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Kagome sighed. She had only returned here, to the past, one month ago, and she was already very annoyed. She loved being around Sango and Miroku, and their children. However, the kids were very young and energetic, and took up most of the loving couple's time. Shippou had been ecstatic to see her return, jumping onto Inuyasha's head as he lifted her from the well and yelling "Kagome! You're back!" However, he had promised the sword master who was training him to be back quickly, and had to return after spending a few days with Kagome. She spent some time learning about medicine and healing from Kaede, but now the old woman had Rin to teach as well, and Rin helped out with chores.
Of course, Kagome had returned here to be with Inuyasha. She spent most of her days with him. But, as time passed, she felt more and more like she was forcing herself to be around him. She had known he was easily riled up and like to fight, but she had expected to see a bit less of this side of him with Naraku gone. Instead, it got worse. Without one thing to focus on, he was always looking for someone to fight with; some way to become stronger still. He had already dragged Kagome along with him when he had heard of a demon who, when slain, might make Tetsaiga stronger. However, it had turned out to be only a rumor among kids in the area, and he had become very angry, even hitting the boy who told him it was just a story to scare the younger kids.
Even worse than Inuyasha's restlessness was his sudden, extreme possessiveness over her. It had started almost immediately after she returned from her own time. He wanted her to tell him where she would be any time she wasn't wit him. Not long ago, he had started snarling when she went to visit Miroku, or any of the other young men from the village. Soon after, he had even started trying to prevent her from visiting any men or women her age, allowing Sango and Miroku only because of his own history with them. He answered questions for her, and wanted her to accompany him on any small trip outside the village he took.
Kagome had tried to explain to Inuyasha that she was from a time when women were more independent, and she was not his possession. He had frowned and said "I'm just keeping you safe, you never know when the next danger might come!" And it was then that she began to feel like one of his "projects", something to keep him busy now that they were no longer hunting Naraku. She wondered if this exaggerated possessiveness was something normal in this time period, but she saw no similar examples in the town, and when she asked Sango about it, the demon slayer had frowned and told her to set Inuyasha straight. Today she was going to have to have another talk with him.
Kagome sighed and took Rin's broom and her own to the shed they had come from. For the past couple days, she had tried to spend slightly less time with Inuyasha to see if it would make things better, and had been helping Rin with chores and hearing her stories of traveling with Sesshoumaru. She sighed again as she heard the sound of Inuyasha running towards her, his feet stomping against the ground.
"Kagome!" She heard him yell, "Where have you been all day? Hurry up and come with me!"
"What is it now, Inuyasha?" She could hear the exasperation in her own voice.
"We're going to see Toutousai, to see if he has any tips left on how to get my sword stronger!" He exclaimed as if it were obvious, oblivious to the tone of her voice and the grimace on her face as he spoke.
"Inuyasha, Tetsaiga is plenty strong as it is!" She said, her voice slightly raised. He still didn't recognize the signs of her anger.
"Of course it's strong, but I'm sure it could still be stronger! Besides what are we going to do if we don't train more, and keep finding things to do?" He questioned, still not really noticing Kagome's deepening frown.
"Oh, I don't know, Inuyasha," she snapped, "not settle down and be happy that we have this peaceful time now that Naraku is gone, of course. Not spend time with our friends or their new children, or visit Shippou. That would be silly. And of course, we shouldn't even bother to think about maybe finding someplace to live together that isn't inside Kaede's hut, or think about starting our own family together!" She was yelling by the time she finished speaking, and panting slightly. Inuyasha looked taken aback.
This was a point that angered Kagome. Maybe she wouldn't even mind quite so much about how possessive he was, if Inuyasha would show some kind of hint that he wanted to commit to her at all. They had shared a few chaste kisses since her return, and Kagome had made her feelings for him known, he had not said anything or tried to push anything further.
"Alright," he said, "I'll be right back, wait here." He ran off and Kagome stood, still seething. Eventually she calmed down, feeling ashamed of how angry she was getting. She was supposed to be someone with holy powers, of all things! She wondered if all this anger would affect her powers, but then realized she'd probably been this angry before without anything happening.
