Do you ever wonder what would happen if you made a action, and it worried you so badly that you couldn't? And then, when the chance comes again, you reject it. And that just go on, and on, and on, forever? That you were so fearful of others, life was more a source of fear than anything else? When everything comes through like light through muddy water-blurred, but still there? And at first you couldn't tell, and when you realized, you were so sad, but still afraid? when it becomes easier to be frightened and angry, than to be happy and unafraid? When everything in the world eventually becomes a source of pain, but you want so badly to be happy, to heal a little, that you just keep pushing through the sludge, trying to get to the little piece of light? and when you get close enough to almost touch it, you realize that you are farther than you were before, that that 'light' was false? Then, you wonder, will i ever find the place I'M supposed to be, where people love me for ME, and notice when you're upset, can make you happy, and you feel safe? You wonder, is that even possible for me? and then, you realize in a flash, that the light you've been following? It was never the light for you. And then you sink to the bottom, and then, in a bigger flash, you finally realize that maybe, just maybe, it wasn't so bad after all. And then, finally, you stop, get out of the sludge, and finally, finally live. Will you take that step? Can you?

(Please note that this is based off a dream. XD so its a bit crazy.)