Dear Subaru,
I know I am wrong, in believing that by keeping you away from this, you
would be fine. I was willingly to give up everything, everything except
you, because I have nothing more valuable than you. I know I really hurt
you a lot, and yet I can't help it. I am your mirror, and thus this is the
task I have to do for you, as well as for him.
It's is my fault that he got involved in our lives, in yours especially. He looked alright to me, maybe because he acted well, or maybe that was how he might have been if not for his job. I never really understand why onmyoujis have so much to hide, especially so when it comes to feelings. It is because that you all are afraid to be hurt or are you worried that your loved ones might be instead of you? I will never know of course.
Possibly, this is the ending that was planned for me from the start, the day in which we were born; I was born. I was destined to be your mirror, and thus, I have to die in the hands of the one that you truly treasure as much as you treasure me. This was the only way I know to get you out of your state of emptiness, the only way that dawned to me.
At least I am happy to know that there is someone that still cares for me back in this world, someone that maybe hurt and confused after my death. I know what I am doing is truly selfish as well as foolish, but I still believe in my fate. You cared too much about him, Subaru, and there's no turning back for you.
By the time you have read this letter, I would have been gone, killed by the hands of the one you treasure so much. Yet, I know I wouldn't be revenged, and this, I will not blame you for. However, your fate has long been set, and thus, the one you treasure will be killed sooner or later. I, will not be there to witness it, but I wish for you to stop being foolish and lock yourself in your heart of emptiness if he truly dies. All things have a destiny, a fate for them to follow and mine has ended. Yours has barely began, Subaru, but I will watch you from above, from the position of the Big Dipper in the sky..
From, Hokuto
Author's note: This is written just for mere pleasure. For those who have read my stories before, you would have found out that they are all POVs. This one is as well.
Translations: Hokuto = Big Dipper
It's is my fault that he got involved in our lives, in yours especially. He looked alright to me, maybe because he acted well, or maybe that was how he might have been if not for his job. I never really understand why onmyoujis have so much to hide, especially so when it comes to feelings. It is because that you all are afraid to be hurt or are you worried that your loved ones might be instead of you? I will never know of course.
Possibly, this is the ending that was planned for me from the start, the day in which we were born; I was born. I was destined to be your mirror, and thus, I have to die in the hands of the one that you truly treasure as much as you treasure me. This was the only way I know to get you out of your state of emptiness, the only way that dawned to me.
At least I am happy to know that there is someone that still cares for me back in this world, someone that maybe hurt and confused after my death. I know what I am doing is truly selfish as well as foolish, but I still believe in my fate. You cared too much about him, Subaru, and there's no turning back for you.
By the time you have read this letter, I would have been gone, killed by the hands of the one you treasure so much. Yet, I know I wouldn't be revenged, and this, I will not blame you for. However, your fate has long been set, and thus, the one you treasure will be killed sooner or later. I, will not be there to witness it, but I wish for you to stop being foolish and lock yourself in your heart of emptiness if he truly dies. All things have a destiny, a fate for them to follow and mine has ended. Yours has barely began, Subaru, but I will watch you from above, from the position of the Big Dipper in the sky..
From, Hokuto
Author's note: This is written just for mere pleasure. For those who have read my stories before, you would have found out that they are all POVs. This one is as well.
Translations: Hokuto = Big Dipper
