Prologue
"My name is Liz Parker, and this is my journal.
The date is October 15th 2001 and as per usual I am sitting out on my balcony, gazing up at the stars and thinking about everything that my friends and I have gone through in such a short period of time; when I say a short period of time I actually mean two and a half years but it feels as though it's only been a couple of months, days turn into weeks and weeks turn into months and finally months turn into years and that's probably how I've ended up here, sitting by myself wondering about the lives of aliens; not that that's uncommon in Roswell, I mean we are supposed to be alien city, still I wonder how the residents of Roswell would react to knowing that aliens really do walk among us, when they spend half their normal lives joking about the existence of them.
The funny thing is that despite everything every one of us has gone through, when we've been hurt, when we have had our lives invaded by people intent on destroying us and sometimes when we have even died!! I don't regret any of it, ever since the shooting at the Crashdown two and a half years ago, the day that I died and came back to life; the day that Max, Isobel and Michael came into my life and the day that I was let into their most trusted secret I have been part of something so intense and passionate I almost pity anyone who hasn't felt this way about anything before. I truly care about these people; it doesn't who they are or where they come from in Max, Isobel, Michael and Tess's case or how long they have known each other in Maria, Alex, Kyle and mine's case the only fact remains is that we have each agreed that we will do anything to protect each other and have each proved it time and time again and will continue to do so until the day when we no longer need to, though I am not entirely sure when that day will ever be.
The only thing that I regret is not being able to have a normal life I suppose, I remember the days before I even knew about the aliens they were filled of gossiping with Maria and Alex, seeing Kyle from time to time, studying hard at school by day and working at the Crashdown by night wondering if there was anymore to life then just studying to get into Harvard. Well the wondering came true but not without a lot of hurt and pain; we have each had to deal with loss but we have become stronger because of it; I had to let Max go for the greater good and although I've been through so much because of it I know that I have to stick with the decision that I made, I made a promise to Max in another lifetime and if it keeps the eight of us alive and everyone else then I guess it has to be the right decision.
Unfortunately when you promise to protect and look out for other people other then yourself you then learn the power and the nature of sacrifice, whether you sacrifice everything for the person you love; or you sacrifice the person you love for the needs of everyone else; sometimes it needs to be done because
"The needs of the many out way the needs of the one or the few"
So no matter how much it hurts me … or Max I have to remain strong and do this for the others who whether they know it or not are counting on me to protect them, I only hope and pray that they never find out how much it cost me to protect them or how much it almost killed me, and I thought jumping off bridges were dangerous!
I thought I had had to deal with the biggest problem I would ever face when Tess arrived in town and everything that followed it, but compared to what I have been through recently it was a piece of cake. I remember that both Nasedo and her had been disgusted to find that the three aliens had let others know their secret particularly humans and had proceeded to try and convince them that they were a danger to their safety. Nasedo had gone as far as kidnapping me to prove that I was a mere human and wasn't worth their time; this plan had backfired on him drastically though because Max had gone after them despite Tess trying her best to keep him with her in Roswell, that then caused all of them to go after Nasedo including Tess but she refused to help them in rescuing me and then worst of all the FBI had been following Nasedo and kidnapped Max taking him to the white room. The thought of that still makes my blood run cold at what they did to him in there and I know that he will always carry the scars with him.
After all of that happening in the space of a couple of weeks I didn't think things could get any worse but I was wrong again. When the four of them listened to the orbs that had been sent with them in their pods, where Max and Isobel's mother told them what their destinies were and I guess not surprisingly they didn't include me, or Alex or Maria or Kyle. But in spite of the orb's message the aliens still haven't taken up their destinies; Tess is happy with someone else as are Michael and Isobel so it's understandable why Max doesn't seem to understand why I won't get back together with him again but it's because I know what will happen so no matter what happens and no matter how much I want to be completely involved in his life again I can be included in his plans for the future."
Sitting on her balcony Liz sighed as she closed her journal putting it back into its hiding place deciding to go to bed and dream about what could have been, rather then the horrible reality she was now stuck in.
