A/N:Just something I've had in my head for a while,not sure if it's any good appreciate reviews thanks
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JW
The years of dance, drama and vocal lessons gave led up to this moment. My NYADA audition strangely I'm not nervous at all. I feel at peace like this is meant to be. Millions of moments have led up to this moment. All you have to do is just be yourself because you're a star.
"I'll second that" I smile turning to see Finn standing behind me with that adorable half smirk he has across his face.
"Thank you" I say accepting his flowers While he bends down to wrap me in his arms. His arms the only place where I will always feel safe and secure. Any doubts I had immediately vanish from my mind. He releases me and I smile up at him.
"You nervous?" He asks
"Oddly enough, not at all.""No, I'm I'm ready."
"Rachel Berry." The announcer calls.
Finn gives me one last quick kiss good luck before taking his seat in the audience.
I then make my way onto the stage with as much confidence as I can muster.
"Hi. I'm Rachel Berry, and I'll be singing "Don't Rain on My Parade" from my favorite musical, Funny Girl."I tell Carmen Tibideaux who is as intimidating as ever as she glances down at her notes.
My music begins to play and close my eyes to feel the music and the lyrics.
I open my eyes and begin:
"Don't tell me not to live just sit and putter
life's candy and the sun's a ball of butter
Don't bring around a cloud to rain on my parade
Don't tell me not to fly
I've simply got to
Life's candy and the sun's a"
I freeze my hands fly over my mouth. This has never happened to me before and I've been belting out this song since I was two years old.
I can see the looks of shock on the faces of Finn, Kurt, Blaine and .
"I'm so sorry" "I'm so so so sorry, please just let me start over one more time" I apologize to miss Tibideaux
" Please just start over" I whisper to the band
I start over:
"Don't tell me not to live just sit and putter
life's candy and the sun's a"
Oh my God I can't believe this is happening again. Oh my God
I hear Finn saying " Oh god" and Kurt saying "This isn't happening"
This is a complete disaster oh My God I can feel the tears start to come to my eyes desperately trying to keep them in as i nervously flatten my hair for what seems like the 100th time today.
" I'm.. I'm so sorry.. I don't know.. I know this song backwards" I take a deep breath praying to every God I can think of I can just get through this one song.
"Please just let me do this one more time" I beg
"No" Miss Tibideaux utters that two letter word that shatters my world.
"excuse me?" I ask in a small voice so unlike my usual voice.
"You get eight bars I gave you six-teen" She briefly pauses "Do you know what happens When you forget the words on Broadway? They give the job to your understudy" "I'm very sorry but this audition is over" she says collecting her things and not sounding very sorry at all.
"Wait please please please" "you have you have to please just give me one more chance" I beg finally allowing the tears to fall. "Please"
She leaves with so much as another glace at me.
Finn's pov
Oh my God I can't believe this is happening to her I sprint down to the stage gathering Rachel in my arms, Because it just breaks my heart seeing her crying alone on stage.
Rachel's pov
After Miss Tibideaux leaves, I can feel the tears freely falling down my face and I'm sobbing to. I feel Finn wrap me in a warm comforting embrace. He kisses the top of my head and whisperers in my ear"shh shh shh It's okay everything's going to be okay shh shh shh" As he holds up my entire body weight without him i would of fallen to the floor by now. He continue to hold me rocking me back and forth whispering reassurance when I hear the others approach. I look up into Finn's eyes and see nothing but love as he kisses my fore head "it okay" he repeats "I'm sorry" I whisper before breaking down in sobs again. "hey" he says stroking my hair where my face is buried in his chest. "you have nothing to apologize for shh shh BabyGirl it's okay" he continues to hold me gentle rubbing my back whispering reassurance.
