Chapter 1

The first time I saw him, It was like a dream. Everything is to me. After what happened, everything has become but a blur, A splatter of paint on a canvas. Just like a dream.

Why? Why is it people always beat me up? I'm just quiet and I keep to myself. What's wrong about that? And so what if I'm gay? They have no right to call me a fag. But nothing really gets to me anymore. I hate how people beat emo's up and don't even consider why they're emo. It's just wrong. How can people love and appreciate whores and sluts then go and kick some emo's ass? Yeah. I get my ass kicked everyday. Those idiots have no idea what's happened to me. I may not show it but, what those people say, hurts me. I have no one anymore so it's not as easy as it was before to not kill myself. Why did Mom, Dad, and Sora, the last of my family, have to die in a car accident? Why did I have to leave him? Why did I have to be left all alone? It's not fair. It's not. It's just not.


I rose out of my bed. It was Monday. I hate Monday's. I also hate mornings. And my hair makes it just that much worse because, apparently, my hair insists on always being messy and spiky. I got dressed and then went to take a shower. Don't ask me why I got my clothes on before getting in the shower. I just did, okay? After I got out of the bathroom I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. was making breakfast. She turned around and smiled as greeting to me.

"Good morning, Roxas. Are you hungry? The others won't be down for a bit since your older and all." She asked, flipping a pancake. I just nodded. I haven't spoken in years. Not since the last of my family died.

"Roxas, honey. Please cheer up. You've lived in this orphanage for years now. Don't you think you can try and speak to me? You don't even speak to your teachers. So, please?" pleaded. She must really want to hear my voice. Well, she doesn't have any idea what is sounds like, I didn't meet her till after my family died. I don't even remember what my voice sounds like. Maybe I should say something. I nodded at her and she smiled. I sat up a little more in the chair I just sat in and opened my mouth to speak.

"G-Good..*cough*...morning...Mrs...Sinclair...*cough*..." I managed to stifle out. It's a good thing I started talking again, I guess. I mean, you have to talk to get a job, right? Might as well get used to talking again.

"Oh, sweetie!" She ran over to me, after finishing her current pancake, and gave me a glass of water and a hug. "Are you okay?" She asked, worried. I nodded then remembered I needed to get in the habit of talking.

"Yes." I replied after drinking the rest of the water. Man, you never realize how thirsty you are after not talking for years until you speak again. I looked up at who was still holding me.

"Roxas! You're starting high school today, right?" asked in her usual happy-go-lucky voice.

"Yeah. W-Why?" I asked, my voice still a little creaky.

"My sons only a year older than you. Do you want me to ask him to show you around the school and such?" She asked me. I smiled. Wait. I...smiled? What the fuck? I haven't smiled in years, not since I stopped talking. Well. I guess I'm getting closer to normal this way.

"Yes, please. If you think he won't mind." I answered, finally regaining control of my voice. I must've went through voice puberty while I wasn't talking. My voice is so awesome! smiled at my answer and said she'd text him in a minute. I don't see what the big deal about texting is. I mean, why don't you just call them, dumb ass? I don't even care. And by the way, just so you all know, just because I'm going to start talking again doesn't mean I'll start eating everyday again. I hate eating. It's such a nuisance. A waste of time, if you will. I love 's cooking but, me and eating just don't get along. I heard a clatter in front of me. I looked down at the plate that was set there, then up at . I made a face and pushed it away. As far as she knows I eat at school. But, I don't. She scowled at me.

"Roxas..." She threatened. I smirked.

"I'm not hungry. I'll eat at school. And I won't let your son show me around if I have to eat." I stated. She sighed and scooped up the plate and brought it back to the counter. I hate wasting food like that but, I can't help it. I heard some tapping noises and looked up from my zone-out to see texting. She probably texting her son like she said.

"Roxas-" She started slipping away her phone. "My son's going to be here in a few minutes to take you to school and everything! You'll love him!" She screeched. 's the only one who's still alive who knows I'm gay, well...besides...him...unless he died...anyways, she constantly tries to hook me up with people. Ugh. And now her son? This won't end well. I sighed. Well, at least it's my 'guardians' (She's not really my guardian, but I consider it so) son. If I hooked up with him and we got married, I'd have the coolest mom ever!

I heard the sound of the front door opening and closing, then big, loud footsteps echoing through the halls of the, almost abandoned, orphanage. The the door to the kitchen burst open to reveal...my boyfriend from so many years ago. He was panting and looked like he rushed here as fast as he could. My eyes widened and began to fill to the rim with tears. Axel...he was my boyfriend before my parents died...I thought I'd never see him again...I let the tears fall, our eyes connected and he rushed to me and embraced me so tight, I could hardly breathe. I started to sob and I heard he did as well. We stayed like that until interrupted with her curiosity.

