Title: Depression
By: Ryan AKA: Star
Summary: Sydney gets sick of her life and falls into depression, will someone be there to dig her out from it? Read and find out!
Disclaimer: It's not mine!
Chapter 1: The Symptoms
I stand here in the rain on a vacant pier where I first fell in love with the man I'm meant to be with. I felt like my world was ending that night. My father had stood me up and I had no one to turn too. Your true friends are those who are there for you when no one else is. That's what Vaughn had showed her. When no one else was there for her, he was.
Moon so bright, night so fine
Keep your heart here with mine
Life's a dream we are dreaming
Race the moon, catch the wind
Ride the night to the end
Seize the day, stand up for the light
I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do
Now, this very night I stand again on this pier hoping it will bring me the same comfort it did that night. This night is different though. Raindrops surround me, matching my mood of depression. Each drop dampens my attitude towards life. My hair and clothes are drenched, yet I don't seem to notice or care.
Everything is a blur. All I know is in this world I'm alone and it's the scariest feeling. I once thought I had friends for support. That view changed when I found out Francie had been murdered. Francie was gone, and Will blamed me so he moved and never talked to me again. My mother, if you could call her that, betrayed the CIA again and is out there, in the world, killing. My father and I had had a growing relationship but he was so wrapped into work now trying to catch Sloane, Sark, and Irina that he never paid attention to my personal life and problems anymore. I can't say it is a surprise though since he never was much of a father when I was growing up, why should now be any different.
I've lived a dozen lifetimes in twenty-some-odd years
Got no use for trouble, got no use for tears
I've had my share of sorrow, more than you could know
Save your lies and alibis, I've heard that tune before
Can't you see it's killing me, I'm old before my time
Suddenly, a crack of lightning lights up the midnight sky and thunder rumbles through the night shaking me. I can feel the wind hitting my soaked form and chills race through my body sending a chill to each nerve making me wince at the sensation. The only friend I had left, the only confidant I had left was Vaughn. He was the one who never left me when I was sad or angry, he was the one person I trusted in this world of deception. Yet one question still wracked my aching head, 'Where was Vaughn now when I'm at my lowest?'
I had nowhere to go. Home was too lonely, cold, and depressing. A hotel was for drifters, one's who had no home, and I wasn't ready to admit that's where I should be, not yet. I needed a place with warmth not only physically but also emotionally. I needed someone to hold me and cradle me like you would a scared baby, because that's how I felt right now; scared, alone, and helpless most of all.
Tears had stained my face red. My eyes kept weeping, never running out of water to plunge down my face. All the thoughts in my head were making me dizzy and my physical state left me with less than enough energy to hold myself up. I slump down on the cold, hard ground and lay down. I pull my knees up to my chest holding them tight to my body. I rock myself back and forth, close my eyes tight and start to mumble a lullaby my mother used to sing me to sleep with. All I wanted was to clear my head of deep thoughts and get my headache to go away but it won't. I just keep singing my lullaby as if it's the only thing keeping me together.
Lullaby, say good night
Close your eyes
Fall away to sleep
Eyes like mine
Don't you cry
Cause tomorrow there'll be much more
To see
Don't you cry
Say goodnight and fall asleep
My world was falling apart before my eyes and I couldn't stop it. I needed a constant in my life to keep me together and that constant is love. Love is the only thing strong enough to keep me from the depths of despair.
***A Lifetime Loving You-Mark Anthony ***Pain of a Troubled Life-Alison Krauss ***Nikos Lullaby-Brian McKnight *****So how was it? R/R, promise more is to come.
By: Ryan AKA: Star
Summary: Sydney gets sick of her life and falls into depression, will someone be there to dig her out from it? Read and find out!
Disclaimer: It's not mine!
Chapter 1: The Symptoms
I stand here in the rain on a vacant pier where I first fell in love with the man I'm meant to be with. I felt like my world was ending that night. My father had stood me up and I had no one to turn too. Your true friends are those who are there for you when no one else is. That's what Vaughn had showed her. When no one else was there for her, he was.
Moon so bright, night so fine
Keep your heart here with mine
Life's a dream we are dreaming
Race the moon, catch the wind
Ride the night to the end
Seize the day, stand up for the light
I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do
Now, this very night I stand again on this pier hoping it will bring me the same comfort it did that night. This night is different though. Raindrops surround me, matching my mood of depression. Each drop dampens my attitude towards life. My hair and clothes are drenched, yet I don't seem to notice or care.
Everything is a blur. All I know is in this world I'm alone and it's the scariest feeling. I once thought I had friends for support. That view changed when I found out Francie had been murdered. Francie was gone, and Will blamed me so he moved and never talked to me again. My mother, if you could call her that, betrayed the CIA again and is out there, in the world, killing. My father and I had had a growing relationship but he was so wrapped into work now trying to catch Sloane, Sark, and Irina that he never paid attention to my personal life and problems anymore. I can't say it is a surprise though since he never was much of a father when I was growing up, why should now be any different.
I've lived a dozen lifetimes in twenty-some-odd years
Got no use for trouble, got no use for tears
I've had my share of sorrow, more than you could know
Save your lies and alibis, I've heard that tune before
Can't you see it's killing me, I'm old before my time
Suddenly, a crack of lightning lights up the midnight sky and thunder rumbles through the night shaking me. I can feel the wind hitting my soaked form and chills race through my body sending a chill to each nerve making me wince at the sensation. The only friend I had left, the only confidant I had left was Vaughn. He was the one who never left me when I was sad or angry, he was the one person I trusted in this world of deception. Yet one question still wracked my aching head, 'Where was Vaughn now when I'm at my lowest?'
I had nowhere to go. Home was too lonely, cold, and depressing. A hotel was for drifters, one's who had no home, and I wasn't ready to admit that's where I should be, not yet. I needed a place with warmth not only physically but also emotionally. I needed someone to hold me and cradle me like you would a scared baby, because that's how I felt right now; scared, alone, and helpless most of all.
Tears had stained my face red. My eyes kept weeping, never running out of water to plunge down my face. All the thoughts in my head were making me dizzy and my physical state left me with less than enough energy to hold myself up. I slump down on the cold, hard ground and lay down. I pull my knees up to my chest holding them tight to my body. I rock myself back and forth, close my eyes tight and start to mumble a lullaby my mother used to sing me to sleep with. All I wanted was to clear my head of deep thoughts and get my headache to go away but it won't. I just keep singing my lullaby as if it's the only thing keeping me together.
Lullaby, say good night
Close your eyes
Fall away to sleep
Eyes like mine
Don't you cry
Cause tomorrow there'll be much more
To see
Don't you cry
Say goodnight and fall asleep
My world was falling apart before my eyes and I couldn't stop it. I needed a constant in my life to keep me together and that constant is love. Love is the only thing strong enough to keep me from the depths of despair.
***A Lifetime Loving You-Mark Anthony ***Pain of a Troubled Life-Alison Krauss ***Nikos Lullaby-Brian McKnight *****So how was it? R/R, promise more is to come.
