If I said, "You shouldn't"
That was the day he asked me about Cassidy. He wanted to ask her out. I admit, I like Cassidy. She was so nice and caring and sweet. I didn't see anything remotely bad about her. She would make Austin happy. She could give him everything that I couldn't give him.
She would be able to perform on stage and sing and dance with him whenever he wanted to. She would proudly call him her boyfriend without shying away from embarrassment. She would be able to move onto bigger and better things instead of being trapped working at her fathers music store. She would be everything he needed. Everything he could ever want.
Because he deserved only the best.
If I said, "Do you want to go out with me?"
I had the perfect opportunity. We were both closer than ever. He was able to get through Cassidy's move. I was working on a song with him. I was on the right side, and he was on the left side of the piano bench. Our hips were slightly pressed together. Our shoulders would bump playfully every so often, and we would laugh. Our arms would brush over each other every time we wanted to reach a key on the opposite side, and we would smile and a faint tint of red would reach the tips of our ears. We were so in synch with each other, both swaying to the tune. It was a happy song.
Lively. Upbeat. Playful. Fun-loving.
And absolutely perfect.
Just like him.
If I said, "I love you"
The beat thumped beneath my feet as I jumped up and down, yup, still can't dance, while belting out the lyrics. High energy. It was another hot night in Miami, but I continued to perform with all that I had. I turned my head towards my partner, my best friend, my crush: Austin Moon. All too soon, I could no longer hear the bass as it vibrated beneath us, instead, all I could hear was the thundering applause and cheers. We just finished another song. We both performed it this time. I could sing on stage with him. I could be known as the person who'd always be by his side. He reached out his long arm and wrapped it around my waist to pull me closer. I fit snugly underneath his arm, and I copied his actions by hugging the small of his back. I could feel his ragged breathing on my ribcage. He looked down as I looked up. Our eyes interlocked.
"Austin..."
He gave me a wide smile, one that I have come to know very well over the past few years, one that brightens up my day, one that says so much more, one that I've come to love. "Yeah, Ally?"
"Austin... we did great."
My stage fright might have disappeared, but at that moment, so did my confidence.
This was actually something I abandoned for a while and I just got back to it. Message from me to you: Seize the moment, because life comes at you fast.
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