she has baked bread specially for today as they all know what a big occasion this is and that I am not going to be remaining in Amity for much longer. There is only one thing that could refrain me from leaving is the thought of leaving my two sisters Amethyst and Olivia - or Amy and Livy as they prefer to be called. Amy is bold and outgoing and is by far the cutest seven year old with her bubbly personality whereas Livy gets ill a lot and was late to speak and move, the doctor thought she wouldn't survive. They are twins of course but that couldn't make them more different from each other as Amy prefers fast paced activities with a high thrill factor and Livy preferes to stay inside with Mother, there is no doubt where she will be staying when she gets to make the choice.
I chew the bread which is still warm but the flavour is dissolved with my fear of the test and I gulp down my whole glass of water in one but nothing makes me feel any better,
"Are you ok Lottie dear," I turn to face my mother, "You look a bit worried," and then I can't hold it back any longer,
"Will you stop pretending nothing is going to change when we all know that it is, there is no way I can stay in this faction and you can't hide that!" Mother runs off with her head in her hands and I feel a pang of guilt as I rise from the table. Lily starts to cry and Amy puts her arm around her shoulder, Father just glares at me as I run to the bathroom and throw cold water on my face to hold back the tears springing from my eyes. I sit against the wall and wipe away my tears before rising again and preparing to leave the house, just as I am about to leave I see Lily's pale face by the door to the kitchen,
"Good luck Lottie," she says and then runs off to her bedroom. For a second I am shocked at her words but then I think I must be a monster to leave her, but Lily spoke to me and she barely ever speaks so I can't be that bad can I?. When I close the door behind me I breathe a sigh of relief as now I can put them all behind me and walk to school. I always have to walk to school because Mother believes that it is better because it refreshes your mind and right now that is what I need.
I take the back path to school so that I can be alone to think and because it means that I will arrive later than if I had gone the normal way. Is moving away from Amity and my family really what I want to do? I would never get to see any of them again and it would break their hearts to see me go as it would break mine to lose them. But I have to go because I just can't bare another ritual about kindness and happiness and having to wear these comical colours all of the time when they just attract attention to you as being a mindless, contented person - Amity is just not for me anymore and I doubt really if it ever was. Perhaps the test will tell me differently because if I was going to change factions I wounded to know where to go and that is what the test will tell me, so what if the test result is Amity? Perhaps now I am just more confused about my decision because I don't know where I would go?
I arrive at school five minutes before the bell rings and hurry straight to the dining hall where we have to await the test. On the way I drop my bag and kneel down to pick up the books from the floor and rush along so that I am not late. I sit with the other Amity students but I do not engage in their conversation because i know that I will never fit with them, instead I look around to see what the other factions are doing; The abnegation are sitting silence, of course; the Candor speaking loudly to each other; Dauntless, lounging about on top of the tables laughing; and the Erudite reading and having quiet conversations. None of them really seem to suit my fancy but I will have to make a decision. Soon the tests will begin and I will be one of the first to be tested because of my surname, Abbott but I still have now before I am told what I am supposed to do,
"The tests shall now begin please raise from your seats if your name is called," I freeze because I know that one of the names will be me and then I will know what to do.
Ok so this is my first Divergent Fanfic so please tell me what you think. It is not too long but if I get some reviews it will be continued with longer chapters. Reviews are really appreciated,
Thanks for reading,
Rueflower7 xx
