Dear Diary,

He loves me, well he use too. We use to laugh together, play games, go out, do everything. We were joined at the hip. That is until That happened.

It was just a normal day. Everyone was hanging out on the couches together, just laughing about something our residential idiot did, like always. I was sitting next to him discussing if we were going to talk to his father today about, well us. He kept making excuses, He has meetings all week, He's going on a buisness trip next week, all that shit. I knew he was lying, that he just didn't want to tell his father. I thought I understood why, I mean I assumed that his father was going to flip when he found out and say he had to break up with me and that I would bring his family no profit but apparently I was wrong.

I had gone to the washroom as everyone was leaving but he stayed in the room to wait for me. I got back to the door but stopped when I heard hushed whispers a crash and then... I couldn't believe what i was hearing so I opened the door. Worst mistake of my life. I think I would have been happy without knowing, I mean they do say ignorance is bliss. In the middle of the room, acting as if it was completely normal, was my boyfriend and someone else... Making out.

When he saw I was there he imediatly pushed away and started saying that it wasn't what it lloked like. But it was what it looked like. He had been cheating on me. I found out later that it had been going on for weeks. When I finally asked him about it he admitted to it. He said that I was just a fling, a fun side thing. He told me he had never loved me and then broke up with me.

I cried. I cried for hours. I didn't show up at school for weeks. I got stopped eating. I stopped talking. I stopped seeing everyone. I had stopped living really. I had loved him, honestly and truely. I thought that we could have survived anything and that we might have even been able to get married in the futur. I thought it was a forever and always thing. Oh how wrong I was.

Honestly, I really have given up on living. I guess that's why I'm writing this. To explain to everyone why I did this. This is a goodbye and an apology. I'm sorry I ignored all of you and that I never properly got to say goodbye. I will always remember all of you. You guys were my friends and my family. My only regret is that I will never see you guys again.

And for him, I really did love you and I always will. I just hope you are happy with your new life. I'm sorry you only saw me as a fling and that you didn't get to have a happy relationship when you were with me, that you had to resort to someone else. And if I was picked up after rather than before then I'm sorry you were so bored of your relationship that you got another one. I just want you to remember all the happy memories you have of me. I love you forever and always...

As you guys will never be able to talk to me again then I have to say everything I want to here. I enjoyed every minute of hanging out with you guys. I'm so glad we sticked together through the ups and downs, I'm just sorry that I will never come back up from this down. I'm sorry it had to end like this. My last request is to remember me alive, well and most importantly happy. I'm sorry all this happened...

Goodbye...