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Glass Hearts
In every human there is a heart. A heart that always beats until the fates decide to cut your string. But the heart is an easy thing to break. And once it is broken, the damage cannot be undone, but the remaining parts can be kept safe, and some of the fragments can be put back together. But there will always be a pile of shattered glass.
My heart was broken. Long ago, it seems, but broken nonetheless. and although I have moved on to the extent I am able, at night I cannot keep from thinking of him. And sometimes silent tears run down my face, when my husband is not around.
You see, after Edward left, I waited. 10 years, I hoped and cried and was disappointed. But then I began to forget. I forgot his voice, and every word he said was monotone. Like I was reading it from a book. After that, his faces of his family slipped away, and then his. But I still loved him, I knew he had been there, I went to their house every month to trim back the bushes and dust. I wanted one memory, even if I did move on.
And do you know why I forgot? It was because of Jacob. He saved me, so to speak. And he was my best friend, and like a true brother to me. How I wish he was my flesh and blood brother. But as time went on, he told me that he loved me. And at the time I didn't share his affection. I loved him, but in a completely different way.
As years passed, and I grew even closer to Jake, I began, by slow, imperceptible degrees at first, to fall in love with him. He realized it long before I did, though. And, then suddenly, it had hit me, while we were walking on the beach an I found myself staring at his lips as he talked. So I leaned in and kissed him, and boy, did he react. By the time we had stopped kissing, I had probably invented an entirely new color of red on my cheeks. And so, from then on, we were a couple.
Though I still feel guilty, that doesn't stop me. Even though I understand that Edward harbors no love for me anymore, I still feel, albeit to a minute degree, that I am betraying him in some way.
And when I was 27, Jake proposed. I, of course, said yes, but at our wedding, which was beyond amazing, as I looked at him in his suit, and with me in my long chiffon and silk dress, I couldn't help but wonder what would have happened if Edward had stayed. Would we be getting married now, instead of Jake and I? Would I be a Vampire? Pointless questions, but I couldn't stop myself from thinking them.
2 years later, I was pregnant. It was twins, a girl and a boy, and their names were Alice Rose and Robert James. Alice had Golden blonde hair with brown mixed in. Chocolate eyes, a beautiful smile, and she was pale, just like me. Robbie had black hair, with bright blue eyes. I have no idea how he got those eyes, but they were amazing.
And they grew up, and as decades past, I forgot Edward. All I remember now is the name. and one sentence. The one that broke my heart in the first place. "It will be as if I had never existed. It had become almost like that now, over 50 years later.
And my children had children, who grew, and began to have children of their own.
And then Jake died. I was devastated. That was only 5 years ago. and he had a funeral, and everyone came. Leah, Seth, everyone in La push came, it seemed like.
And now it is almost time for me to die. But over the years, I thought I saw a sparkle in the corner of my eye, a movement, graceful and glimmering. And I still believe, just maybe, he still loves me.
Maybe he cares.