Prologue
This turning into a giant wolf thing did nothing to help the home situation; my mother was still never home long enough for me to get more than a few words in. For having lived on the Reservation all my life I don't think that I got a chance to really know my own mother, Sue Clearwater was more of a mother to me than my own flesh and blood. It was not like I got surprised anymore, hell we never talked about anything remotely personal. It was Sue and Harry whom I told when I was fourteen, and told that I had no feelings towards girls. And it was Sue who held me when I cried at night trying to come to terms with the fact that some of the kids I had known for years wouldn't speak to me anymore, and Harry who rushed me to the hospital when an older group of kids decided to beat up the little gay Annorah kid. Puberty was a godsend for me, no more jumping the little kid anymore. Instead I became a lot taller and way snarkier and let very few people into the walls with which I surrounded myself with.
Leah was like me in so many ways we could be mistaken for twins, not only because of the caramel skin tone or the raven locks though, she had chocolate eyes and mine were a stormy grey a complete contrast to my coloring. Seth was the cute in an annoying brat sort of way but they were my family. John Uley's kid, Sam, wasn't too bad he didn't care what I did as long as I wasn't weird around him. And Billy Black and Old Quill Aterra had raised their children to have no prejudice and so the loner, was not really that alone.
The Rez took care of most of our needs; but the school, due to the growing demand for education, moved all junior and senior classes to the high school in Forks, twenty minutes out of Reservation land. It got a little tricky for Leah and me, because over the summer we had started shifting, and we were not the calmest of people; therefore we ran the risk of exposure more than the others. Sam was a senior and so was more level-headed also he was our Alpha we wouldn't want to willingly disobey a direct order to maintain our cool. Jared was the only other one we even spoke to and he also was moving schools with us, but contrary to the 'Fiery Duo', he was as cool as a cucumber.
This move was also going to be harder on us because the elders had been given warning that the leaches were moving back into the area and both sides were redefining the treaty that was made all those years ago. To now include two newer members to the coven and exclude a former member. It turns out that the doctor's wife died shortly after they left the first time, and he had been re-married, as well as an additional male.
Leah, Jared, Sam and I rode to school in my truck since it was the biggest, (a guilt ridden present from my absentee mother- the best thing she ever did for me was to make Harry and Sue my guardians). I even had the windows tinted for more "mystery". The only other vehicles that appeared new in the school lot were a silver Volvo and an all black Ducati. The bike looked like a custom job. Well here goes nothing. Leah and I went to the front office together to get our schedules. We both smelled the nearness of the blood suckers but we ignored it, it wouldn't be a good idea to let emotions get the better of us and then miss the first day. I for one knew that Sue would chew me out for neglecting my studies- she was a tiny woman standing at 5'3" but she could make a guy of 6'5" feel no more than two inches tall- definitely a mother's gift.
I had all my classes with Leah, and the copper-haired vampire was in our Math and Biology, we didn't sit anywhere near them. But lunch time we all headed to the cafeteria and boy was I hungry. I loaded my tray and sat with my back toward the Cullen's, only the blonde pretty one and her giant of a mate were at the table. They were soon joined by the copper-haired one who by now we knew was called Edward. Last but not least one other person joined the table, and I said person because they didn't smell sickly sweet like the rest who occupied that space, they smelled of honey and freshly cut hay, I was surprised and turned to look directly into the saddest golden eyes I had ever seen. And at that moment my world tilted on its axis, my eyes took in tussled mixed blond hair gently waving to his delicate chin, high cheek bones and pale white skin. I froze, my food forgotten as well as the presence of those around me. This could not be happening now and not with….with, him! This is what Sam meant when he said he took one look at Emily and she was the only one for him, but….but, he's a leach, a bloodsucker- I am designed to kill him, could fate really be so cruel? I got up handed my keys to Sam and left quickly without a word.
I jogged into the woods near the school, stripped down and phased then ran as quickly as I could home, phased back and put on my clothes. Sue found me on the porch swing I don't know how long I had been sitting there. I felt her softly touch my shoulder, and then the tears started. She just sat there and stroked my hair as I laid my head in her lap and sobbed. The last time this had happened was three years prior when I came out of myself imposed closet. She didn't say a word she just held me and comforted me. When the tears finally stopped we sat in silence for a while.
'What's wrong my baby? Was it the kids at school, did they do something?' "No mama, it's just that I've found him, the one I'm meant to be with forever, but he can't be mine, it hurts so badly but I can't tell anyone else because they would hate me. He probably hates me too- but- he looked so sad... (Hick)…"
'It's alright baby boy everything will work itself out, you'll see. Now that you're here do you want to help me bake some cookies from scratch? They will make this all seem so much better when it's over hmm?'
I just smiled but inside my wolf had already started mourning its loss