I finally look up at him again "I'm sorry" I say " I let you down" I pause " I let everyone down" I say as the tears continue to fall. I finally look away from him and at the others "I'm sorry, Mr Schuester I'm sorry I let you down." I manage to choke out before i break down in sobs once more. Mr Shcue Slowly comes over to me removing me from Finn's arms and replacing them with his own bringing my head to his shoulder. " You didn't let anyone down today Rachel" He says before releasing me.
Kurt and Blaine both give me hugs and reassuring me before leaving with Mr Schue. I don't blame them who would want to be around a loser like me I'm just destined to become a Limer Loser. Finn walks over to me wrapping an arm around my waist and leading me into my dressing room. I remember how I felt when I was in here earlier now I feel the complete opposite.
Finn sits on one of the chairs pulling me into his lap I rest the side of my face against his chest and close my eyes as he kissed the top of my head again. "Everything is going to be alright I promise, okay?" he asks I nod against him. "Finn I never want to sing ever again" I say quietly into his chest. Feeling the tears spring to my eyes again "what?" he exclaims. "But your the most talented person I've ever met." He argues. I look up at him as the tears start to fall again. "I can't" I whisper "Okay" he says bending his neck to kiss my forehead. "Do you want me to take you home" He asks gently "No, I want to stay. I whisper against his shoulder. He Kisses my head one last time before we get up. "Time for Glee club come on" he tells me reaching down to take my hand.
Mr shcue's pov
"Okay guys quieten down" I tell the glee club they really are my pride and joy, there like my children. Poor Rachel
Just then Kurt and Blaine walk in holding hands, they both look upset.
"Hey guys how did the audition go Kurt?" Mercedes asks
"Mine went okay I guess" Kurt numbly replies
"Oh come on" Blaine says, "You did amazing."
"That's great, but you don't seem that happy Kurt is everything okay?" Mercedes asks him concerned.
"Wait a minute, where are Rachel and Finn?" Sam asks looking around as everyone starts to look around I share a look with Kurt.
"That's actually what I need to talk to you guys about" I tell the club
" There's no easy way to say this but..." "During Rachel's audition" I pause all the kids look really concerned about this.
" She uh well she um" " She choked" I finally tell them, there stunned.
"It was just awful" Kurt Says shacking his head.
You guys need to be really supportive of her right now okay she's going to be really fragile and the moment and you really need to be there for her, all of you" I say making eye contact with all of them.
Rachel's Pov
"I love you" I tell Finn before we enter the choir room.
"I Love you more" He tells me giving me a tender kiss that is brief but bursting with love.
We then enter the choir room together his arm around my waist. As soon as we enter everyone stops what there doing and looks at us, well at me. They don't mention anything but they obviously know. But I am certainly not bringing this up. Finn leads me over to the chairs taking a seat and pulling me into his lap, I snuggle close and he kisses my hair.
The rest of the school day passes without incident nobody outside the Glee club knows what happened, I imagine tomorrow won't be so easy.
I meet Finn by my locker as usual he leans down to kiss my cheek. "Hey you ready do go home?" he asks I nod He kisses my temple takes my bag and leads me to his truck helping me into the passenger side (because it really high when your this short). We drive to my house in silence. When we arrive Finn pulls up onto the driveway outside. I look up at the only house I've every called home, but I've never felt less at home it looks imposing and unwelcoming. Now I have to tell my dads about my audition... I feel a shiver go down my spine.
" Hey" Finn says scooting down the bench seat to pull me close.
"It's okay" he says kissing my hair
"Do you want me to tell them with you?" He asks knowing exactly what I am thinking. It's still a little unnerving at times that he can tell what I'm thinking just by the look on my face but really it's just another reason we love each other so much.
"No" I say shacking my head " This is something I have to do alone" I say "I'll call you later?" I say yea he say giving me a gentle kiss "I love you" He tells me "Love you too" I say with one last kiss getting out the truck (with Finn's help) and facing my house. I walk towards it taking deep breaths. Now I have to tell them...
A/N So that was chapter one hope you liked it. please review. And if anyone is interested looking for a Beta reader for this story thanks
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JW