(Authors Note: Thought I'd write a BellaxJacob story .. R&R Please!

Chapter 1 -- Breaking the News

It's true, all I wanted was to fall. Even if it was the wrong time and place. I wanted to fall in love with him, more than I had wanted to fall in love with Edward. It would be so easy, to reach out and touch him, to look into his sorrowed eyes and fill them with happiness, to place my lips on his in a beautiful kiss, we had never kissed but, we had gotten close enough too many times. I wish I didn't know that he felt the same way, everything would be so much easier. But, name one thing in life that is easy. I wish I wasn't in love with either of them, I wish that he wasn't in love with Leah, but I also wish he wasn't in love with me. We knew everything about each other, our friendship was held together by every little secret that we shared. Our meetings at the beach being one of the most recent. I picked up my cell phone, and dialed Jacob's number.

"Hello?" He answered quickly, and his voice sent my heart on a marathon. I knew what I had to do, I knew that it would be best for both of us, but I also knew that I couldn't live without him.

"Hey, it's Bella." I managed to choke out.

"Hey Bells, what's up?"

"Can you meet me at the beach?" I spoke quietly.

"Sure. Meet you in 15?" I imagined him smiling, he had no clue, no glimpse of what was to come. No idea that I was about to break both of our hearts.

"Yeah, see you." I hung up, hugged my knees to my chest and took in a few deep breaths. I loved Edward, but not in the way I loved Jacob. I would never love Edward the way I loved Jacob. It didn't seem plausible. I let a tear escape as I collected my thoughts. I slid on my gray sweat pants and a turquoise tank top. I slid on my flip flops and grabbed my jacket before heading out the door. I arrived at the beach a little earlier than I had expected. I found a place to sit on the ground, the beach was completely deserted, probably because it was raining. But, either way it was probably for the better. I thought about Jacob's possible reactions to what I had to say, none of them were very appealing to me. I closed my eyes as it began to rain. I didn't care, I guess it kind of fit the mood. A few moments later I felt a pair of strong hands around my waist, Jacob sat on the ground and placed me in his lap. His embrace left me breathless, broken, and even more in love with him than I was before, if that were possible. He placed a kiss on my cheek, and I completely melted. If anything could have been done to avoid this, I'd have found it by now. Believe me, this was not done on a whim, or an impulse, I had been carefully thinking about it for weeks. I felt Jacob place his hands in mine.

"I love you." He whispered in my ear. I shuddered, I was glad that I wasn't facing him. Glad that he couldn't see my torn expression. Glad that he couldn't see that I had been crying.

"Jacob?" I whispered back.

"Yes?"

"We can't do this anymore."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean I can't sit here and be the other woman, I won't do that to Leah… or to you. I love you, Jacob, I really do…but, I don't see how we can continue to do this. I know you still love her, and I still love Edward." I turned in his lap, facing him now. As the words flowed more rapidly I grew confident in my choice.

"I think it's for the best if we just stop seeing each other. That way we can go about our business as though this never happened. And even though I know that It's going to tear me to shreds, I feel that it's the right thing to do." I spoke again. Jacob still sat silently, he avoided eye contact, and kept his head down.

"Bella…" He choked out. I wanted to reach out and touch him, but I knew better. He wasn't going to take this easy, but, neither was I.

"Please, don't do this." He spoke again. "I'm begging you." His gaze locked with mine. I touched the palm of my hand to his face.

"I love you, Jacob, never forget that. I'm doing this because it's better for the both of us." I spoke again. I watched as a tear escaped his eye.

"Bella, I love you.." He spoke, pressing his forehead to mine.

"I love you too." I stood, and walked to my truck. I couldn't allow myself to let him kiss me. Not now. Jacob stood and half ran after me.

"Bella.. " He spoke from behind me, I heard him call my name a few more times after that. I got into my truck, my face now soaked with tears, not that you could tell much behind the rain. I put my key in the ignition and grasped the steering wheel. Jacob walked to my window, he knocked.

"Bella, roll down the window." He said sternly. I put my truck in drive and slowly backed out of the parking space I have previously occupied on nights such as these. I looked at my rear-view mirror to see Jacob standing in the parking space now, completely soaked. His face expressed every emotion that I was feeling. I glimpsed at him one last time before realizing that I could no longer call him 'my Jacob', it wasn't going to be the same after this. I pulled over on the road about halfway back to town. I rested my forehead on the steering wheel, and let every emotion I had felt tonight out. It wasn't until I heard a knock on my window that I looked up. It was Edward.