Hello
"Playground school bell rings again"
That metal ball that smashed against the metal circle summoned me inside, the sharp ring still kept repeating itself in my small childish mind. Breathing in and out, I walked into the same gloomy classroom, about twenty heads turned towards me. What, what, have I done wrong? My fragile heart ached; they all had a sad face, almost looking fake, I pulled out the wooden chair and sat down behind my desk. We were set an drawing task, my imagination took over, before I knew it the teacher came over to me and summoned me outside. "Jade," she spoke carefully and grabbed my shoulders, my heart beated fast, I did not take anything she said to me. I ran fast, faster than I ever had, I saw my mum in the office; I grab tight on her and never let her go… Tears flooded down my face and all over her coat, she joined in with me holding on to me tight, like I was the only thing left she had. Oh, wait; that is true…
" Rain clouds come to play again"
They forced me to go back to my lesson, they pulled me away from mum, I screamed, mum cried, I ended being dragged back to lessons, my mind going wild. Glares came from everyone when I walked in, they did not have a right to know what was happening! Coldness took over my body, are you ok? Someone asked me.
"Of course I'm not ok, what do you think!" I growled. Same school bell rang, I had to go eat my dinner, I walked outside, and the rain was thrashing down hard, people walked into the dinner hall, which was located outside the main building. What was I going to do now? Thud, thud, thud my heart was sinking, I looked to the corner of the dining hall, which is where we used to sit, together, laughing…
"Has no one told you she's not breathing?"
Gloomily, I walk out and sit on the rusted bench, a girl with black hair and pale skin comes up to me. She scrapes some of her hair back. "Did someone tell you she's not breathing?" Her voice was soft as she said this, I nodded, I walked away running into one of the toilet cubicles, I put my head in my hands, crying until my eyes started stinging. I slammed the door open, I looked at my hair, it was a mess I tried to make it look better, no, no, NO! I cannot do anything anymore.
"Hello, I am your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello"
My eyes fluttered shut, I saw my sister, she was carrying her favourite teddy, and she disappeared. Hello? I asked in my head, are you their? Sis? No! They took you away from me! Someone shook me, my eyes opened, I thought it was her. My head turned, it was the girl with black hair, she took me back to my classroom, I sat down, the teacher was explaining some type of method for English, Hello? Hello? Sis, can you hear me? You haven't gone have you, you have just gone to play, that's right, isn't it?
"If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry"
Rain still thrashes outside, I was getting soaked, I did not care, I didn't care about anything anymore! My bag slides down my shoulders, I did not have anyone to talk to, not like normal, but I know, this is just one of my silly nightmares. My silly nightmares, I just know I will smile, when I am happy I normally wake up! People try to fix me, but I am not broken, just emotionally sad, there is nothing wrong with me, I am just grieving. Hello? Yes, I am lying to myself, my sister hasn't gone, she just gone to play, that's what I will tell you… I walk through the door; mum is sat in the corner crying.
"Don't cry, mum, she's just gone to play, I tell you, I'm just going to bed!" Creak, the stairs make a lot of noise as I carefully walk up. I ignore my sisters room, she just gone to play round her friends, maybe a tea party, I keep imagining more games she could be playing. Until I drifted into a deep sleep…
"Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday"
Light pears through my blue eyes, I rush up into my sisters room, its empty! What? I run to mum.
"Why, hasn't sis come back from playing with her friends, mum?"
"She never went, sweetheart, she's not coming back, you do know that don't you? She's gone, she's dead, but we will get through this together, you understand, hun?" Hello? Sis, I hope you hear this, but I am still here, they took you away from me, why? Hello, I still have all that I had yesterday…