"Axel...do you know Roxas?" She asked, obviously very curious. Axel pulled away from me, tears still running down his face, and nodded.

"Mom...you remember...my boyfriend...you didn't meet...back when we lived...in Hallow Bastion?" Axel asked between sobs. She nodded, then her eye widened with realization.

"You mean...Roxas...you were alway wrote to me about my son when you were writing about your old lover?" She asked, awestruck. I nodded. Shit. Gotta get out of this nasty habit of not talking. Axel turned to me looking confused.

"What does she mean you wrote about me? Don't you mean talk?" He asked, obviously confused. I shook my head and opened my mouth to explain.

"Remember...how 3 years ago...I suddenly disappeared?" I asked. I knew he remembered. He tried calling me so many times that day...He nodded and continued to just listen as I opened my mouth to speak again.

"That was the day...the rest of my...*sob*...family died...You know. Sora, Mom, and Dad..." I stopped for a moment to steady my breathing. I was having trouble because 1, I was sobbing, and 2, I was still trying to get used to having to release so much air after a sentence again. "These men...took me away...they threw me into...a metal institution and...and... took me in here...after I was allowed...to go to my family's...funeral..." I started to sob again. I had blocked these memories away, hoping to never have to relive them again...but I was wrong...It hurt almost as much as it did the day they died...I still don't remember how they died and when...all I know is I was with them and was the only survivor. Axel hugged me tight again, like he used to. It made me feel worse though. I know I put him through a lot of pain...I don't deserve him anymore. I held him back a little.

"I'm...I'm sorry...I know I hurt you...and...I'm-" He cut off my apology with his lips crashing into mine. I instantly kissed back, enjoying every second of this. I loved him. I'm glad I can just...


I opened my eyes and turned on my side to turn off the insistently ringing of my alarm clock. After I did so I put my head in my hands. Why? Why did I have to keep dreaming that would happen? It won't. It's impossible. No matter how hard I'd try, there's no way I could smile, talk, or see Axel again. And there is absolutely no way he's 's son. I sighed and stood up, stretching and probably cracking all the bones in my body before getting dressed. Screw the shower. My hair looks fine. I've given up on fixing it. it never helps anyways. I picked up my book bag and walked down into the kitchen. Like my dream, was there, smiling and whistling that little tune that perks me up while flipping pancakes. It seemed familiar but I couldn't remember anything solid about the scene that I apparently deemed familiar. But, it's not like I could just look back and remember my whole life either. How I know this? After, what my doctor told me, me and the rest of my family got in an accident (i don't know what kind) i apparently lost all memory from that day to two weeks later at their funeral. What I mean is, I couldn't, (And still can't) remember what happened in those two weeks before their (my family's) funeral. I sighed and sat down at the table. Maybe, just maybe...I'd make some friends if I started talking again... hadn't noticed I'd come in yet...sooo...

"Good...*cough*...morning, Mrs...*cough*...Sinclair...*cough*" I managed to get out my, non-talking for 3 years, mouth. She jumped and turned around to face me. She'd never heard my voice so she probably thought it was some psycho who sneaked their way in. He freaked out look instantly turned to one of excitement and joy when she noticed it was me who'd talked. She ran over and glomped me, squealing right in my ear.

"ROXAS! YOU TALKED! YOU FINALLY TALKED!" She screeched happily.

"...don't yell. You'll wake the other child-" She cut me off with another squeal.

"You're voice is so adorable!" She screamed, lowering her voice a little. I couldn't help but smile. But then, it instantly turned to a frown. This is just becoming more and more creepy with the likeness between this and my dream...well...even if it is just false hope for thinking like this, it's still nice to maybe consider I still have a chance with my only love, Axel. Maybe...I should ask just to be sure...

"?" I asked, making sure she was listening. She squealed.

"Yes, Roxas?" She asked, overly hyper.

"Do you have a son?" I asked. She nodded. Oh. Shit. "What-What's his name?" I asked, trying not to get too excited. She smiled and opened her mouth when...the door shot open.

