"If I was the only one able to help her, I would do it." that's what I told them, and that's what I meant.
I trusted them. They trusted me, so I thought. I successfully healed her. But its not how they showed you. I could never hate Inuyasha, but at that moment I couldn't care less. What they did to me. it's a great and powerful hate, and misery. But back to reality.
I am drowning. Falling weightlessly to my death. I saved her from Naraku's miasma. I was, AM, helping Inuyasha avenge her death. But no, her only wish is to take back, her soul, no… it is mine. I AM KAGOME. Two years of trying to convince myself that, I am my own person. Sometimes, when I'm with Inuyasha flying through the sky ,I can believe I'm not just a reincarnation, I'm here because he loves, me. Me. My only, one. I wish.
In the depths of this pool, I hear voices. Singing. I am here at camp. Fire enveloping around my face, caressing it with tender flames. I want it to burn me. Make me feel. I've already felt so much.
He is here at camp. Sango, Shippo, and Miroku lain across kilala, Miroku's arm clenched around Sango's body. Warmth. How I so want to be held like that, how so I want to be pressed up against someone, knowing I am safe. For the rest of my life. But it's not to be. Not when I'm here. I have to leave. Find the voices.
I turn and grab my yellow bag. So many memories. No, I will not need the bag where I am going. I can feel it.
I take a deep breath and stand.
"Kagome….Where are you going?… We need to talk." I am not surprised when his golden eyes sweep over me. I walk forward to him and push forward my hand.
It seems like a gesture to help him up, and he takes it like so. Instead I shake his hand.
" I am following the voices. I don't know if I'm coming back. It doesn't matter anymore. I wont be calling your name anymore."
Kagome!? What are your saying! What voices? " His clawed hands were on my shoulders now, gripping me, trying to hold on.
I pulled away, and told him once again. " I am going to find the voices, you will find kikyou."
I walked away, he stood still entranced, I am being pulled toward the pool that just hours ago, I was left, burning, drowning.
The voices. I sing with them.
I waited for You today
But You didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
He didn't come. I got myself out. And when I did, only a mile away, He and kikyou. Talking. They were too close. Too familiar with each other. I wanted to go home. That's when those voices came.
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen YouAre You still there?
They were telling her to go back to it.
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never aloneAnd though I cannot see YouAnd I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
She was here. She was waking on water. I am standing on the middle of the water as they told me. They sound so familiar to my soul I cant bear it. Through the clouds a single light of the sun shines on me. It expands and through the darkness I am ignited.
We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen
He is behind me , but i dont care.
We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisiblE
I'll trust the unseen
Something runs through me and I am being lifted through the sky. Straight up. I see faces coming down , so many faces. And a leader, a leader that I recognize, deep into my soul.
Aranita.