Title: New Beginning

Rating: K

Summary: Post Doomsday songfic. The Doctor reflects on saying goodbye to Rose and moving on.

Disclaimer: Doctor Who belongs to the BBC. New Beginning belongs to Shannon, or as Nicole Richie would say, "Sha-nnon" (emphasis on o) Noll.

Author's Note: I know, I know, another Doomsday fic. But after hearing this song I just couldn't resist.

New Beginning

The Doctor just stood there, rubbing his hands through his hair. That was the end of it. He'd never see Rose again. It just wasn't fair.

If I'd have known what you would say
I'd have turned and walked away

When she confessed her love for him, it broke his hearts that he wouldn't be able to see her again. He wished he could have been spared the pain, but at the same time he wouldn't have traded that precious time with her for anything.

Can't hold the tears back though I try
Coz there's nothing quite as sad as goodbye

The tears ran freely down his face. He didn't care. This was why he didn't do goodbyes. But he'd done this one, and now he was a mess.

Don't want to think about tomorrow
You won't be here by my side

He'd gotten so used to having Rose around, he didn't know how he'd cope without her.

All of a sudden I feel hollow
There's nothing quite as sad as goodbye

He felt dead inside. It seemed like there was nothing left to live for.

So I'm alone again
Trying to find a ticket to the next train
To the next train

Once again, he was alone. Everyone left at some point, but it didn't get any easier.

I'm on my own again, waiting in line
For a new, new beginning
New beginning

But now he had to move on. The universe was depending on him to be strong. He had to put the past behind him and concentrate on the future.

I know that we are better off
Still I feel that I've lost

There was comfort in the fact that Rose was safe. She had her family and her life back. And now he wouldn't have to watch her wither and die before his eyes. And yet … he wanted more time with her. So much more time. He wanted forever.

When I look into your eyes
There's nothing quite as sad as goodbye

When he looked into her eyes, he saw the pain she was going through, how much it was hurting her to be looking at him for the last time.

So I'm alone again
Trying to find a ticket to the next train
To the next train
I'm on my own again, waiting in line
For a new, new beginning
New beginning

After a few weeks, he decided in order to move on he had to remove anything that attached him to Rose. He dressed in a new suit. He locked all her possessions away. He wouldn't get rid of them totally, but he couldn't bear to look at them.

Back where I once started, try my luck again
Now I've got my heart set on a better day, yeah

She'd helped him find happiness again after the Time War, and now, like he lost Gallifrey, he'd lost her. Now it was up to him to find happiness again. He was determined to make the most of life. She'd want him to be happy.

Who's to say what's waiting just around the bend
Can't do more than hope and pray for a happy end

Maybe he'd find someone else who made him happy. Of course, no one could replace Rose. But he just wanted someone to hold his hand, to help him get through it all. And hopefully he'd come out of it all right. This was a new day, and a new beginning.

So I'm alone again
Trying to find a ticket to the next train
To the next train
I'm on my own again, waiting in line
For a new, new beginning
New beginning

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I'm thinking of doing a vid to this song, it's so sad! Please review.