By the time Kagome was fully calm again, Inuyasha returned and took her hand, leading her somewhere. They arrived at a house that had previously been missing a wall since Naraku's attack. Inuyasha had clearly used his strength as a hanyou to do what the previous owners could not: get the wall back up. She briefly wondered why he had not helped them before, and then looked at him.
"We can live here!" Inuyasha said, clearly proud of his work. Kagome forced a small smile onto her face, knowing he had done this for her sake, and trying not to think of the poor family who had had to build a new home entirely from scratch while she had been in her own time. He led her inside, and sat on a dusty, but perfectly intact chair. He pulled her down to sit on his lap and kissed her. This kiss was not so innocent as previous kisses the two had shared. Inuyasha's hands caressed her back, slowly getting lower. He kissed her with a need she could feel strongly, and slid his tongue back and forth in her mouth. Where his hands brushed lightly, fire seemed to follow, but she found it hard to let go and simply let her body take over while his tongue was stretched in as far as it could reach, almost uncomfortably so. His hands began to tighten slightly on her waist, his claws close to piercing her skin, but not quite doing so.
"Ow! What's gotten into you, Inuyasha?" She pulled her head back slightly and asked. He grunted slightly, panting and flushed, and Kagome could feel something under her leg that probably meant he wasn't pleased with her interrupting where they had been going.
"All demons go through some periods of…" he paused, clearly unsure of how to put it, "extreme need in their lives. Inu demons are especially affected by this."
"Why haven't you gotten like this before, then?" she asked him, curious.
"I have," he answered, his rushed speaking showing how much he wanted to return what they had been doing previously, "but I've generally just avoided females during those times, and hunted or something. They only happen for a couple of days every few years when a demon reaches maturity. Demons with more power and control can better control their urges, though. Being a hanyou, if I become human during this time, it doesn't really affect me at all." That made sense, but still… She had never really thought of Inuyasha as someone who had a lot of control.
Before she could ask him if he had really never lost control with someone before, his mouth was crushed back against hers, and his hands were exploring again. He ripped off her obi so that her kimono fell loose. She sighed mentally. She had to pick today of all days to wear the nice kimono that Kaede had given her not even three weeks ago. The obi was probably beyond repair. Inuyasha's hands slid inside her kimono. While some places he touched did leave little trails of fire, others were just scratched.
Kagome might not feel especially aroused, but Inuyasha clearly did. She wondered if he would make it to the next step, or if their kissing would… um, satisfy him. Then she blushed and shoved that thought aside. Inuyasha moaned slightly, the sound almost like a growl coming from him. She ran her fingers through his hair and one of them brushed the tip of his right ear. He groaned louder and squirmed beneath her, readjusting her legs until she straddled him. She could feel a lump against her butt cheek now, making what they were doing seem much more real.
Kagome was torn between a sudden panic about what was happening and a desire for it to happen. Still torn, she lightly brushed both of his ears with her hands while his hands slid deeper into her kimono, slowly going down. He moaned again and that firm something pressed tighter into Kagome's backside as he pressed his body against her where he could, using his hands around her waist to rub her against him. His eyes snapped open suddenly, the lids heavy with lust, and he pushed her to the ground. He appeared to have lost all control. Kagome was just deciding to give in to him, to get it over with, when he moaned something that sounded more like words. He repeated it, and this time she heard.
"Oh, Kikyou! Ohh," Inuyasha had moaned. Kagome felt as if she had turned to stone. She turned her face from his quickly and pushed at him until she could get up. She looked away from him, her eyes filling with tears. The dog sat on the floor, awareness flooding back. He was very disheveled, and she imagined that she looked worse, but still Kagome turned for the door.
"Wait, Kagome!" he yelled, jumping up. She didn't look at him, and kept walking. He jumped in front of her, "I didn't mean to say that! During these times, I just… lose myself to fantasy a little bit, that's all."
"And when you fantasize, of course it's about her. I should have expected this really. I just… I can't…" She could no longer form words; her tears were getting worse and she heard them in her voice as she spoke.