"MOM! Riku called me a bitch again!" I recognized that voice. It was the voice. No, it couldn't be. I'm just being overly hopeful, Then the door burst open with a spiky red head and a silver haired boy following. "I was like, 'Riku, I could totally pwn you at air hockey' and he's like 'You're on' and so we played and I won and the he called me-" He stopped talking when he opened his eyes, which were closed since he was yelling, and starred at me. I starred back. My mouth was wide open. No. No. No. NO! This is impossible, Roxas! Wake up! I raised my hands to my head and held it. I closed my eyes tight. This can't be real. It must be a dream. I soon felt arms wrap around me and soft, yet warm tears on my shoulder. If this was a dream, would I be able to feel that? I opened my eyes and saw the red head hugging me and sobbing softly. "I-I thought I'd never...*hic* see you...again...*cough*...Rox..." He sobbed into my shoulder. Tears unconsciously started to fall down my face and a few sobs made it through my tightened throat. I hugged him back. He's really here. He's actually here, in my arms, sobbing into my shoulder. But, how? Last time I knew, which was 3 years ago, he lived in Hallow Bastion, as did I. Maybe...he moved? But, why? He had the perfect house in the safest neighborhood of that place. He couldn't have...no. He didn't care about me so much to leave his perfect home to find me.

"Honey. Is Roxas the 'Rox' you've always been talking about? The one we left Hallow Bastion to find?" asked. This question shocked me. They did leave Hallow Bastion, to find me. Why? He was planning to stay there for life. He told me so. He even said if we ever got married we'd start a family there, so why? Tears started streaming down my face as I pulled Axel closer. I began sobbing and I heard him laugh sadly. He pulled me back to examine my face and suddenly kissed me. I smiled through the tears and kissed back. He pulled away and looked at his mother. He nodded and she squealed.

"Omigod! You two are sooooo cute!" She yelled, glomping us both. I laughed and pulled Axel in to kiss again. He happily complied until we heard someone clearing their throat. I pulled away and noticed it was the silver haired boy who just walked in with Axel. His name must be Riku like Axel called out earlier. I waved and he chuckled and opened his mouth to speak.

"Am I missing something again, Axel?" He asked sarcastically. Axel looked at him and smirked.

"Nope of course not, Riku. I suddenly start making out with someone you've never met. You're no missing anything." Axel finished just as sarcastically. I laughed. squealed something along the lines of: "Omigod! You're laugh is sooo cute!". Riku once again cleared his throat and hit Axel playfully on the arm. Axel just laughed. I was entranced by it. I hadn't seen or heard him in 3 years, give or take. I grabbed his waist and pulled him close. I missed him. More than my parents. Not Sora though. Sora and me were twins. We shared a bond that could not be surpassed by anyone. Not even Axel. He chuckled a little before hugging me back. He soon pulled away, smiling.

"We should get going, Roxas, Mom." Axel stated. Then stepped in front of the doorway.

"Axel. Roxas is going to your school now. Will you take him to school from now on?" She asked, now serious.

"YES! Come on Roxas! Let's go!" Axel shouted before dragging me out the door and into the outside world. I'd been home-schooled by since I've first came here. I told her a month ago that I'd like to attend high school. She agreed and signed me up for my first year of high school. I hope Axel knows where he's going...It looks like we're just going in a straight line.

After what felt like hours of walking, we reached the school. As we were walking Axel told me all about what he'd moved here for and what he's done since moving here. He didn't ask me about why I had to move though. I think he must think it's a touchy subject. It is but, I'd be willing to tell him about it.

As we approached the doors a boy with a kind of mohawk, mullet thing, ran up to us and glomped Axel. This lead to a series of events that went like: Axel fell to the ground, A emo boy approached and pulled the hyperactive kid off of Axel, Riku laughing so hard he fell to the ground, and then Axel telling me these were two of his new friends. Apparently the mohawk mullet dude was named Demyx, the emo was Zexion. I liked him. He was quiet and not to rowdy like some certain redheads. I laughed at that out loud and gained some curious and skeptical glances because of it. I laughed as Axel did the crazy thing at the side of his head while pointing at me. He then ran over and kissed me repeatedly on the cheek saying 'sorry' every time he pulled back. Demyx gasped and since Axel, being the idiot that he is, didn't introduce me, I have to do so myself. I stuck out my hand to Demyx.

"Hello. I'm Roxas-" Axel cut me off by covering my mouth.

"He's my boyfriend!" He practically shouted at the top of his lungs. After screaming that he back off quite a bit because, and I didn't know this until it happened, Demyx suddenly ran over to me and glomped me. I fell to the ground Demyx tumbling after. We soon entered the school and I just knew, today's going to be interesting.

A/N: Well, here's the first chapter of DREAM! :) Please review and favorite! I loved writing this chapter! XD