Can't Blame A Girl For Trying
Song - Can't Blame a Girl For Trying • Sabrina Carpenter
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"I like you," there I said it. I just had to tell him. My stupid mouth just had to utter those three words that changed so much in the Riley-Maya friendship world. It wasn't the first time I'd said it either, I'd told him before that, one day on the subway. This was now though, in my bedroom, at near enough midnight, whilst my mom is working at the diner.
But he was Riley's, Lucas would only ever be Riley's, and he could never be mine. That's what made the reality of this situation so complicated. I mentally screamed, frustration over my stupidity getting the better of me and causing me to reflect on my words. There is a million other ways it could have been said, and I didn't use any one of them. He was going to reject me, I just knew it. So why did I have to tell him? I don't know, I just don't know. Though if I'm being completely honest, I saw no point in hiding my feelings if they were constantly on my mind.
Why'd it have to be Lucas? Any other guy and it would have been fine, but it was Lucas. Lucas and his southern charm, swept me off my feet and apparently out of my mind. This is my best friend Lucas, the guy that manages to take me out of my comfort zone every single day. The one person who understands my sarcasm and the real meaning behind them. Maybe that's why I was so excited to tell him how I felt? I mean I've liked him since I first met him, he must have caught on somewhere.
Unfortunately for me that wasn't the case. He just stood there jaw so close to the floor I thought it was broken. Huh, I guess I wasn't as straightforward as I remembered.
"Lucas?" I ask again tentatively, I had to try something. Something that would strike a relation out of him. Something to stop him from looking so shocked. He wasn't replying, and I was getting desperate, I needed to know if he felt the same way. Well no time like the present, I had to move now or I'd risk further embarrassment.u
"May-" Lucas started but it was too late I'd already made my move. I kissed him. Right on the lips. Seconds passed, and I pulled back. Still no response. I knew it was wrong of me to do that but can you blame me? He just stood there in all his Texan glory, confusion etched on his face despite the simple that graced his lips.
Not that I was much better, my cheeks had lit up, red as roses. My hands tried desperately to cover my face from his view. Now that I had at least attempted conveying my feelings, I became embarrassed. Embarrassed that I, Maya Hart, could break my cool over some boy. And a taken one at that.
Oh no.
He was taken. He was Riley's. He was the future husband of her best friend. And I kissed him. I betrayed her trust, betrayed the best friend code that everyone knew but never knew why. Something's were not to be touched like your mums best jewellery or your best friends guy. I broke the boundaries but at least I tried. Tomorrow morning I'm going to come to school with the words betrayer in marker pen stuck to my forehead.
All these thoughts and more rushed through my head as I stood there in just as much shock as Lucas about my actions. Neither of us spoke, we just waited for the other to wash away the awkwardness by saying something, anything.
"Maya," Lucas began once again, "what was that?"
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that," I apologised though he probably didn't hear me as my face is still covered by my hands. He moved first, his hands came up to replace mine as he held my face in his hands, forcing me to look into his eyes. "I mean you've got Riley, and you're all happy and stuff. You've got a future all planned. She is perfect for you, crazy but perfect. I'm just Maya, plain old Maya."
"Who said that I had Riley?" He chuckled at my rambling, causing me to blush even more. Our eyes locked the minute he stopped chuckling, he was serious about whatever he was going to say next. His hands dropped and he walked over to my bed and sort of threw himself onto it. "Who said that I even liked Riley like that?!" He practically shouted.
"You don't?" I asked, becoming braver and walking over to him.
"I mean sure we talk a lot but I've never told her once that I was interested in that sort of relationship. She just assumes that because we spend time outside school together that I'm into her." He sat up, grabbing my hand and pulling me to sit down next to him. "We hang out more that I do with Riley, but why am I hers? You obviously like me as much if not more than she does. Plus we've already dated." He adds cheekily, now starting to calm down.
"Lucas, she likes you! She isn't me, she won't move on ever." I state, staring into his eyes, trying oh so desperately to talk sense into him despite my feelings. "Every time you walk past her she looks like a love struck puppy, isn't there anything in her that you like?"
His grip on my hands became tighter, determination in his eyes, and his breathing became slower. I was pretty sure he could hear my heartbeat, with how loud it was pounding in my ears. As much as I was trying to convince him otherwise, I wished he would choose me over Riley. Then it happened, our roles were reversed, he kissed me. It was over too quickly, leaving me wish for more.
"What was that?" I asked, breathless.
"I like you," he confirmed, grinning at me the same way he does everyday. Ever since I've known him I could never decipher the smiles, the smirks or the grins but now I know what they mean and I couldn't have been more stupid. He liked me, not Riley. I shuddered as I always do whenever I saw a challenge from Lucas.* I knew from that moment on our lives would change but for tonight, I couldn't be happier.
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*the noise Maya makes whenever Lucas doesn't play her game.
A/N: not my first fanfic, but certainly my favourite. Hope you enjoyed my one-shot be on the look out for more GMW fanfic and please follow, fave and review xx
