Probing Thoughts
Elena looked silently at the rain pouring on her window sill as she wrote her thoughts down in her diary.
Dear, Diary
Stefan is back to normal and things should be back as they should be, but, they aren't.
Elena shook her head silently as the she began to write again.
How could they after Stefan almost hurt me, almost killed Amber, almost took his own life, especially after what he did to…
She shut her eyes, trying to remove all the thoughts that flooded her mind at the thought of his name. But it did little to help. It only made the situation worse as she remembered her vivid dreams about him.
I think I'm going crazy, diary, you see. I don't know why, but he always crosses my thoughts and is always in my subconscious even when I try not to think of him. He who is forbidden to me, he who is Stefan's brother, he whom I think about now when I know I shouldn't. I was so angry at him for turning Isobel into a vampire and for torturing Alaric and Stefan endlessly, mercilessly. I almost gave up on him. I called him a 'self serving psychopath with no redeeming qualities'. But…
But…
He saved his brother twice. Though he claimed not to care for Stefan, he still helped him. And…
He saved me. He saved me from embarrassment and utter humiliation at the Founders Day Gala. God, the way he looked at me as we danced, the way he held me as if… he cared for me, wanted to protect me. As if he lov-
Elena sighed in frustration. As if he was capable of any human emotion besides hate and selfishness! She was angry. She almost fooled herself into thinking that he could change again! But he always let her down, and afterwards she would feel like a complete idiot and her heart would ache, but why? She pushed those thoughts aside as she looked down at her diary and scribbled something before she shut it with force and tucked herself to sleep.
Damon Salvatore was once a human with emotions and a heart, but that person is gone now. Gone with the hatred that consumes him. And if I think that I can change that, then I truly am a fool.
Elena
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