-1Title: Disintegration
Chapter Title: Quiet in My Town (Somebody Say Something)
Author: Bynamearose
Rated: M
Fandom: One Tree Hill
Pairing: Lucas/Peyton, Leyton
Summary: For a moment, he doesn't know how he got here; how he went from the greatest day of his life - to one of the worst. But then he feels tears usher over his face. And he knows as much as he may want this to be a dream, the event that had taken place were as real as the nightmarish hell around him.
Warning: Spoilers, Harsh Language, Death, Heavy Angst
Notes: Because, "…and they lived happily ever after…." never sat well with me. And I want to stop the happy!pregnancy stories that seem to be taking over the archives - and leaving me with nothing productive to do.
Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill. I write actual drama, thank you.
A/N: Love this song…really in the middle about this story? What do you think?
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Today I heard that someone left this earth
That someone disappeared left no mark here
Today I heard that someone just got up and left himself
Lying on the ground
"Luke," he hears as he watches the elevator doors open. Haley and Nathan rush in, concerned, worry etched over their features. He stands uneasily, looking at them both with gratitude he knew he'd one day want to repay in the same way - but hopefully never have to. And then he's swallowed into a hug by his best friend.
"Do they know anything knew," she asks as she pulls away, scanning his face for some kind of recognition of her words.
"They won't tell me anything." His blue eyes are unnaturally steely, she notes, and his closes his eyes as he continues on. "All they said was without these operations...she wouldn't make it through the night."
Nathan gives him a sympathetic glance and Lucas nods distractedly, his distraught expression unfaltering.
Reluctantly, the three have a seat - and his brother's eyes never leave the door he could only assume Peyton had once occupied. As the many times they had been in this room, waiting and praying, Nathan could only think what had always floated through his mind at a time like this;….it wasn't right. After all the golden couple had gone through, after all the blunder and downfall, they were the last he had expected to receive such trauma.
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
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Today two boys disappeared without noise
and I wish that I was them flying somewhere overhead
And tonight in silence, two lovers hate and find
One is bored
One is angry
but neither one of them is right, oh
"How's he doing," Brooke presses them after she walks in, watching Lucas' form from the nurse's station. She'd only gotten the call twenty minutes ago, but she'd be damned if her best friend went through this alone.
"Not too good," Haley answers, watching semi-stoically as Sam sit down next to Julian, only muttering what she supposed were soft but sardonic remarks. Brooke follows her gaze, but simply rolls her eyes at Haley's half-hearted diversion; she'd be interrogated later, she was sure…but nothing was going to take away from this moment.
Skills and Deb are in the corner, staring down the floor - and a hand on his shoulder seemed enough to let him know she was there. In contrast, Mouth sits back in his seat nervously, staring at the ceiling above him - Millie's brown eyes watching him from across, not sure how to comfort anyone in the moment. Fergie is uncharacteristically quiet and Junk looks all too uncomfortable in the somber mood. No one knows what exactly they're supposed to do.
Brooke had knows many Lucas Scotts in her life. So It was strange to say that she found herself never really seeing this one. His hands are near shaking and, as he runs one of them through his hair, she can see him close his eyes in trepidation. As if waiting for the worst to come - just waiting for it to come and not leave him here, wondering. No one knows what exactly they're supposed to do….and he just wants to go back a few hours.
"C'mon," she hears him urge under his breath.
"….Everything's gonna be fine, Broody."
Just a few hours.
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Oh, Today is
Today is quiet in my town
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Oh, somebody say something
Somebody say something
Somebody say something to me
Oh, someday say something
Someday say something
Someday say something cause I can't take this silence anymore
Anymore
"Peyton," the obstetrician urges, looking up at the blonde . "…C'mon, Peyton, I need you to breathe."
The medical professional watches as the pregnant woman arches to another contraction and, as she does so, cries.
"My baby…"
"Peyton, we're going to put you under another anesthesia," she says calmly, looking the woman in the eye, "- but you've got to stop pushing."
"Please…" The tears fall from her distressed features as she pleads. "…just help my baby."
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
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Today I heard the sound of birds and I wish that I was anywhere but here
"Lucas Scott…"
Everyone stands, but none faster than Lucas himself. The intern nods, taking in the many impatient faces gazing at him in search of answers. He looks to his clipboard, then back up at the blue eyed Scott.
God no.
It's too quiet, too quiet
It's too quite, too quiet
It's too quiet
"We gave your wife a caesarean…" He, again, looks back at the board, his face contorted into what he hope was sympathetic. "With the surgeries it would be impossible to for her to give birth vaginally without any heavy bleeding or clotting…" He's prepared to dance around what he eventually has to say, inexperience making him nervous and much too empathetic for this kind of situation - until the man grabs him by the shoulders and demands he talk to him honestly.
in my town, in here, in here, in here,
It's too quiet in my town
"…are my wife and child okay?"
Today is
Today is
"I'm sorry, Mr. Scott."
Today is quiet in my town.
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A/N:
Song of the Chapter (and in the chapter):
Quiet in My Town - Civil Twilight
And, yes, I know - those aren't the whole lyrics.
(This was also played at Q's funeral, just so you know)
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My Q&A section (I take questions by review, so if you have one for me - don't be afraid to ask):
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Q: Aren't you still working on 'Always'? Are you stopping work on said story, ect?
A: Yes, I'm writing (Always) too. I'm mostly doing this because I've been out of commission (by computer) too long; I lost the chapter I had and have severe memory loss as to what I had written. I will be continuing - I just wanna have a little off time for a bit., regain the literary juices, if you know what I mean.
Q: Your writing a Leyton pregnancy story - I thought you said you were sick of those?
A: I am. Believe me, for every "happy ever after" baby I see named Keith or Ellie, I raise a scrupulous brow. I like the idea of Lucas and Peyton having a kid - but the representation of pregnancy being easy - or less complicated than it, with medical probability, is - makes me a little more sugary inside - and you don't want to see that….I spit fire and everything. There is such a thing as an easy pregnancy, but it's not the most common disease in the world…..But for the record, this is a story about loss, so I am going overboard the "probability" lines here - but purposely in the other direction.
Q: Why write a story ( or a Pregnant Leyton story, for that matter) about loss? Aren't babies, like, the cutest things ever?
A: Cutest, loudest things ever. Yes. However, I like loss with change. I'm a drama nut - hence why I watched the show, but this season has been…terrible. And this is from someone who was ready to start a protest if Lucas and Peyton weren't together this season. This is terribly traumatic…even more so then infidelity and, though I want Lucas and Peyton to have a kid, I know - not to be cliché - that any couple (Lucas and Peyton, for instance) that loses a child has a hard time surviving - both as individuals and as a couple. I think that Leyton could, hard as it would be for them.
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Anyhow, I've said enough. This is a short first chapter - I'm already working on the second - so I don't expect much. But, I do want any critique you have to offer. This fic may be distressing to anyone who does not like dark or angsty story lines. Feel free to give me some love or just badger me about how bad this fic will more you feel for Lucas and or Peyton....Just click the periwinkle button XD.