"No! Well, yes, I do fantasize about her, but," Inuyasha had a familiar look on his face. It was the expression he had come back with after every meeting with Kikyou. He swallowed and continued on, "it's only because... you know, she was my first love and all. I guess I just never got a chance to do anything like this with her, or to really start our romance, and that still bothers me."
Kagome had often felt like a replacement for Kikyou; it was hard not to, being her reincarnation. This was probably the most she had ever felt like a replacement since meeting Inuyasha, though. She tried to stop her tears, but sobbed, "you'll never fully get over her, will you?" Inuyasha didn't answer, but his eyes very clearly had the answer in them as she looked into them. Kagome pushed the door open, holding her kimono together. Inuyasha didn't follow her.
Kagome arrived back at Kaede's hut still trying to calm herself down. Yes, she had been feeling less for him lately, but Inuyasha had been the only person in her thoughts for years now, and she did still love him. She corrected herself: had loved him. She had to stop loving him now, since he would probably never feel the same passion for her. He might love her, but not more than the image of Kikyou he still kept in his heart. She told herself that as of now, she no longer loved him. She was lying, of course, but she did feel a little better. She opened the door to the hut.
"Kagome-sama, are you alright?" Rin asked as soon as she saw Kagome's face. Kagome tried to smile, but the smile faltered and she finally gave up.
"No," she admitted, "I'm a little upset." Rin ran to her and gave her a hug. Kagome hugged her back, grateful for the sweet little girl's kindness. She looked up to see Sesshoumaru staring at her. She tried not to look so ragged, blushing at her appearance.
"Last time this Sesshoumaru was here, you seemed in good spirits, miko," he commented. "I believe you called me 'Onii-san, or something to the like." He frowned at her. She would have smiled under different circumstances, remembering the look he had given her when she had called him that.
"Well," she looked at him angrily, "don't worry about being called that ever again, because that's actually not happening!" She stomped past him to look for something else to put on.
"Sesshoumaru-sama, can Kagome-sama please come with us?" Rin begged quietly, tugging at his sleeve. Kagome looked back, surprised.
"Rin, you're going somewhere?" she asked. She had gotten rather fond of the young girl being around, and had been hoping to hear more of her tales to cheer her up in the following days.
"Sesshoumaru said I could come live with him for just a little bit, because I've been missing him lots!" The girl practically shouted in her excitement. Jaken jumped out from behind his master.
"Don't you go inviting whoever you want to come along, Rin!" He scolded her, "Sesshoumaru-sama doesn't need another filthy human tagging along behind him, being a nuisance!" He pointed his wooden staff at Kagome as he said this, and Kagome had to resist the urge to stick her tongue out at him. She was sure it didn't matter whether or not Rin asked anyway. Sesshoumaru would never want her to —
Sesshoumaru spoke up then, cutting off her thoughts, "she can come if she wishes." He was looking at Kagome. His eyes seemed to pierce deep into hers and she shuddered. She was shocked. She sputtered a little, not knowing how to reply.
"Oh, please come, Kagome-sama!" Rin urged her, grabbing hold of her hand, "Rin likes being with Kagome-sama!" The young girl smiled up at her and Kagome's wounded heart felt slightly better. Maybe she could go with them. It would be a nice break from Inuyasha, anyways, and she was sure she'd be back by the time Miroku and Sango could really entertain guests anyways. Shippou could always come visit her when he was on breaks from training wherever she was. She looked at Kaede.
"It might do ye good," the old woman smiled at her, "to be away from here for a little while. And Rin might like the female company in her travels." Rin nodded eagerly.
"Um… Yeah, what the heck, I'll go!" She finally burst out. She looked at Sesshoumaru, who had looked slightly confused by the words she used. She knew he wouldn't ask for the meaning of her phrase, and she smiled a little. Her first genuine smile in a while. Sesshoumaru stood and walked towards the door.
"We will leave shortly," he said, not looking at her. Kagome scrambled up to get some things together, wondering what she had just gotten herself into.